Disclaimer: I do not own "Gravitation" or the song "How to Save a Life." It belongs to Maki Murakami and The Fray respectively.
A/N: This is my very first Gravitation fanfic so please be gentle. Sorry for the long wait. I had a lot of things in my mind lately.
Summary: Five years has passed and Yuki moved on with his life. Shuichi left him just because Yuki didn't say he loved him. After five years, when Yuki took the first step into moving on, Shuichi realized his mistake and wants Yuki back into his arms once again.
Warning: Angst and maybe death.
Chapter 7- Happiness and Paradise
Hurry we're losing him!" The doctor who had been talking to Yuki shouted as the defibrillators recharged, and the next moment he shocked the singer again, his whole body jumping into the air again. "C'mon Shuichi, hang in there please." He begged, as he shocked him again.
Nothing happened and he dropped his head and flicked off the flat lined monitor, putting the defibrillators away. "Time of death, 5:17pm." He said softly pulling the sheet over his entire body.
The doctor sighed and made his way back to the waiting room to tell Yuki the heart-breaking news. He saw Yuki walking back and forth looking as if he would faint any minute.
(Yuki's POV)
The nurse accompanied me back into the waiting room. I waited there for a very long time. I couldn't help myself as I paced around the room. Suddenly, I saw the doctor entering the waiting room.
"Doc, is he okay? Tell me he's okay! He's okay isn't he?"
The doctor just looked down. He didn't respond to my question. I felt my adrenaline rush throughout the body. What's wrong? What's wrong with Shuichi, my Shuichi!
"Answer me! He's okay isn't he? RIGHT?! HE'S OKAY, RIGHT?!" I said not being able to control my calmness.
"Mr. Uesegi, I am very sorry but we tried our best."
(Narrator's POV)
Yuki stood in front of Shuichi's final resting place. He wore his usual black suit. He was surrounded by a sea of people, many of which were Shuichi's friends and those who were inspired by Shuichi's music. It was raining that day so everyone had their umbrellas, but not Yuki. He didn't care if he got wet. All that mattered to him at that moment was saying goodbye to Shuichi.
(Yuki's POV)
Is this really goodbye? Will I not see you again? Here I am, standing in a sea of people while the angels poured down their tears from the heavens above. They must feel the pain that I feel. I let myself get drenched in these tears of theirs. I really don't care. A man in front was reading the bible and was saying some words about happiness and paradise. What the hell was that? Happiness? Paradise? I could see his parents and little sister crying so hard.
"Shuichi was a great person. He was that kind of person whom you can trust your life with. He would do anything just to make his loved ones happy." The minister said.
When I heard that, I dropped my head, shameful of myself. I could see Hiro, Shuichi's best friend, glaring at me, as if he was asking why.
Why? Why? I loved him. He loved me. He was right in front of me and I was stupid enough to let him go. I am so sorry Shuichi. I should have listened to my heart. I shouldn't have let my pride to take over me. Can you ever forgive me?
They now lowered Shuichi's casket into his final resting place. I made my way in front of the crowd.
"Wait! Not yet!" I shouted at the ones who were lowering his casket.
I don't care if the people around me gave me insulting stares. They lifted the casket back and I asked if they could open it so I could kiss him goodbye. I saw his mother give a nod. I kissed his lips, though I know he wouldn't feel it. He was cold as ice. After the kiss, I straightened up and made my way out of the crowd. I couldn't bear to see Shuichi leave me forever.
The funeral was finally over and I was still crying. I then felt a hand touch my shoulder. I looked up and I saw Tohma.
"Tohma." I said softly.
"Eiri, I know that there are a lot of people here who were hurt with what happened, but you are the one who is hurt the most with this, aren't you?" Tohma replied.
"I never got the chance to say goodbye and to say how much I loved him. It was my entire fault for leaving him. He was mine and I was his but –" I cried.
"It wasn't your fault Eiri. You had no idea that Jael was lying about the baby." He said.
With that I collapsed to my knees and cried my heart out.
"IT'S MY ENTIRE FAULT! I COULD HAVE SAVED HIM, TOHMA, I COULD HAVE SAVED HIM!" I shouted back at him.
Well, there's chapter 7. Sorry for the long wait. I know that Yuki is so OOC, but I had to. Well, I am planning to have an epilogue. Well, let's see. After this fic, I am writing stories for Ouran High School Host Club, RomeoXJuliet and for Case Closed. So, I hope you support those fics of mine as well. I would like to dedicate this sad chapter to Geneva, a classmate of mine and also a perpetrator, who gives me pieces of advice and who I know I can trust.
