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Thanks to runwithskizzers, X-treme67, and Tears like Crystals for reviewing! I agree with Tears like Crystals…SasuSaku is kawaii! And that's partly why I'm writing this story. Although I don't think this story is very kawaii…
Music: "My Love" by Justin Timberlake ft. T.I.
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B r o k e n T y p o g r a p h y
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Chapter 5 - Unlike Symphony
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Step.
Step.
Step.
He knew.
He could feel.
She was here.
"Sasuke-kun?"
He turned around slowly.
Seeing her there, smiling at him, and looking curious.
"Ohayo, Sasuke-kun."
"Aa. Ohayo."
He saw her face light up in delight at his rare greeting.
He could feel something stirring inside his chest.
He didn't know what it was.
Silence.
"Ano…so…did you need to tell me something? Or…something?"
Silence.
He didn't know why he had told her to come.
Pause.
"…Sasuke-kun?"
He brought himself out of his thoughts.
"Uh…no real reason."
He watched her blink in confusion.
"Eh?"
He sighed inwardly. How awkward.
"Just…for a walk."
Silence.
He saw her face beam happily as she reached a realization.
He had asked her to a walk. Something that had never happened before.
"Hai, Sasuke-kun!"
He watched her smile blissfully.
Turn.
Step.
He began walking in a direction.
Step.
Step.
Step.
He heard her fall into step beside him.
"Eeto…so, Sasuke-kun, what do you want to talk about?"
Silence.
"…whatever you want."
Surprise.
He could feel her surprise.
He was surprised with himself, too.
Whatever she wanted? What was he thinking?
Her.
Oh. Right. Her.
Anything to make her happy.
"Oh. Um…what did you have for breakfast?"
Silence.
Step.
Step.
Step.
He was suppressing the urge to laugh.
What did he have for breakfast?
What a lame question.
He could feel her burning with embarrassment at her own query.
Pause.
Step.
Step.
Step.
"Tomatoes."
Silence.
No.
He did not just say that.
Nope. No he didn't.
He heard her giggling.
Yes he did.
Stupid.
"Raw?"
He froze.
Silence.
"Uh…no."
Pause.
Step.
"Then what?"
He sighed.
"I had…a tomato…sandwich."
Silence.
"Oh."
He could hear her stifling her giggles with great difficulty.
What kind of person ate tomato sandwiches for breakfast?
Oh yeah. Him.
How sad.
He could feel his face heating up.
"You?"
He heard her stifled laughter stop.
"Mmm, just cereal."
Silence.
"Right."
They continued walking.
Step.
Step.
Step.
"Erm…so…did you get a good night's sleep?"
He snorted.
"Eh."
Silence.
"O…kay…."
Pause.
"Are you feeling better today?"
Stop.
Silence.
He could feel her turn towards him.
He looked around at her, expression serious.
Pause.
"Aa. Much better."
Pause.
"That's good."
Silence.
He saw her smile again.
"Arigatou for asking, Sasuke-kun."
"Hn."
He merely grunted.
"What about Sasuke-kun?"
Silence.
"Sort of."
His mood had lightened considerably when she had arrived.
But he wasn't going to tell her that.
Of course not.
Step.
Step.
Step.
"What are you doing today?"
He saw her look at him curiously.
"Ano…not much. I probably won't train today. Maybe clean my room and go shopping. Catch up on stuff with Ino-pig. What about you?"
Silence.
He didn't answer.
He could feel her smiling slightly.
"Sasuke-kun is probably going to train again, mm?"
Pause.
"Aa."
They fell silent once again.
He didn't know why he asked her out on a walk.
He didn't know why he asked her about her plans for the day.
He wasn't thinking of asking her on a…date, was he?
No.
Of course not.
Definitely not.
Absolutely not.
He wasn't that infatuated.
Yes, he had reached a conclusion.
He was simply infatuated.
He did not love her.
Nope.
And yet, he was in denial once again.
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See her
Hear her
Taste her
Touch her
My eyes
Train to her
Following
Always following
She moves
My heart jumps
She speaks
I long for her to continue
She smiles
Enrapturing me with her beauty.
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He stared at his reflection.
The stoic face seemed to be mocking him.
Completely masking the inner thoughts running around in his head.
He loved her.
No.
He was infatuated with her.
That was all.
He did not love her.
And even if he did…
No.
There was no even.
That was it.
Period.
He did not love her.
He had been weary and mind-wracked the previous day.
That would explain his quite insane thoughts.
But…
He had never been in love with anyone before.
No.
It was infatuation.
He would have to stamp that firmly down into his mind.
Infatuated.
Infatuated.
Infatuated.
Infatuated.
He was only infatuated.
Still…
He had never even been infatuated with someone before.
He didn't know how to handle his feelings.
Because, suddenly…
She looked beautiful.
So suddenly, he wanted to touch her.
But suddenly, he wanted to be with her.
Yet suddenly, he wanted to talk to her.
And suddenly, he wanted to ki-
No.
No.
No.
He stopped that last thought.
It has just popped up into his mind, unexpectedly.
He didn't know what to do.
These thoughts were driving him crazy.
Hec, his feelings were driving him crazy.
He wondered if anyone else felt the same way.
Surely, not his fan girls.
Oh wait…wouldn't they fall under the category of infatuation?
Well, they wouldn't be a help anyway.
He highly doubted that the lazy Nara was.
He knew that the dobe was exceedingly infatuated with her.
Just that…the dobe was more open to the feelings.
More shameless.
And yes.
He was ashamed of his feelings.
They were a nuisance.
They interfered with his training.
With his daily life.
How was he supposed to do anything when his mind kept reverting back to her?
Nothing.
He could achieve
Absolutely
Nothing.
He had to find a solution to this problem.
Thump.
Thump.
Thump.
He could hear his heart beginning to beat faster and harder.
He hadn't been aware that she had this much effect on him.
But…
He wondered if she felt the same way.
What if she did?
Then…
Could they be…
Together?
Silence.
Thump.
Thump.
Thump.
No.
There was no way they could ever be together.
After all…his feelings were only the result of infatuation.
Which would probably disappear over the course of a few days.
Yeah.
It would be over soon.
Then he could just sit back.
Relax.
And just laugh at the feelings he had now, that would become silly later on.
He would wonder what he ever saw in her.
And question if he had been mentally afflicted by the exams.
Silence.
Pause.
He sighed.
What pitiful thoughts.
Here he was, mulling over these mundane things.
When he could be training for the chuunin finals.
Why was he here, anyway?
Trying to solve his…problems.
He wished that his feeling would just go away.
Go away.
But to no avail.
Silence.
And yet…
Thump.
Thump.
Thump.
He was back at the beginning of the circle.
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She fills my vision
Swaying in the wind
Flowing like water
Through my veins
These feelings
Make me wonder
Why I feel for her
Perhaps her beauty
Or maybe her voice
The movement of her breathing
Or the seductiveness of her eyes
Capture me
Imprisoned
In that emerald prison.
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Step.
He was walking along a dusty, not as crowded road next to some shops.
Step.
He needed something to take his thoughts off of her.
Step.
Training wouldn't do.
Step.
He didn't have any work.
Step.
He didn't have anything to buy.
Step.
He spotted something in a shop.
Stop.
It was a beautiful, crystal, sakura.
He stared at it.
Silence.
The enchanting crystal glittered in the showcase, the sun's rays reflecting off of its many prismatic surfaces.
Silence.
It was beautiful.
Like her.
It was fragile.
Like her.
It was captivating.
Like her.
He caught sight of the numbers on the price tag. And…
It was expensive.
Silence.
Step.
Step.
Step.
Very expensive.
Silence.
He found himself entering the store. He wondered why.
"Hello, Uchiha-san."
He turned around and saw the store clerk smiling at him. He briefly speculated aon how the clerk could've known that he was an Uchiha.
Oh, right.
The Uchiha crest on the back of his shirt.
"Hn."
He merely grunted.
He saw the clerk's smile waver slightly at his cold expression and meaningless grunt.
"Ano…um…do you need help with anything?"
He stared at the clerk.
"Did I ask for help?"
Silence.
He saw the clerk turn red with embarrassment.
"N-no…s-sorry to disturb you, Uchiha-san. P-please feel free to ask if you need anything…"
He turned around to continue his observation of…what?
What was he here for again?
I want…to buy…
To buy what?
That…crystal…
Oh…
Silence.
Pause.
Wait.
What?!
Since when did have any intention of buying that overly-priced, completely worthless crystal?
It isn't worthless.
And I had the intention of buying that overly-priced, completely "worthless" crystal the moment I set foot in here.
Damn.
He didn't even have conscious control over his own body, anymore.
Silence.
"Huh? Sasuke-kun?"
Freeze.
Silence.
Pause.
He turned around slowly.
And saw…
Her.
Standing there, near the entrance of the door, looking at him in confusion and surprise.
Damn it to hell.
"…"
"Eeto..Sasuke-kun? What are you…doing here? I didn't know that you liked crystals."
He was caught.
Damn.
"Uh…"
That was really intelligent.
He heard her giggle slightly.
"I'm…not."
He watched her stop, and look up.
"Oh. Well then…what are you doing here?"
Crap.
Crap.
Crap.
"I…don't know."
Great.
That was a wonderful reply.
Absolutely wonderful.
He would be known as the dimwit Uchiha who doesn't know what he's doing.
He heard her frantically trying to stifle her giggles.
He watched as her shortened, pink hair swept down to cover her face, as she bent over, laughing.
Sigh.
He felt a twinge of annoyance in him.
It wasn't that funny…
"G-gomen, Sasuke-kun."
He sighed again.
She had finally stopped laughing.
"You?"
He watched her look at him, blinking in incomprehension.
"…eh?"
He raised an eyebrow.
"What're you doing here?"
He saw her face dawn with understanding.
"Oh! I just came in to look at that."
His eyes followed her finger, coming to rest upon…
No.
Not that.
…
It was that sakura crystal.
"…I see."
He saw her smile, out of the corner of his eye.
"Hai! Isn't it pretty?"
He noticed her eyes shining in delight as she looked at the crystal.
"…"
He heard her sigh.
"But it's so expensive…"
He frowned slightly, but his back was to her, so she didn't see.
"But it's nice to look at."
Silence.
He gazed at her expression, his eyes never leaving her face.
Pause.
"Sasuke-kun?"
He realized what he was doing.
"…hn."
He watched her giggle again.
"But don't you think that it's pretty?"
His eyes flickered back to her, seeing her stare at the flower, marveling at the way the sunlight reflected off the many, tiny, colored prisms in the sakura crystal.
He contemplated something.
Turn.
Step.
Step.
Step.
"Eh? Sasuke-kun? Where're you going?"
He didn't reply.
Step.
He approached the clerk.
"How many of those are left?"
He watched as the clerk stared at him in bafflement and slight wariness.
"Eeto…that is a special crystal. We only imported one to this store."
Pause.
"I see."
Silence.
"I'll take it."
He saw the clerk's eyes nearly bulge out of her head.
"T-take it? Y-you mean…buy it? Now?"
He snorted scornfully.
"Did I sound like I meant something else?"
Silence.
Thud.
The clerk had dropped a plastic container in shock.
Silence.
Pause.
"Ano…o…kay. P-please wait h-here…"
He observed as the clerk walked over the display case, take out a key, remove the crystal carefully, and re-lock the case. The clerk brought the sakura crystal back.
"W-would you like it wrapped?"
He gave the clerk a level stare.
"Aa."
"Uh…would you like the g-glass box or the n-normal box? T-the glass one is an additional f-
fifteen dollars."
Silence.
"Glass."
Silence.
"H-hai."
He watched as the clerk carefully put the beautiful sakura crystal into a small, pretty, glass box. Then, the clerk cautiously wrapped the glass box with lovely, glossy, purple wrapping paper. She slipped the wrapped package into a small, nice, white and black gift bag.
"H-here, Uchiha-san. The t-total shall be t-three hundred and t-ten dollars."
Silence.
He handed over the money.
All three hundred and ten dollars.
Silence.
He received the bag.
Turn.
Step.
"…Sasuke-kun?"
He watched her stare in shock at him, as he handed the bag to her.
"It's all yours."
He walked out of the shop.
Silence.
He could hear her fall into step behind him.
"But…Sasuke-kun…what for?"
Silence.
Step.
Step.
Step.
He paused.
"Just think of it…as a reward for your performance during the exams."
He left.
Feeling her stare of shock.
And hearing her faint call from behind him.
"Arigatou, Sasuke-kun!"
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Then I know it
A condition
I never thought I'd be in
My heart pounding
Always pounding
This feeling
This longing
By looking
Feeling
Thinking
Hearing
Filling a void
I never knew was there
Infatuation
Interfering with
My feelings.
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He sat on a bench in the garden.
The Uchiha garden.
Silence.
His mother and father once sat here.
In this very spot.
Laughing.
Talking.
Not knowing what was going to happen in the future.
But now…
He was the only one left.
The whole clan…
Slaughtered.
Silence.
Like boars.
Silence.
By that person.
Thud.
He looked down.
A rock had fallen from a fountain onto the ground.
He was silent.
Thinking…
Her.
He couldn't get her overjoyed face out of his head.
Her expression of delight when he gave her that sakura crystal.
Her wonderful smile.
Silence.
He didn't know what to do.
He wasn't even sure if he was only infatuated with her, anymore.
…was he?
Or…was he…in…l-
No.
He mustn't think that.
Never.
For…
He knew.
He would never be able to love.
Not when that person was alive.
Never.
Ever.
For…
If that person found out…
He knew
That she…
Would die.
That person…
Would kill her.
Just to spite his foolish little brother.
Him.
The way that person had kept him alive.
Silence.
Pause.
He reached a conclusion.
Even if he loved her…
He would never let her know.
He would have to get rid of that feeling.
Of the happiness that would fill him when she laughed.
Of the joy he felt when she smiled.
Of the pleasure he experienced when she spoke.
No…
They would all be gone.
Because…
Simply because…
Love.
Would never be possible for him.
Not when that person was alive.
Never.
Ever.
Until he killed his older brother.
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Believe in me
What makes this up
Twirling
In threads
An intricate design
That twists our lives
Playing with our emotions
For I love her
Maybe more
Or less
What makes up the basis of this
No one but we, can tell.
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He couldn't stand her smiling.
Smiling.
Always smiling.
Her green eyes sparkling in the sunlight.
But more so, today.
"I'm so happy, Sasuke-kun."
Silence.
"It's not even my birthday or anything, but you still got me this! Even if it's a reward…it's still a bit much."
Silence.
"Arigatou, Sasuke-kun."
Arigatou, Sasuke-kun.
Arigatou, Sasuke-kun.
Arigatou, Sasuke-kun.
That sentence played back over and over in his head.
It was imprinted in his mind.
Driving him crazy.
"Sasuke-kun? Are you alright?"
He snapped.
"No, do I look alright to you?!"
Silence.
Deathly. Silence.
Thump.
Thump.
Thump.
Thump.
Thump.
"…I-I'm sorry…g-gomen…I d-didn't know…"
He saw.
Her eyes, so downcast. Sad.
He felt guilt arise within him once more.
Once more. He had made her sad.
"Sorry."
Silence.
Shock.
"…?"
"I didn't mean to sound so harsh. I'm just not…dealing alright."
Silence.
Smile.
Her smile…so dazzling.
Beautiful, like her.
But she, was a cherry blossom.
Sakura.
Pause.
"I'm sorry for interrupting you, Sasuke-kun. I understand, with the stress of the final exams and
everything. I should've known. But you're so cool, you know, Sasuke-kun! I would've probably buckled from the pressure. But you're here, still coping with it! I admire you, Sasuke-kun."
Silence.
She…admired him?
She loved him.
He could see it in her eyes.
But…maybe…
It was just him.
Imagining.
His crazed mind jumping to conclusions.
"It's fine."
He watched as she looked at him, tilting her head to the side.
He suppressed the urge to reach out and stroke her hair.
What had happened to him?
Why.
Just why.
Was he so pulled in by her?
It was so unlike him.
But then…
He knew.
That she had changed him.
He wasn't the completely empty shell he was before.
Before team seven was created.
Her…and that dobe.
"Well, Sasuke-kun, I need to go home now. Arigatou once again, and I'll see you tomorrow! Ja
ne!"
He watched her walk away.
And once, she was gone.
As he turned around…
Silence.
He realized.
That he had forgotten to bid her goodbye.
Stop.
Pause.
He smiled wryly.
She was really taking a toll on him.
And all he could do.
Step.
Step.
Step.
Was go along.
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Fate is cruel
For I saw
In her eyes
Love
For another
Him
Just him
And her
But not me
She simply smiles at me
Turns away
Laughs with him
And leaves me
All alone
But then
This is infatuation
Only infatuation
But just enough
To make my heart ache.
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Right into poor tormented Sasuke-kun's thoughts. Poor Sasuke-kun…Sakura, don't you see what you're putting him into? Anyways, hope that you guys liked this one. Oh, Sasuke…just confess already! Okay, I'm just kidding. And Happy late Halloween to everyone! I drew some SasuSaku that I'll post in my profile.
The lyrics in this chapter are from a song of mine called Designs of Infatuation.
Comments, questions? Or just want to tell the whole world just how kawaii SasuSaku is? Then send a review! Thanks to all you guys for reading/reviewing.
