Edgar -Part 11-
I lay frozen, beneath Victor. I stare over at the doctor as he stares back at us, a mix of shock and disbelief on his face. We had been caught.
"Victor, what the hell is going on here?" The doctor looks at me with disgust. "How could you touch such a vile creature?" Victor quickly gets up, closing his shirt as he does. My heart begins to race as I watch them begin to argue.
"It's not what you think-"
"You were laying on top of him. What exactly am I supposed to think? I only agreed to help him because I thought he saved your life. If I had known he was just another toy for your amusement, I would have let him die."
"He is not another toy. He is just,"
"What is he Victor? You know, I can't stay quiet if you are having an affair with a wolf. I have to tell the elders-"
"No! No you don't. There is nothing to tell, nothing is going on, I simply lost myself in the moment, that's all." My heart sinks as I hear these words. 'Lost in the moment? So I was just like all the others before me.' Victor makes his way over and stands in front of him.
"Victor, I understand that you have a certain, preferance, when it comes to your lovers, but a wolf!? I thought you had more class than that. You know what will happen if they find out."
"They are not going to find out. As soon as he is healed, I will be taking him away from this place, far away where no one can find him." The doctor sighs as he stares at Victor.
"I have known you since you were an infant. I shouldn't be surprised by, this," He points at me. "But I am. If your parents knew what you had brought into their house, it would kill them."
"Well then, I guess it is a good thing they have already passed on."
"That is NOT funny mother and father were well respected member of this community. Alright, I won't say anything, but you might want to keep him inside. I hear the elders are going to be making their visits soon. A few families have already been visited."
"I know. I have been expecting them for months now." The doctor gives Victor the other bottle and leaves. Before walking out the door he stops and turns to Victor.
"I Hope you know what you are doing. And I hope you are prepared to face the consequences if they ever find out." He leaves, shuting the door behind him. Victor stands still for a few more seconds, then returns to the bed and sits down. He rubs his forehead as he stares out of the window.
"So, you lost yourself in the moment? Is that what I am to you?" He turns quickly to look at me. Shock on his face.
"No. I just said that so he would stay quiet. The last thing I need is for the elders to come barging in here."
"So I am just a dirty little secret that you need to keep hidin from the rest of the world, is that it? Is that all I am to you? A toy that you can just use and then hide when your done with it?" I can feel my face flush as anger begins to rise. "Is that the only reason that you came to save me? So you could have me all to yourself." He quickly rises to his feet, standing at the foot of the bed. He stares down at me, the cool, icy stare back on his face. I feel a shiver down my spine as the cold, strict tone is back in his voice.
"Is that how you feel? Like you are nothing more than a mere play thing to me? Because if it is, then maybe I should just take you back to Hans and let him fuck you senseless." The words cut through me like a knife. He turns and quickly leaves the room. He slams the door so hard that the windows rattle. I stare at the door as tears begin to roll down my face. 'Why would he say that if it wasn't true? I was just another lover to him. To hope for something more was just stupid. He didn't care about me, he just wanted me for the same reason he wanted all the otheres.' I try to get out of bed but can't. My body is still in too much pain to support my weight. I lay back against the pillows and stare out of the window. As I watch, I can see Victor ride away on his horse. 'Was he serious about getting Hans? No, he couldn't be. He went through all the trouble of rescuing me, why would he just hand me over?' I stare out of the window as I ponder the possibilties to come. Although my mind is telling me to watch myself, my heart is telling me to relax. I hear foot steps and soon Martha is in the room.
"Well, how are we feeling today?"
"Fine." I answer her, not taking my eyes from the window.
"Are you alright? You seem like something is troubling you."
"It's nothing, i'm just tired, that's all."
"Alright, would you like something to eat?"
"No, I just want to sleep. I need to get better."
"Well if you change your mind, just yell." She makes her way out of the door.
"Where did Victor go?" My question stops her.
"I'm not sure, he wouldn't say. All I heard as he rushed out of the door, was that he had something urgent that he needed to take care of. That he had someone he needed to go find." She leaves the room. My heart seems to stop. 'Is he going back to Hans? What if he ment what he said and he was realy going to give me back?' I let myself cry, the sound echos off the walls of the quiet room. After all this time, I thought me and Victor had a real connection. I was finally around people who didn't see me as just another freak, but as a person. I found someone I thought cared about me but, it looks like I may have been wrong. It was true what Marcus had said all those years ago, vampires WERE all the same.
