Rin

It is so weird to be home without Haru, I told Koga we need to talk about something "Rin" he calls as he opens the door, my stomach turns to jelly, I am trying to find the courage I had earlier today "Koga" I say as I exited our room "what is it?" he asks "why did you get all upset when I asked about Ayame?" I boldly asked, he sighed and went into the kitchen "it is of no concern to you" I raised an eyebrow "since when do you talk to me like that" he was so kind, before you came back Sesshomaru, I want to blame you but I cannot, "she is my mate" he says slamming down alcohol, I step back "why didn't you tell me?" I yell "how could I?" he looks up at me "Rin I love you, I love haru, I cannot control who is my mate" I shake my head "you could have told me Koga, we could deal with this together" I approach him, I rest my hands on his shoulders "I didn't want to hurt you, you have been hurt enough" I smile "Koga, if you want to be with your mate, it's alright, I will always love you" I press my forehead to his "so you can run back to Sesshomaru?" he says, rather coldly "no, Koga I am not, I want you to be happy my love, always" I feel tear building up in my eyes, I love him so much, but I do not feel sadness "Ring I am so sorry" he starts to cry, I run back to him to soothe him, "shhhh, it will be alright, I promise" he hold me "Rin" he looks back at me "you will always be in my life and haru's, we will always love you" he rubbed his face "and I will always love you" I sit in the chair next to him "so now what?" he asks "I think it is time for me just to be me, no husband, no boyfriend, I just need my son right now" he nods, I feel like ten tons has been removed from my chest "Koga, you know I with you ever happiness in the world" he nods "I know, as I do you, just be careful, you do not deserve to be hurt over and over, you are better than this Rin, I do truly wish I was meant to mate with you" he leaned on my shoulder "and I wish I was your mate, I wish you were haru's father, I wish that I am not in love with Sesshomaru" he laughs "we knew this would happen from the beginning" I sigh "we fell in love because we both didn't want to be alone" he looked at me again "I will move out tonight, I am leaving for business, I will of course support both you and haru" I nod "I hope you still want to be his daddy" I say and he laughs "I do as I want to be in your life" we stand and embrace, it is time for me to live alone, just me and my son.

A nice peaceful break up that needed to happen, I am posting this now because I will be staying somewhere with no internet for a week, and I didn't want to leave with a cliffhanger like that last chapter is.