The following journal entry takes place between the episodes "A Foot Too Big" and "Buried Secrets". As always, all rights to TMNT goes to their respective owners.
April O'Neil: "Journal of our Journey"
I can't believe it...I can't believe what happened today. My mind is being flooded with emotions right now and I still don't know which emotions to process. Something happened today between me and one of the turtles...
Okay journal...yes. It was him.
There's still a lot that has happened over the past couple days and there's a lot of stuff that went down to say the least. We encountered some sort of "Bigfoot" creature, something I thought was only a legend. But after realizing that I'm friends with four humanoid turtles, I shouldn't think that things are unheard of anymore, right? There's a lot to talk about, as well as a lot on my plate.
Don't worry though journal, I'll save "him" for last, because the way I feel right now, I could go all over the place with what I'm about to write. I just hope it doesn't affect how I write about everyone else...
This is so awkward right now... :/
Leonardo - Acting Differently
For the first time ever, Leonardo is acting like something I never thought I would ever see him act like...a teenager. Leo had been hanging out with Casey a lot more lately, which upon first thought feels like a complete ying and yang of personality. Until I noticed what was really happening, Leo's acting differently around Casey, not like the way he would act around me or any of his brothers. And I can only shake my head.
Yeah, I've seen many people in my days act different around someone in an attempt to befriend that person; it just feels weird to see Leo be one of those "people". I guess it just shows that none of us are immune to the effects of being a teenager. I guess I need to tell Leo that he shouldn't worry about things and act like himself around Casey too.
Then again, I see "you know who" act like himself around Casey too, and that doesn't seem to work out a whole lot either...is it a Casey thing?
Yeah...this is really awkward. :/
Raphael - So far, Not so good
Other than a brief training session with the gang as a whole, Raph and I haven't really been around each other lately. While it doesn't seem like a big deal usually, this time it does worry me, especially after what happend eariler. It almost feels like he's avoiding me.
I hope it's not the case, I figured I'd give him some space after he was a literally turned into a plant a couple of days back, I had figured he'd not want a whole lot of company, to get his mojo back. Maybe this whole "Bigfoot" thing was just driving him crazy, knowing Raph it wouldn't surprise me either.
I was kinda hoping this country life away from the city would allow Raph to ease his mind and control his emotions. So far, not so good. He's made it clear from the start he's not going to be able to get used to this life, but it would make me feel a lot better if he at least looked like he'd give an effort though.
Again, knowing Raph...not likely though.
Michelangelo - Adjusting
Unlike Raphael, Michelangelo appears to be adjusting to this country life very well. It surprises me for I would have thought he would have been the most affected by his increased dependency of working and lack of video games and stuff. But he's handled it well so far.
It's almost like Mikey is becoming a different person...turtle I should say. It's ironic that when it looks like Leo and Raph look like they're taking a step backwards, Mikey takes two steps forward.
Keep up the great work Mikey. I'm proud of you! :)
Casey - What else is new?
So yeah, Casey didn't handle our "Bigfoot" saga very well...I know, surprising no one right? And here I thought the turtles were going to be the only ones to have to adapt to this rural lifestyle. He hates doing chores...although he does give the "I'm going to train with Leo and Raph." excuse. Whether he is serious or not...whatever. I ended up having to chop wood eariler for the fire tonight. It's supposed to get pretty cold for the next week.
I know he means well wanting to help the others and all, but he really needs to think about helping everybody as a whole, not just a select group. I wonder if it has to do with what happened also...
I wonder...
Gosh I sure hope not...
April - "..."
I really don't know what to even write about myself right now. Nothing at least that wouldn't pertain to "him" or what happened with "him".
Alright Journal, I guess I've kept you waiting and wondering long enough.
I guess it's time I talk about what happened with me...and him.
Donatello - "Three strikes and you're out!"
Donatello and I had an...interesting encounter yesterday morning. Remember when I wondered what Donnie was doing cooped up in the barn for the last three days? Yeah, I found out. He had appearently been making some kind of music box for me...for me. I was a little uncomfortable about it too...okay a lot uncomfortable.
But I could tell Donnie wasn't too sure about his gift to me either, I could see it in his eyes. He tried faking a smile and covering it, but he could feel the awkwardness about this. I didn't handle it well...of course I probably would have if I didn't know Mikey was hiding behind the couch. (Yeah Mikey, I saw you...)
Something happened to Donnie after this chain of events, but I don't know what it was. It wasn't about what I did, because he was still around me during our "Bigfoot" saga. Something happened afterwards...
Did the whole Bigfoot thing freak Donnie out about something...Did Raph get to him? Honestly, it wouldn't surprise me if Raph said something to him again about all this, Donnie told me about his conversations with Raphael in the past about him and me. Raph has been adamant about wanting his brother to give up on his "meaningless crusade" as Donnie has put it. to me.
Then this morning...it finally happened. But not in the way I could have ever imagined.
The words that Donnie spoke to me, could almost be translated to just that. "I give up April."
WHY DONNIE! I don't want him to give up. I want him to be himself and do what he feels is right. But what he said this morning, he was speaking another...turtle's words.
So I kissed him...I need to be honest. I like Donatello a lot, and when he finally gains the courage and confidence to truly tell me how he feels and I how I feel back to him, I'm probably going to say "yes". But remember this well Donnie.
I hate...HATE QUITTERS! Always have and always will. And when I first met you Donnie, you weren't that...not even close. But lately, you've begun to change. I like you too much Donatello, I'm going to make you keep fighting, keep believing. I care about you too much to let you just give up on yourself. So I'm going to give you every opportunity to speak your true feelings. But if I feel for one second that you don't believe in what you're saying or if you're saying it as a "white flag" statement, I'm going to stop you. Believe in yourself Donnie. How can we as a group depend on you to keep fighting when the time comes for our imminent battle with The Kraang to take back the city, if we already know you've given up on yourself? If I have to kiss you a hundred times to get you to keep fighting, I'll kiss you a hundred and one. But you're never going to quit on me. Not in a million years! Not if I have anything to do with it!
If you quit on me, well I'm afraid you're going to make my decision a whole lot easier. This is twice you've tried and twice I've stopped you. I 'm pretty sure in Baseball it's "Three strikes...and you're out!"
I'm sorry Donnie but it just has to be this way... :(
Well, time to turn in for the night. Tomorrow we're going to take on the impossible task of cleaning up the farmhouse. Can't wait for that boredom to come...
Until next time...good night journal...and to all of us becoming stronger of mind and soul tomorrow... ...Donnie...
Until next time, thanks for reading. :)
