This is just a little update

Yes the break up between Rin and Koga was easy, they do not hate each other, they both just want the other to be happy


Sesshomaru

"Your only four, how can you eat so much" my little one just ate almost a whole pizza, I must remember to stock up on food when I have him. "I am growing" I laugh "well that is true, what do you want to do now" he smiles and pointed to the wall "what is that" he is pointing at the sword father gave me "That is my sword Tenseiga, it is said to be able to save a hundred lives, I never wanted the thing, it could not cut, so now it just hangs on a wall collecting dust" he nods, I pick him up "you are such a smart boy, I am so sorry for leaving you" I hug him, talking with rin has made me emotionally weak, I want to show him, maybe even more then I want to show rin, that I am here and I am not going anywhere. "Haru you are now my heir, you will most likely be my only child" even though I hope to win Rin back and have more children, I need to focus on the one I actually have. "Dad" I put him down "what is it" he looks up "can I ask you something" I nod my head "if I wasn't born would you be sad" he looks down, I think, if he wasn't born, Rin may have had her own children with the wolf, or not have any children at all, I may not fight so hard for her to be in my life, would I still love her? I would of course love her, she is my mate, with or without a child "yes I would" I admit, he gave me a reason to finally allow myself to admit my feelings for Rin, without him I could just pretend Rin and I did not exist, I would always love her but having a child together just made it easier for both of us to cling to our emotions. "haru do not ever doubt me, not again" I kneel down to him "I feel so foolish begging a child to forgive me but I am, haru I love you" I love my son and I love his mother, I wonder how things went between her and Koga but I cannot stress about that right now "Dad, I love you too" I pick him up again "I'm sorry" he says "for what?" I ask, "for asking I just needed to be sure" I rub his back "it is alright", I didn't want him to feel the way I do about my father, when he left my mother, and Inuyasha was born, he stopped caring about me, unless it was business related, or he needed to show off his full demon heir, I hate him for it, still to this day, but haru will never feel that way, ever.