Part 2
He was saying something.
Light knew it.
His mouth was moving. Always moving. Always mouthing words he couldn't understand. Couldn't hear.
Why was it he couldn't hear the words?
Oh, that's right, because I'm crazy. I've gone mental. I'm insane!
Light looked up at the detective again. Yes, he could see Ryuzaki's lips moving, his mouth forming words that the student's mind couldn't comprehend. Everything was roaring in his brain. Everything was on overdrive. Everything felt like it was going to devour him alive. And it was starting to scare him. He tried to focus all his efforts on trying to understand L. Understand what he was saying. Understand why he kissed him. Understand what the meaning beneath that kiss was.
Understand why he looked so worried.
He looks worried? Why would he- Oh, right, I was choking and then... What happened?
Perhaps, he was in some form of shock? If that's the case then what brought it on? The choking fit, or the wild thoughts about his partner? Well, considering the thought's about L brought on the choking, it was probably a safe bet to say, that was also this shock problem. So, he was basically back to square one.
Thank you; you useless brain.
"-ight, -ou – ay?" Light blinked at the strangeness of whatever L was trying to say. His mind was still racing with possibilities and he just couldn't focus on anything else. He couldn't stop thinking about one thing, and one thing only.
Why the hell had Ryuzaki kissed him?
It was driving him mad. Literally! He was going crazy! All of these things, all of this, he shouldn't be thinking about it, but that damn detective. Damn, L. This is all his fault! It's his fault Light was losing his mind. It's his fault that he started to choke. It's all his fault for kissing him! Couldn't that bastard see what he was doing!?
God, does he even care about me at all?! –
What is he doing? Why is he touching my face? More importantly, why am I not moving away? He still looks so strange like that. It's so strange to see him showing some form of emotion like this. And why is he worried? Why does he look that way? I wish it would just stop...
Wait a second – What was I thinking? Why the fuck would I care if he cares about me!? I wouldn't! I don't! I, I can't... I could never care... Never...
So then why am I thinking about it?
Light felt the hand holding his chin move, softly sliding up to hold his cheek. L's eyes looked soft and worried. And... scared? Why...? And if he'd been any more sane, he might have blushed at the tender contact.
But why? Maybe, maybe he felt something for Ryuzaki, for L, that he hadn't thought about before. And if he had genuine feelings for L, then maybe he also...
Well, there was only one way to find out.
Slowly, Light felt himself leaning forward. He knew what he was doing, or at least his insane mind knew what he was doing. Some part of him knew what he was doing, at least. He didn't really understand why he had these feelings, and even less why or even if L had them as well. But, he was going to find out. And with that thought in mind, Light closed the distance between himself and the detective and –
The door slammed open, revealing a red, sweaty, out of breath Soichiro Yagami.
– And promptly pulled back.
"Light! Light, are you alright? What happened? We ran up as soon as we saw you choking!"
"Son? Are you okay?"
Well, there was still only one thing that Light could think of in that moment...
Way to kill the moment, Dad...
