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This chapter is based on the song Ashes & Wine by A Fine Frenzy (other than the part about kissing her lips) It will be going back and forth between Anna and Eddy's POV and even a third POV. Hope you enjoy it.

Chapter 12

don't know what to do anymore
I've lost the only love worth fighting for
I'll drown in my tear storming sea
that would show you,
that would make you hurt like me

(Anna) I'm walking around our apartment, pretty much pacing around. Eddy has not made it home and I'm afraid he's not going to. I'm hoping he is going to forgive me and realize why I kept it all from him and say the wedding is back on but…I honestly feel it's really over and that kills me.

I honestly have no idea what I'm going to do. I'm in so much pain; emotionally and physically. Not only have I lost the man I've loved my whole life but also my best friend and brother.

I was always waiting for things to spiral out of control wondering when Eddy was going to find out about Emily but this is not how I expected it to happen.

I lay across the bed and start to do the only thing I can do right now…cry. As if sensing my pain, Zeus curls up to my stomach and looks at me with sad eyes. He's all I have left.

all the same,
I don't want mud-slinging games
it's just a shame
to let you walk away

(Eddy) I'm lying on Jason's couch still fuming about everything. I have never felt so betrayed in my life. This is Anna, the girl I've loved since before I knew what love was and she kept something as huge as the girl we aloud join the mob whose father not only fired me but is tearing down the strip for his stupid development. How could she keep this from me and for so long? How could I ever trust and marry her if she keeps things like this from me.

is there a chance,
a fragment of light
at the end of the tunnel,
a reason to fight
is there a chance
you may change your mind
or are we ashes and wine?

(Anna) A day has gone by and I still have not heard from Eddy. Today is the final tryouts for the apprentices at work and I look a complete mess. My clothes are wrinkled, I have no makeup on, and my hair is in the sloppiest messy bun ever. Olivia looked shocked when she seen me walk in this morning but didn't say anything.

I watch as Emily makes her way to do her performance and she looks about as horrible as I do.

"Emily I thought you were doing a duet?" Olivia asks. "I changed my mind…I'm doing a solo." Emily tells her as she starts her dance. I am feeling all the pain she is in her dance. I've watched her and Sean rehearsals and it was great. But without him…it's painful. I look over at Olivia and can see the disappointed look on her face. I know that she's not going to make the cut.

After they announce the two new member to join the company, Emily not being one, I go to talk to her but she tries to brush me off.

"Emily, listen…" She cuts me off, "Don't Anna, I know you and Sean were behind everything that happened at the galley." "No we were not. When I found out I tried to call both of you to warn you but you didn't answer your phones."

"What ever Anna." "Don't you dare what ever me Emily." I snap at her catching her attention. "Sean punched his best friend in the face sticking up for you and my wedding was called off because you made me keep your secret." She's speechless, "I lost my brother and fiancé because of you so don't act like you are the only one who has it rough."

With that I grab my purse and head home but not without tears running down my face.

don't know if our fate's already sealed
this day's a spinning circus on a wheel
I'm ill with the thought of your kiss
coffee-laced, intoxicating on her lips

(Eddy) My phone goes off with Anna's ringtone but I ignore it. This is about the millionth time she has called.

I'm sitting at my desk at the garage. I sigh as I look at the background picture on my computer. It's the one Sean took of Anna and I when we fell asleep on my car at our spot at sunset.

"Dude, you need to talk to her." Jason tells me from behind me.

I shake my head, "I can't…I just can't Jas."

"You have to realize that she is in a lot of pain too right now."

I put my hand up stopping him from going further. "Just leave me alone Jason."

Before walking out he puts something on my desk. I pick it up and notice it's a necklace, but not just any necklace…it's the anchor one I gave Anna. I spin in my chair and look at Jason holding my hand up. "How the hell did you get this?"

"When Anna was trying to help you up after getting hit by Sean and you pushed her into Ricky, this came undone."

I was in shock; I still couldn't believe that I pushed her. I continue to stare at the necklace as Jason goes to leave. "Call her, you know I'm right."

I pick up my phone and listen to the newest voicemail.

"Eddy…I really wish that you would pick up and hear me out. I never wanted to keep this from you. As soon as I realized who she was I want to tell you but they begged me. Not a day went by that I wasn't filled with guilt. It kills me that you hate me now and that you're willing to throw away everything we have because of this. I love you so much Eddy, and I always will."

Am I making a mistake?

shut it out, I've got no claim on you now
I'm not allowed to wear your freedom down

(Anna) I try to call Eddy again but I completely filled up his voicemail. I wish he would just talk to me.

I'm walking around our apartment looking at all the pictures I have hung up. It's us over the years. The oldest being from when we were seven years old to now. We were all so happy in these and now things are different. I hate this.

I can't stand being in this apartment anymore without him being here. I need to go to the one place that I can be alone and try to not think about any of this. I grab my keys and Ipod. It's going to cause me a lot of pain but I really need this.

is there a chance,
a fragment of light
at the end of the tunnel,
a reason to fight
is there a chance
you may change your mind
or are we ashes and wine?

(Eddy) "I remember when Sean, Anna, and I first decided to make the mob here. Things were different, easier then." I tell Ricky as we sit outside of his club.

"Things don't have to be different, you are making it that way." "Ricky, they lied to me, they stabbed me in the back. How can I trust them?"

He sighs and shakes his head, "Sean was trying to protect someone that he is falling in love with. He knew how you were going to react. You should understand why he did it, you would have done the same for Anna. You two have been together since you both first walked into my club with your parents. You were just kids but the way you looked at her, even then, I knew you would always be there to take care of her and protect her."

I let Ricky's words sink in.

"You can't let this ruin fifteen years of love and friendship."

He's right.

Without saying another word, I take off to my car and speed home. I try calling her on the way but it's going straight to voicemail.

When I get home, she's not there. I try calling Pen and Jason but no one has seen her.

I sit down and think really hard as to where she could be. Then it hits me…I know exactly where she is.

I'll tear myself away
if that what you need
there is nothing left to say

(Third person) Anna goes through the back door of the old dance studio she use to dance at when she was younger. It's been run down and closed for a few years now. She does a few stretches before turning on her ipod to The Lonely by Christina Perri and does the one thing she has not done in years…dance.

As the music plays she moves her body around the room, putting all her emotions in her movements. Eddy walks in but keeps to the shadows. He is so shocked to see her dance again and it's not in a good way that she's dancing. He sees the pain in her eyes, the tears that stream down her face. All he can think about is that it's fault. He caused her this pain and the pain she is inflicting on herself by dancing.

After doing a jump and twisting her body in the air, she collapses to the ground from the sharp pain that is spikes through her hip as she lands. She doesn't move or attempt to get up, just puts her head on the ground and cries.

Cries for the pain in her hip, the pain in her heart, the pain of loosing everything. Eddy cannot take seeing her like this and runs up to her. Anna, not expecting for someone to wrap their arms around her and hold her tight, she looks up and is shocked to see Eddy. They don't need to say anything as they pull each other close.

They stay like that for a while until Eddy decides to finally say something. "Anna, I'm so sorry. I over reacted. I never should have called of the wedding or pushed you away. I can't believe I did that." Anna shakes her head at him, "No I'm sorry for not telling you sooner. I really wanted to tell you but they made me promise."

After a couple of minutes they get up and head home, so relived to have each other back in their lives.

They would never have something like this come between them again. It's not worth losing each other over.

is there a chance,
a fragment of light
at the end of the tunnel,
a reason to fight
is there a chance
you may change your mind
or are we ashes and wine?
reduced to ashes and wine
or are we ashes...

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