Chapter Five – Genuinely be friends with Jacob Black.

Jacob's POV. ECLIPSE SPOILERS!! Occurs in chapter 8 of Eclipse, just after Jacob tells Bella that she'd be better off dead than as a vampire, causing Bella to leave, angrily.

I try not to let my mind slip, not until she's gone. Not until she's safe.

What am I thinking? Of course she would never be safe, not with thoseleeches she seems to adore so much… Okay, seriously, be calm. She's not far enough away yet. Just a little further, then I can think whatever I want.

My hands are still shaking, whether I'm thinking about it or not. They quiver uncontrollably, threatening to make the rest of me quake too. I hate how I can't control my anger, and more than that, I can'texpress my anger without putting the people around me in danger.

That was a good move, telling Bella I'd rather she was dead than become one of them. I know it was mean, but it was necessary. I don't know how much longer I can last, even now, never mind when she's standing right here. Even with her sharp temper, I know I'll be able to get her to forgive me; we're best friends. Don't get me wrong, I know it's awful to say such horrible things to her, but it's for her own safety, really. If I hadn't said what I did when I did, I might've phased while she was still here. And that would not have been a good plan.

I sit down, slowly and carefully, and press my hot palms into the grass. Before I can stop myself, I picture Bella in my mind. I picture that bloodsucker with her, kissing her… Biting her. I see her curled up in a ball, obviously in enormous amounts of pain. And then, finally, I see her with skin so pale it's almost transparent. I touch her arm; it's so cold, it even makes me shudder. I smell her, and the scent rips through my nose and throat, making them raw…

At this point, I realise what I am thinking, and how much it is hurting me. The whole of my body is shaking, and my temperature is rising to something even higher than my usual 108.9. I curse, and one sudden enormous shudder travels through me, ripping my clothes, elongating my limbs and feet, covering my body in thick hair. I lift up my furry head and howl, although I am secretly quite happy that I managed to get Bella out of the way before this happened.

"Jacob, calm down," Sam's voice seems to call in my ear. I ignore him, and begin to run. When I'm feeling like this, there's nothing I can do but run.