Disclaimer: I do not own "Gravitation" or the song "How to Save a Life." It belongs to Maki Murakami and The Fray respectively.
A/N: This is my very first Gravitation fanfic so please be gentle.
Summary: Five years has passed and Yuki moved on with his life. Shuichi left him just because Yuki didn't say he loved him. After five years, when Yuki took the first step into moving on, Shuichi realized his mistake and wants Yuki back into his arms once again.
Warning: Angst and maybe death.
Chapter 4- Leaving the One I Loved
Let
him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try
to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a
list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
After one month
I was happy that Shuichi ruined my wedding. I got back to the church apologizing that I cannot continue on with the wedding. Jael, my fiancée, broke down and said to not leave her because she loves me so much. What can I do? As much as I like Jael, I love Shuichi more. I apologized to everyone and left the church. I got into my car where Shuichi was waiting and got back to my apartment. I packed my bags and told Shuichi that we're going to move to another apartment. I found a new apartment and here, we settled.
I was watching my Shuichi sleeping after we made love last night. I was admiring his features when my cell phone rang.
"Hello, Yuki speaking."
"Yuki, its Jael."
"Oh, hey Jael." I said with fear and shame in my voice.
"Yuki, I'm pregnant." She said softly.
I could feel fear. Please don't do this to me.
"Oh, that's great Jael. So, who's the father?" I said while hiding the fear that's beginning to be obvious in my voice.
"Don't be silly Yuki, you're the father." She said, anger surfacing.
"Jael, please don't do this to me. You know I'm with the one I love. Don't ruin it!" I said as tears begin to sting my eyes.
"I need you Yuki, you're soon-to-be son needs you as well!" Anger had finally surfaced.
I could feel my tears flowing down my cheeks like a river flowing through the sea.
"Okay, I'll take responsibility. But please give me time to say goodbye to him." I said in a normal tone as possible.
"Fine, see you Yuki." She said.
And
pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
Where did
I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And
I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save
a life
God, what did I ever do to you to make me suffer like this? You know I love Shuichi more than everything.
I could hear Shuichi stir in his sleep and when I looked down at him, he was awake.
"Hey, Yuki, what's wrong?" Shuichi said as he began to sit down.
Well, here goes nothing.
As
he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one
last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the
ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit
to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll
begin to wonder why you came
"Shuichi, we need to talk." I said in a very calm voice.
"What is it Yuki?" He said as he looked at me with concern in his eyes.
"Before anything else Shu, I want you to know that I love you so much and I really want to be with you, but Shu, Jael's pregnant." I said as tears was beginning to form again in my eyes.
"Hey, don't joke like that. It's not funny." He said as fear was beginning to form.
"Why would I joke on something as serious as that?"
"So what if she's pregnant. It's doesn't mean that it's your responsibility?!" He said as his voice was beginning to rise.
"YOU DON'T GET IT DO YOU!" I shouted throwing my arms in the air.
"Yuki...you don't love her…" he said softly fear flooding his eyes as he watched me who had calmed down a bit.
"Shuichi, she's pregnant, she needs me."
"I need you too…"
"I'm sorry Shuichi. I can't, I love you so much, more then anything. But…" I sighed as I felt my heart jump when tears filled Shuichi's eyes. "…but I'm just not the same, things are just not the same now."
"Just go…" he said falling to the ground tears flowing freely from his eyes now.
"Shuichi I…"
"Yuki, please…just go…" He said softly looking up at me, it took all of my self control to hold back my tears, and I didn't want to cry in front of him, so I really wanted to leave. Though at the same time I couldn't just leave him here like this.
"Yuki I love…I love you so much it'll drive me insane to see you with another person. Please just go, I can't look at you…I just want to live with the memories that we've created. So please don't cause me more pain by staying."
I bit my bottom lip bending down beside Shuichi kissing my lover on the fore head. Standing back up I turned my back to the crying soul, and I started to walk off. Farther down the path I looked back, "I love you too Shuichi…" I murmured before turning back and started walking again.
Well, there's chapter 4. I told you it's not yet finished. Well, since Yuki was a bit OOC last chapter, I decided to bring up his pride in this chapter. Well, it's not yet finished. There are at least 4 more chapters. Well, I won't be posting the next chapter if I don't get a reasonable amount of reviews, so please review. I haven't received any review from chapter 3 so I will not post the next without you guys reviewing. I would like to dedicate this chapter to my co-perpetrators and good friends of mine David, for his stunning talent in grammar and literature and Jael, for her being sexy, naughty and bitchy. So, that's chapter 4. See you when I see you.
