I left the hotel and walked around the block. I didn't want to go anywhere near the alley, especially since I was by myself. I walked around a couple of more times before I went back inside.

I ignored anyone that said hi to me and just went straight to the elevator. On the way up I started thinking that maybe I should let Zack in, that I should let him help me. I mean what more could I lose? He has been trying to help me anyways. Maybe he could help, but that thought went right out the window as soon as I opened the suite door.

I walked in and saw mom and Zack sitting on the couch. I knew right away that Zack had told mom what happened. As soon as I closed the door it became true as mom asked "Cody, why didn't you tell me?" with a hurt look on her face.

I immediately looked at Zack and he looked away as soon as our eyes met. I could feel the anger burning inside me. Zack had promised me he would let me tell mom when I was ready, but then he goes behind my back and tells anyway. I felt so betrayed.

I started thinking of something to say since mom was sitting there looking at me, waiting for an answer so I decided to play dumb, knowing that they could both see right through it. At least it would give me a few more seconds to come with something. "What are you talking about?" I asked trying to walk away toward mine and Zack's room.

"Cody, sit down! You know what I'm talking about. Why didn't you tell me what happened to you in that alleyway? What those guys….did to you?" mom said.

I stopped and turned as soon as she said that. "What mom? You mean getting raped?" I half yelled as I saw her flinch. "What you don't like hearing that I was raped? Well guess what, it happened! And why do you think I didn't tell you? I mean admitting it to Zack was hard enough, much less to my mom!" I saw Zack looking down at the floor, almost like he was trying to memorize it.

"Cody, come sit down, we'll talk about this." Mom said softly.

That was what made me explode. I was a ticking time-bomb and I had just hit zero. My time was up and I was exploding no matter at who it was at. The 'we'll talk about this' triggered it and I didn't really know why. "Talk about it! You want to talk about it? It's not like it happened to you so why do you want to talk about it? It's done and over with, forget it and never go back. Lock it in a closet and never let it out!" my voice was turning into a snarl, I wanted to stop, but I couldn't. Once I let it out there was no taking it back or stopping it. "But you know what, let's talk about it! What do you want to talk about? The fact that they pinned me down to the ground yanking off my clothes. Or how the hands where all over my body, while the guy whispered 'you're gonna like this kid' in my ear? Or maybe you wanna talk about how they ruined my life, of how much it hurt! Having someone invade your body with force! How do you think I feel about it mom?!" I stopped for a minute to look at their faces and they both had tears streaming down their faces. That's what got me to stop, was the tears that were streaming down mom and Zack's faces leaving them in anguish.

I finally got control over my shouting, but my emotions took back over. I fell to the floor sobbing, tears rushing down my cheeks as I whispered, "I just want it to stop, I just want to hurt to stop. I just want it to stop…" I said trailing off.

I felt arms around me I looked up to find mom and Zack beside me. I finally stopped and allowed myself to let others comfort me. I let myself go and fell into their embrace.