Survive For Me

Chapter 6: Just Cry

I woke up to find my eyes twitching, my heart pounding, my adrenaline rushing, my hands shaking, and I was breathing heavily. I could feel the familiar feeling of my chest tightening up as my lungs started to burn.

I was having an anxiety attack. And I didn't have my medicine, for it was in my bag which those men stole from me. My chest heaved as I gasped for breath. Tears gathered in my eyes as I realized I could very well die from this.

I froze. There was a hand on my back, rubbing soothing circles on my back. I turned around to see Aro sitting next to me on the bed with his brothers standing at the foot of the bed.

My anxiety attack started to crush my chest and soon I blacked out from the lack of oxygen staring at their bloody red eyes.

~SFM~

I heard a low murmur of voices as the blackness finally started to recede back to the corner of my mind.

"...should be fine... wake up in... anxiety attack... needs to be watched... I'll have... fetch... for her..."

"Demetri," I heard Aro say once my ears were working, "Have Alec and Felix find those men. Bring them to us."

"Yes master," I heard a door on my right shut with a soft thunk!

I winced when I felt the sunlight on my face. Any other day I would've enjoyed feeling the heat warming my cold flesh but not today, not right now.

As soon as I thought that something stood between me and the sun, blocking it's harmful rays from my face. I slowly cracked my eyes open to see Aro sitting next to me on the king sized bed while also blocking the view from the sun from my face.

"Are you feeling okay, mia cara?"

I blinked at him before slowly nodding my head, so confused at everything.

"Okay... Aro, what is going on?" I asked him, staring at him and his brothers will fear.

"Leonora, I think it's time to have a talk with you," Aro murmured before he made a move to scoop me up from the bed. I cringed away from his arms. A flash of guilt hit me when I saw his face crumple in pain for a split second before it was gone, an indifferent mask sliding onto his face. Why did I feel guilty for rejecting him? He was a fucking vampire for Christ sakes!

I instead stood up on my own and followed him to the couch as Caius lit a match and tossed it into the fireplace.

I sighed as I felt the heat reach my cold body. Marcus handed me a blanket, being careful not to touch me, before sitting on the armchair across from me. Aro sat on my far, far right as Caius took the loveseat next to the fireplace.

They opened their mouths and told me everything about them.

~SFM~

I fell back against the soft pillows on the couch letting everything sink in.

The kings stayed silent and let it sink in, for which I was extremely grateful for.

Why can't I be normal? Why couldn't I have a normal family that loved each other like they should? Go to school and have friends? Get married to the average guy? Have a big wedding and 2.3 kids and a nice career to keep my family supported?

But that sounded so... boring.

As much as I didn't like it, I had to accept the fact that I'm not normal. Thanks to my father I knew my life would never be normal. It's only my luck that I had to be the fucking mate of the vampire kings! All three of them!

How could I trust them? What if they turn out to be just like my dad? I can't live like that again.

My heart couldn't bear the thought of them being just like him.

But if they were just as cruel as them, then why would they take care of me? Why would they fix me instead of leaving me to suffer in pain? They would enjoy the sound of me screaming... but they didn't. When Aro was comforting me when I first woke up, he sounded like someone had taken a dagger and stabbed him repeatedly in the chest, like he was in pain from listening to mine.

Even now my heart is crying at the thought that Aro was in pain because of me, despite the fact that I couldn't help it.

Gods I'm even more confused now.

The there was the fact that I was going to become a vampire, writhe around in excruciating agony for three to five days, wake up, then crave human blood for the rest of my existence and become queen of the vampire world and I'm mated to all three kings!

"I think it would be best to let you go back to bed." Caius suggested before standing up and offering me his hand. I swallowed, staring at it like it was a sharks mouth and it would clamp down on me at any given second.

I took a deep breath before grasping his hand and getting up from the couch and following him back to the bed. I sat down on the edge, looking between the three of them suspiciously. Would they try anything while I was asleep?

"Come brothers," Aro sighed sadly as he gestured for his 'brothers' to follow him out the door, "We have some business we must attend to."

I closed my eyes so I didn't have to see the rejected look on their faces, but honestly what did they expect? For me to just fall into their arms and beg them to bite me?

I breathed a sigh of relief as I heard the door close, with a soft click!

I angrily scrubbed my hands over my face, cursing my father for putting me in this position. If only my dad wasn't a bastard then my mother wouldn't be dead and we could just be normal and love each other like a family should.

A few tears slipped down my face as I thought about my mother.

God I missed her so much. I needed so badly. She would always know what to say in situations like this one. What would she do? Probably say make the best of it or something along those lines.

I curled into a ball and started crying. I couldn't help it, the dam had finally broken after years and years if my father's abuse, and my mother's death... and now knowing that vampires are real.

When does this nightmare end?

~SFM~

3,000 years.

That's how long Aro and his brothers had been alive, give or take a few decades. But in all that time he had never felt as helpless as he does now listening to their depressed mate cry into her arms as she tried to hold herself together. He only had to glance at his brothers to know they felt the same way.

He knew grief for humans was dangerous and some even die because of it. But she was a fighter and he was confident she would make it out of this alive. The poor soul had gone through too much trouble to die now.

"This just isn't her week is it?" Caius muttered, all of them flinching in unison as they heard her cry for her mother.

"It appears not," Marcus whispered mournfully.

"Is there anything I can do?" Felix offered from the edge of the doorway, standing guard for his kings in the throne room, even though he knew it was in vain.

"I think it would be best to just let her get it out of her system. But thank you, Felix." Aro sighed.

"And..." Felix hesitated, "If she doesn't get better? What happens if she mourns herself to near death?"

"Then we change her," Caius dared any of his brothers to object but they were silent. They had waited centuries for her and they weren't going to let her grief take her away from them.

They didn't want to change her until much later on once she had grown up a bit more and had learned everything there was to know about vampires. They wanted her to get comfortable with them and then explain the situation to her and hope to god she agrees to be changed.

Her mother just died and she hadn't had the time to properly mourn her since she had been on the run from her father. She needed time to adjust to everything that's happened in her life and trying to deal with a crazy thirst for human blood at the same time wouldn't be helping anyone.

Aro had seen in her memories how she would shove everything aside and keep it bottled up and distract herself so she didn't have to deal with her emotions. She always put her mother first but when she died Leonora had no choice but to run so her father can't turn on her and kill her as well.

She hasn't dealt with her emotions and sooner rather than later her dam was going to burst and the last thing they wanted was for her to be a vampire when that happened. The damage she would cause in her newborn rage would be unimaginable. It's best to get it out now.

Felix excused himself from the room, giving his master's time alone to deal with their mournful future queen. He had only seen Leonora while she was lying broken and unconscious after she had been attacked, but he was already growing attached to his future queen. His kings did set him to be her personal bodyguard once she was better. He was to protect her with her life and it would be much easier to accomplish that if she were to trust him and listen to him.

When he saw her broken body lying on his master's bed, the amount of anger that surged through him when he realized someone had harmed the defenseless girl surprised him. He made a promise to himself when he had heard her screaming that he would find out who did this even if it killed him.

That reminds him, he and Alec have to be somewhere don't they? They were going to find the men that had almost killed her and take them to stand before the Volturi for their crimes. Oh he hoped Caius would be kind enough to spare a few body parts for him as well. But he knew that was highly unlikely. Marcus and Aro would most likely grab any spare parts Caius flings their way.

Pity, he wanted to have a go at them.

~SFM~

I laid there gasping for breath like the pathetic girl I was. I was nineteen god dammit! I shouldn't be crying like a little bitch!

Oh, god. What if they heard me? How good is vampires hearing?

Fantastic Leonora! Just great! Why don't you just kill yourself now and save yourself the embarrassment of having to face the vampire kings again? I didn't know how much lower I could stoop, but I had a feeling this was only the beginning.

Okay, I had a choice I needed to make.

Either find a way out of here and run, which I doubted I would get very far before they would track me down and kill me, not to mention Aro can read my mind thus making it so I couldn't plan anything out anyway.

Or... I break down every wall I have and I give them one chance. Just one. Just one chance to prove themselves.

Then what?

What could I possibly do even if they do turn out to be like my father? It's not like I could outrun them, or outsmart them. They were thousands of years old. Any hope of escaping was zilch.

Even then... my heart clenched painfully in my chest as I thought about leaving them. I've only known them for a few hours dammit! How do they have this hold on me? How could my heart already be taken?! Was trying to fight against this a lost cause?

So really, I had only one choice. To play nice. To study them, to see what made them tick. See what makes them angry, see what they do. What they have done. I'll try my best not to judge them and give them their fair shot. If it doesn't work out...

An image of me lying in a pool of my own blood with a handgun clutched tightly in my right hand, a trickle of blood leaking out from the small hole on the side of right temple.

I shuddered, trying desperately to rid my mind of those thoughts. I had to survive. I had to face every obstacle that would be thrown my way.

I had to make it through this or... momma's sacrifice was for absolute shit.

I jumped in shock when I heard a knock at the door. My heart thudded unevenly against my ribcage as my blood started rushing through my veins.

After a moment of silence, the door open.

A/N: So who do you think is at the door? Please let me know in your reviews! Thank you guys so much for all of your reviews and favs and follows, I can't say it enough.

Mrs Sorbo: Don't worry, the wives will show up sooner or later, but right now I just wanted to focus on Leonora and her thoughts and feelings for the whole thing and her trying to accept her new life. :)

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