-Takuto's got a throat cancer? No, that just can't be, how is he? Will he be alright?

Words just started comming out of my mouth, I couldn't stop asking so much questions, I was so worried. When I saw him collapse on the stage my heart stopped. Wakaouji sensei didn't let me to see him,to see Takuto, I just wanted to tell him good luck and to say that everything is going to be alright, that I've been trough the same situation and that I'm OK now. I just wanted to see him,but they didn't let me. I sat on the chair, waiting to hear some informations about him but without noticing I slowly fell asleep, I was just so tired. I don't know how much time has passed, but all I could remember is waking up in my bedroom. Sun shone so brightly I had to get up.

-How did I got here?

I was confused, I don't remember waking home. Slowly walking I walked to the dining room where Tanaka-san greeted me with her cheerful voice.

-Good morning Mitsuki-chan, did you sleep well? -Ummm... I did, I guess. How did I got here? I really didn't remember anything from the last night. Wakaouji sensei brought you here,you were asleep, he said something about your friend being hospitalized, I didn't understand much , I thought that something happened to you. Tanaka-san said lowering her voice.

Takuto! Suddenly all my memories from last night came back, once again I was seeing Takuto fall on the stage. I hurried to phone sensei . I dialed his mobile phone, it was ringing. Sensei please answer me. Nervously I tapped the floor with my right foot. He was not answering, I thought that the worst happened. I was hardly breathing I didn't let go of my phone, I just kept in near my ear.

–Mitsuki-chan , what's wrong? –My friend Takuto, Takuto... I couldn't speak anymore, I started to cry. –Mitsuki calm down, everything is going to be alright,now would you tell me what happened? Tanaka-san looked so worried.

–My friend Takuto has been hospitalized, he has a throat cancer, he was in such a bad condition yesterday, he...he... I started sobbing, - he collapsed on the stage yesterday.

Tanaka –san moved closer and put her arms around my shoulders and slowly said that everything was going to be alright, because I've been trough the same situation. Her words calmed me. – Mitsuki-chan let's go buy some flowers for your friend,to cheer him up a little, I know that you were depressed when you finished your surgery,you were so worried about your voice and the flowers we bought you brought a smile on your face, I hope it will be the same with your friend. –Should we invite Grandma to come with us? I haven't seen Grandma since I woke up, so I wanted her to go with us. -Mitsuki, Madam left to visit her old friends grave, she left early in the morning.

We found some preety flowers to buy and as soon as we bought them my phone started ringing. I searched my purse to find the phone,but it seemed like I stucked it somewhere,but hopefully I found it and I answered the phone. It was Wakaouji – sensei .

-Hello, Mitsuki here. „Hello Mitsuki, I'm glad you've answered, I called to tell you that you can come visit Takuto, the surgery is over, I will tell you all the details when you come." Wakaouji-sensei seemed happy over the phone, when I heard his voice, I've calmed completely, I knew that everything went alright. –Yes, I will go there now,thank you sensei. –Mitsuki was that Wakaouji sensei,what did he tell you? You seem so happy now. –He said that I can come visit Takuto,that surgery was over and by the sound of he's voice I've realised that he's fine now. –I've told you that he was going to be alright,now go there visit him, I'll head to the marked to buy groceries then go home.

I hurried to come to the hospital, Takuto was only on my mind right now. As I entered the hospital doors Wakaouji-sensei was already there waiting for my arrival, he greeted me and took me to his office to have a talk with me before I enter Takutos' room. – Mitsuki, I'm glad you got this fast, I had some problems with Takuto... –Problems? Is Takuto alright, please tell me that everything went perfectly fine. Problems, no..., no...,he must be OK..., Takuto is alright,he must be... maybe I'm just over exaggerating. -Calm down Mitsuki,it's not what you think, Takuto is fine. What I wanted to say is that I had difficulties with persuading Takuto to do the operation. He is so stubborn, you can't really talk with him sometimes, but hopefully I menaged to get him to do the operation,besides his life was on the line. And one more thing before you go to him, he is still sleeping, maybe he had woken up by now, but you'll see when you got there. Let's go now.

I was so excited, I was going to see Takuto, only thing that I don't understand is why he never told me that he had throat cancer, he knew that I had it, hmmmm I guess I will have to ask him. As we approached to the room where Takuto was in I felt really happy, my heart skipped a beat when Wakaouji-sensei opened the doors, I was going to see him .

As I entered I saw Takuto lying on the bed, he was dressed in blue hospital clothes and white walls were surronding him, near his bed was a huge window with light blue curtains, I'm glad that I brought some colourful flowers, they were somehow lighting up the mood in the room which looked so depressed. I sat beside Takuto on the bed, Wakaouji –sensei left me alone in the room.

-Takuto, I'm glad that you're OK, I hope that you can hear me, the concert was so good I enjoyed every minute of it, but Takuto, don't you ever scare me like that, like you did last night, I will get so mad at you I wont talk to you anymore, you know... that cat plushie you gave me is so cute, I even named it after you, Takuto.

I smiled when I talked to him, I was so happy, but unfortunatly I had to leave,because visiting time was over. Wakaouji-sensei gave me a ride home. My Granda still haven't got home so I went to bed early only to awake on the new day to come visit Takuto.

TAKUTO POV

I woke up not knowing where I was, the room was so dark I have realised that it was night I heard something outside and saw water stains on the window, it was raining. I felt really tired, somehow I was still sleepy. I looked to my left side and saw Keiichi smiling upon me.

-Takuto, finally you have woken up, it took you long. Now would you tell me how do you feel?

I wanted to say that I'm fine, that I don't feel anything but words just wouldn't come out of my mouth, my mouth were hunging open. NO! This is not happening, my heart started beating faster my breathing was faster too, no..., how is this possible? I lifted myself up in the sitting position and tried to say something, anything would be fine, but no body started to shake and my eyes started to fill with tears. I looked up to meet Keiichies' eyes, I looked at him with so much hatred, I hated him at that moment, I couldn't stand him,couldn't look at him. He was just standing there looking depressed, well he should be, HE was the one who made me do the operation, HE was the one who said that I will be fine and HE was the one who operated me! Now because of HIM I have to suffer, because of his mistake! I clenched my fists and started punching the bed, the pain, the fear, the hatred... all accumulated inside of my mind.

-Takuto, stop, don't do this to yourself, you'll hurt yourself!

He grabbed my hand to give power to his words and to try to stop me, I just moved his hand and stood up starting to punch the wall. I punched so hard that my right hand started bleeding. He took my hand and lift it up, his grip was so strong that my arm actually started hurting.

-TAKUTO, look what you did to yourself, PLEASE calm down, I'm going to get some bandages, and tommorow we will see what went wrong. Please calm yourself, everything is going to be alright.

Everything is going to be alright, ALRIGHT? Nothing can be right, I lost the only thing that was giving me opportunity to do what I love , to sing, and now my voice is gone and he says that EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE ALRIGHT? Life without my voice just can't be true it would be better if I had died from the sickness,to die while doing the thing that I love,to die singing. Yea I guess that's the only thing for me to do right now,to die...