Survive For Me
Chapter 11: Surrender My Heart
My eyes snapped open as I gasped for breath. I laid there for quite a while, shivering from the cold, yet still burning hot at the same time. I couldn't for the life of me remember what I had just dreamt about, but I knew it was horrifying. My stomach filled with icy shards when I tried to remember what happened.
On second thought, I was sorta glad I didn't remember it.
I got up from the bed, wincing when my bones cracked in protest, before making my over the bathroom, determined to enjoy the rest of my day without having the feeling of dread hang over me all day. I stepped into the bath, into the hot water and leaned back.
The icy shards in my stomach twisted uncomfortably in my stomach as I tried my hardest to relax.
I knew the dream had something to do with my father. Even when I was surrounded by vampire royalty it seemed like I would never be able to escape him. It wasn't the first time I had a nightmare about him and it will most certainly not be the last.
After a while I gave up and got out, wrapping a towel around myself before stealing one of Aro's shirts and a pair of boxers. I had a very bad habit of taking his clothes... but since he hadn't said anything about it, I was going to continuing doing it until I had some suitable clothes to wear. Fuck it. And I was not wearing some stupid dress!
A knock at her door interrupted her thoughts.
"Yeah?" I called to the person on the other side of the door as I just finished pulling Aro's shirt over my head.
The door opened and Gianna stepped through, carrying a plate of food for me.
"Hey Gianna," I greeted her as I took the plate from her. Gianna was actually the woman who I had seen when I stumbled into the clock tower half dead. I was officially introduced to her when I was roaming the grounds a few days ago with Felix. She was the receptionist here... I didn't particularly get it but I didn't care.
I also knew her time was limited so I tried not to get too attached to the lady. Though her fuck awesome cooking made it difficult.
"Good morning my lady," she said bowing her head lightly.
I frowned at her.
"Gianna, we've discussed this. Call me Leonora," I lightly scolded her before thanking her for breakfast and sending her on her way.
I sat down and took a quick bite of the fruit.
"Fuck yeah," I moaned as I hurriedly swallowed every last piece.
"Enjoying yourself?" Caius snorted as he walked through the door unannounced.
"Yes I am. So much in fact that I was thinking of keeping Gianna all for myself up here and thank her by fucking her for the nice food." I said casually.
"Fuckity fuck!" I hollered as Caius picked me up and tossed me into their bed. I soon felt his crushing force press me into the mattress.
"The only person you are to take sexual gratification from is me or my brothers," he snarled at me before leaning down and kissing me senseless.
He bucked his hips into mine with a groan, sliding his tongue into my sealed lips and started caressing the inside of my mouth.
I knew if someone didn't interrupt we weren't going to stop.
He slid his hand underneath my shirt and started to grope my tits. I whimpered into his mouth, as I clawed at his powerful and muscular back.
We broke apart when we heard a sigh at the doorway.
"As much as it pains me to break you two up, there is still work that is needing to be done, brother," Aro said as he looked at me, who was still trapped under Caius, with a smirk, though his black eyes showed me he was just as turned on as I was.
I lightly shoved Caius, "Get out of here blondie before I shove my tongue down your throat."
Caius' eyes went completely black as he snarled before leaning down and throughout ravishing my mouth again. He pulled away after I was thoroughly hot and bothered.
"Have a good day my darling," Caius called sarcastically as he and Aro fled the room, leaving me completely unsatisfied.
"Fuck you guys, you undead assholes!" I yelled. I could still hear them laughing at me. I even had to crack a smile when I heard their beautiful laughter echo down the halls for a few seconds. Have I ever heard them laugh like that before? It was nice to even if you are a ruthless sadist that you can still laugh.
"Felix!" I hollered as I walked out of my room. He appeared beside me in an instant. I still didn't like being followed around but Felix was good company and I swore to them that whenever I wanted to leave my room I would call for Felix first.
"My lad-"
"Wrong,"
"Leonora-"
"Nope!"
He sighed in mock annoyance.
"Leo?"
"Better!" I cheered before walking away, knowing he'll follow me like the obedient little puppy he is.
"Where are we going today... Leo?" he asked.
I paused in thought.
"The gardens," I told him turning around I time to see him smirk at what I was wearing. "Shut up," I warned him before purposefully striding off.
~SFM~
I hummed to myself as I walked around.
The smell of flowers helped clear my head as I walked along.
Every since I had my moment of weakness of letting myself feel pleasure by Caius' hand, I hadn't felt the same. But not in a bad way. But in a way I didn't understand just yet.
Every time they walked into the room, my heart would clench in joy.
Every time I felt their lips against mine, I would discover what pleasure meant.
Every time they held them, I felt safe and loved.
Every time I thought about them, my breathing would speed up.
Every time they laughed, I had to join.
Every time they looked at me, I had to look back.
"To be in love is the most beautiful thing in the world Leona. Your whole world is centered around him. Every breath you take is for him. Every smile and laugh he sends you way, cherish them. Love is the best feeling. Knowing out there, somewhere, someone loves you and thinks about you. Some people run away. Some people cling onto their love with all they have. And some people don't find that special someone. Sometimes some people aren't meant to love. But you Leona, if you ever fall in love, you never let go. Let him love you and love him in return. That's why we live. To love."
I... I couldn't believe it. I had been here for officially two weeks now... and I had fallen in love with them. Aro, Caius, and Marcus. My loves.
I waited for my mind to start screaming at me to run, and my heat to scream at me to jump them. But there was nothing.
My mind was completely silent. Like it had given up. Like it had accepted the fact that I was staying here with them until my demise.
My heart wasn't yelling at me either... but it was whole. Mama broke my heart when she died. But they wrapped themselves around my broken self and healed the wound.
Was it completely gone? No. It would always be there... but so would they.
I didn't realize I was crying until Felix handed me a handkerchief before silently walking back to the other side of the fountain, respectfully giving me my privacy.
But I wasn't crying for my momma. For the pain we both went through. I wasn't crying for my freedom. I wasn't crying for any of that.
I was crying because I was in love! I don't when I had officially fallen for them but I was so fucking happy! This was my freedom from everything. Freedom from my father, from my guilt and grief. I did something I swore I would never do.
I let my heart fall... and by some bloody miracle they caught it.
I have officially surrendered the fight for freedom.
I surrender my heart to you, my kings.
~SFM~
Sulpicia sneered at Leonora as she wept in the gardens. What a pathetic little child, probably crying about how miserable her life was.
She couldn't see why her Aro loved this sniveling mess of embarrassment. But she was no fool. She knew as soon as Leonora was changed, Athena and her would be long gone. She didn't dare lay a hand on her though. She saw the cracks on Athena's neck and saw the damage that would be inflicted upon her as well if she even spoke badly about her.
What did Leonora have that she didn't? Sulpicia thought herself to be superior to her in every way. She was beautiful, she could rule just as well as any other of the kings. But she could sexually please Aro instead. She highly doubted Aro could get any sort of gratification from this child.
She had everything. She had the guards respect her, and anything she could have ever wanted... and now her word is meaningless. Her authority didn't match that of her supposed mate, but she still had power. No one would even glance in her direction anymore. No one was guarding her and Athena's room anymore.
They were all on their own.
They wouldn't survive without the protection of the kings guards. They were practically born into this life. Athena and her were changed just a few years apart and found each other while hunting in the same city. They joined up and less than a decade later they found the Volturi and persuaded the kings to let them join them.
If they were to be kicked out they would have nothing. They didn't know how to take care of themselves because they would never have to. She thought their mate would never be found and they would live with the Volturi forever.
She had even hoped that one day... Aro would come to love her like she loved him. But even if he never returned her feelings she was content to sit in the background and silently support him.
But then Leonora came and ruined everything!
She couldn't do anything now, but she was willing to wait and see what happened. Hopefully the kings will see their mistake when they see how much of an ignorant little beast she is and come running back to Athena and herself. And if not then she'll take care of the little brat herself.
She nodded to herself. That is what she will do. She turned on her heel and quickly left the human and her bodyguard alone.
~SFM~
I got up from the stone bench and made my way back to my room, still completely lost in my feelings of them. God I hoped they loved me back. My heart would just crumble away if they didn't. I would do anything for them now... except wear some stupid fucking dress.
I would even consider becoming immortal for them. But as long as I knew what I was getting myself into first hand. I wanted to know every side of becoming a vampire, the good and bad and then I'll make my decision.
Opening the door to my room I found Aro, Caius and Marcus already seated on the couch talking amongst themselves.
"Ah Leonora," Aro cheered getting up from the couch and gliding over to my side, "We were wondering where you had disappeared off to..." he trailed off when he saw my red and puffy eyes.
"My darling, what's wrong?" he cooed to me holding his hand out like he wanted to comfort me.
I couldn't answer him. My throat closed up when I saw his red eyes gaze at me with worry and love written all over him. Caius and Marcus had now drifted to my side as well as they gave me the same look.
My self control snapped and I lunged for Aro, smashing his lips against mine in a desperate attempt to show him my love for him and all of them.
Our teeth clashed together as I ruthlessly smothered my mouth over his before I began dragging him backwards towards the bed. My intentions clear.
The back of my knees hit the bed and I tumbled down onto it, with Aro right on top of me, our lips never separating for a second.
As much as it pained me I broke the kiss and drew in the deepest breath.
"I love you," I whispered to him, surrendering my heart to him. To all of them.
A/N: ^o^ Oh my god! Leonora finally realized she was in love! So I have a feeling you are going to like the next chapter very much! }:)
Please tell me what you think! Was Leonora moving too slow, too fast, or just right?
Any mistakes point them out please!
