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Dr. Water didn't know if he should sedate Kensi or honor her wishes. It could cause a setback if she didn't calm down soon. He calculated the risks and decided the wisest thing to do was to leave her alone for the time being. Once again he wished he could take back his words. Talking to Kensi nonchalantly about her pregnancy had really set her off.

Deeks really wished he hadn't tuned out what Dr. Walter said to Kensi. He was really confused by her reaction though. He had seen her annoyed before and even angry, but never livid to the point of publically losing it. He felt like a deer caught in a headlight. He didn't' know which way to go. Only when he saw Dr. Walter leave the room, did he stir and follow him.

Even through the closed door they could hear Kensi yell at them. When her yells turned to sobs, Dr. Walter beckoned Deeks to come with him further down the hallway. "I obviously upset her telling her about the baby. I'm going to talk to the nurses and let them know they should check up on her in the next 15 minutes. Why don't you leave her alone for a bit and try in a few minutes to see her again." "I'll take this time to phone Hetty." "Okay, see you later."

Deeks couldn't wait for Dr. Walter to leave. It had been like any other day. Kensi seemed to be on the mend and now she could hurt herself. He really wished he or Hetty would have broken the news to her about the pregnancy. They both knew how Dr. Walter liked to blab things. He better phone Hetty for some advice.

"Hetty we have a problem. Dr. Walter told her about the pregnancy in his inconsiderate way. Yes, you were right. She didn't take it very well. What if she finds out that we knew? Okay, I'll tell her to talk to you. Thanks, bye."

Deeks turned back to Kensi's door. He tried to keep an ear on what was going on in her room. At first had heard her crying loudly and then there was silence. After a few minutes he heard a lot of banging. He wasn't sure if he should enter her room or not. Finally curiosity won out and he slowly opened the door.

"Whoa Kensi," Deeks said as he saw Kensi storming around the room trying to gather her stuff, "what do you think you are doing?" Deeks carefully approached Kensi. He had been witness to a few of her reactions before. Even in her weakened state she could do damage to him. "What does it look like I'm doing? I'm getting out of here." Usually Kensi was very graceful in her movements, but together with the adrenaline flowing through her weakened body, nothing about her was remotely graceful about her right now.

Kensi was so busy trying to get her things out of the night stand that she didn't notice Deeks approach her until she felt his arms around her. She tried to fight him off, but he turned her towards his chest instead. All of a sudden a dam seemed to burst and Kensi collapsed against Deeks sobbing. All of her fight had gone out of her and her legs felt like jelly. The headache that had been on the wane was back full force. Thankfully Deeks was very strong and could support Kensi's weight. Where she had been storming around the room a few seconds ago, now she couldn't even stand.

Deeks looked at all of the items strewn across Kensi's bed. Some of the items would make a terrible racket if he threw them on the ground, but he needed to support her. The best thing to do, was to just hold her on his lap. Deeks rubbed Kensi's back as he told her, "its okay. We'll get you through this."

When a nurse came into the room to check on Kensi, she was unprepared for the state of the room. She saw all of the items Kensi had thrown onto the floor (all of the items Deeks had missed because he was concentrating on Kensi), the cluttered bed and Kensi quietly crying on Deeks' lap.

Deeks could see the nurse was about to say something, therefore he shook his head at her and indicated that she should give them some more time. He was handling it right now. The nurse nodded at him and left the room.

The next few minutes saw Kensi calm down. It seemed one minute she was crying and the next she was back under control. Before Deeks could say something to Kensi, she got up and tried to clean up her bed, "thanks Deeks, I got it from here."

Kensi couldn't wait to leave the hospital. Since her headache had started to wane and her strength was coming back she had been really getting annoyed by all the daily questions she had to go through. Today, Dr. Walter asked her routine questions she barely even paid attention to anymore. She was totally unprepared for the next words that came out of his mouth. "It looks like you will make a full recovery and should have no problem getting pregnant again." All blood seemed to drain from her face, while at the same time heat rose to her head. "What do you mean I can get pregnant again?" Kensi forcefully said to Dr. Walter. Out of her periphery vision she noticed Deeks' head whip around to look at her. A look of guilt covered his face.

The last straw came when Dr. Walter said to her, "I'm sorry, I thought you knew. You were pregnant before, but you lost the baby. You really need to calm down." And then Deeks wouldn't leave her alone. She had had enough. She just needed to get them both out of her room. It was a cruel way to tell someone they had lost a baby that they didn't even know they had. She couldn't even process the look of guilt on Deeks' face. It was a betrayal she didn't even want to deal with. Even though Deeks had seen her crying before, she just wanted to process the news of her pregnancy on her own and in her own way.

After Dr. Walter and Deeks left the room she spent a few minutes crying on the bed. She knew throwing things wouldn't make things better, but it sure felt good while she was doing so. She felt so angry, betrayed and violated. She had been willing to go along with what ever Dr. Walter had recommended because Hetty had always given her the look when had suggested leaving. And she really hadn't felt that strong. But now she was going to leave, no matter what Hetty are anyone else said. The pure adrenaline cursing through her body gave her the strength to get up and start gathering her things. She had no place to put them and no thought beyond getting her things together, so she put them on the bed. Nell had gotten her some of her own clothes so she would feel better. Hetty had put them away. Now she had to try and find them so she could get out of there. She was really having a problem with finding them all.

It really pissed her off when Deeks came back into the room and tried to stop her. After he put his arms around her and crushed her against her chest, all of her adrenaline driven strength left her. She again felt herself sobbing against Deeks. It must have been the head injury.

She barely registered the nurse entering the room, but was relieved that she left. She finally got her wits about her and got her emotions under control. She should never have lost it with Dr. Walter before.

Deeks was wondering if her head injury was more acute than they thought. Is that why one minute she was screaming for them to get out and now she was acting like nothing had happened?

"What's going on Kens?"

"I've told you, I've got it Deeks. I'd really like you to leave now."

"Sorry Kens, I can't do that."

"What do you mean, you can't do that?

"I gotta make sure you are alright. I've never seen you lose it like that. You probably have a killer headache again right now, judging by the look in your eyes. I'll help you clean up."

"Deeks I'm fine. And I am leaving as soon as I got my stuff together."

"Kensi, you're not fine and I am going to make sure that you stay until the doctor releases you. I don't want to see you hurt yourself more."

Kensi knew that there was no point trying to argue with Deeks now. Just make him think that she would stay and he would back off. Her head really was hurting her. She would rest and then leave when he wasn't looking. One way or the other, she was leaving today.

Kensi moved her things into a pile beside the bed. She just needed to lie down for a few minutes and then she would feel better. When Deeks tried to help her, she jerked her arm away from him and climbed onto the bed herself. Deeks made himself comfortable in the chair again, while an uncomfortable silence lay between them.

"Deeks."

"Yah."

"Did you know I was pregnant?"

Deeks squirmed in his chair for a few moments, "yah, I did."

"When did you find out?"

"When they had to ask permission for your first surgery, Dr. Walter told us."

"Us? He told you all!"

"Don't worry! He told Hetty and me, everyone else was gone."

"And you kept that from me?"

"Hetty thought it was best. We didn't want to upset you. You just had a head injury for crying out loud."

Deeks seemed to wait a long time for Kensi to respond to him. Instead She just lay there silently.

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