Summary- Dean is granted his "heart's desire" while tangling with a witch. Now under a witch's spell, he feels compelled to overprotect Sam from every danger and wants complete control to keep Sam safe. Will the brother's relationship survive? S2
This story is a birthday dedication to my wonderful beta and friend- Sendintheclowns.
Thanks again to everyone who is reading and especially reviewing! I love reading all your comments!
Heart's Desire Eight
Three days had passed since the witch had cast her spell, and Sam was going a bit batty. He tried his best to do everything Dean asked in order to keep his brother's compulsion under control. It was getting harder as each day passed.
Tonight he was sitting in bed reading, waiting for his brother to return from the bar. Dean had driven two towns over to a bigger town in order to win some money. Sam was enjoying his alone time. Time alone was getting hard to come by; Dean needed to constantly keep an eye on him.
Dean had wanted Sam to go to town with him tonight, but Sam didn't think he could stomach being in public with Dean. He had to stick close to Dean and avoid contact with others in order to keep his brother happy. Sam had convinced Dean to go without him by sending his shoes, jacket and wallet with Dean.
Sam was pulled out of his thoughts by the sound of his brother at the door.
"Hey Sam, how was your night?" Dean asked as he entered the room, carefully checking the salt line after he entered.
"It was nice and quiet." Sam replied with a small smile. "How was yours Dean?"
"Well, I was a bit uneasy being away from you Sam, but I did win some money. I also found us a place to stay while we work this spell thing out." Dean finished checking the salt lines around the door and windows and headed over to sit on his bed.
"Really, where?" Sam tried to keep his face from showing the concern he was feeling.
"I met this retired gentleman at the bar, and he has an empty hunting cabin that we can rent for cheap. I think it would be a good idea, to get away for a bit." Dean gave Sam a reassuring smile.
"Dean, I kind of like being in town and having the library and restaurants available to us." Sam replied.
"I know geek boy, but I promise to let you load up on books before we head out. The cabin has a full kitchen so I can cook for you. I really think this is for the best Sam." Dean paused and looked up at his brother and added. " I need to do this Sam."
Sam hated this. It was bad enough being holed up in the motel room for most of the day, but to be out in the middle of nowhere with Dean under the influence of the spell scared him. He knew that they had to do this though, or Dean would get sick.
Sam nodded and replied, "Sure Dean that sounds fine."
"Thanks Sam, I think you'll like it. We'll move our stuff out to the cabin tomorrow." Dean gave Sam a reassuring smile.
"Okay Dean." Sam really didn't know what else to say. To fight with Dean only made things worse on his brother.
"Hey Sam, I think you should get ready for bed, you're looking pretty tired. Oh and tonight it's supposed to be a warm spring night, so I was thinking that I want you to strip to your boxers and give me your clothes to lock in the car, that way I'll know you won't try to leave. Okay?" Dean gave Sam sheepish smile.
Sam swallowed hard. He didn't even know what to say to Dean, so he stood and started stripping down to just his boxers. He walked over to his duffel bag and stuffed the clothes in, zipping the bag. Sam took a deep breath and handed the bag to Dean.
"Thanks Sam, I know this is hard on you, but really, you'll see in the end this is all for the best." Dean patted Sam on the back and headed to the door.
Sam crawled under the covers of his bed, fighting back tears. He felt so helpless and alone. Dean had taken Sam's cell phone the night before, telling him that he didn't want Sam calling hunters. In Dean's mind, all hunters were dangerous and Sam needed to avoid them.
Sam lay on his side and almost lost his battle with his tears just as his brother entered the room.
"Sammy, are you okay?" Dean closed the door and was immediately at Sam's side.
"I'm just… tired Dean, really tired. You're right I just need some sleep." Sam tried to get his emotions under control.
"Shhh, it'll be okay Sam, I promise." Dean was rubbing Sam's back just like when they were kids. Sam took comfort in his childhood memories and let them calm him. Once his breathing calmed, Sam let the pull of sleep claim him.
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Dean had just returned with donuts and coffee, and was looking for his brother the minute he entered the motel room. His heart skipped a beat when he didn't see Sam right away. He was able to breathe again when he heard the shower. Dean sat their coffee and donuts down, and walked over to the bathroom door, opening it a crack. He had convinced Sam that it was for the best if he never locked the bathroom door.
"You okay in there Sam?" Dean tensely waited for a reply.
"Yeah Dean, I'll be out in a minute. Could you bring my bag in?" Sam's voice sounded quiet and broken.
Relief flooded Dean at the sound of his brother's voice but the emotion in Sam's voice tore at Dean. It hurt to see his brother so upset. He knew it was because of the spell he was under, and at this moment he would give anything to fix the situation. As each day passed, Dean felt the spell pull him under further, but he still had lucid moments.
"Sure, Sam." Dean replied. He walked outside and retrieved Sam's bag and checked the salt lines as he entered the room. He laid Sam a set of clothes out on the bed and sat down to eat his breakfast.
Sam exited the bathroom shortly with a towel around his waist. He quickly frowned at the clothes laid out on the bed.
"Um, Dean did you pick my clothes out for me?" Sam asked and gave Dean a confused look.
"Yeah, I wanted to make sure you dressed warm enough, a cool front came through last night. We can't have you catching cold Sammy." Dean gave Sam a reassuring smile.
"Okay Dean, this is getting a bit weird. I know how to dress warm." Sam continued to look confused.
"Sam, it just makes me feel better doing stuff like that for you, so let me okay?" Dean knew it was a low blow bringing up his health, but he knew it would make Sam drop it.
Dean watched as Sam took a deep calming breath before he responded. "Sure Dean, if it makes you feel better. Is it okay, if I get dressed in the bathroom""
"Of course Sam, but hurry or your coffee will get cold." Dean could tell his brother was beyond frustrated with him, but to be perfectly honest at the moment it was getting hard for Dean to care. As long as he could control things, Sam would stay safe and that was all that mattered.
Sam turned and went into the bathroom to get ready. When he came out, he had a defeated look on his face, it reminded Dean of the way Sam looked after losing an argument with their Dad.
"So Dean, what's the plan for today?" Sam asked as he took the coffee from Dean and grabbed a donut.
"Well, I'll pack the car and then we'll head to the library so that you can get some more books. Why don't you call the library and let them know what books you want and I'll run in and pick them up for you." Dean wanted to get Sam to the cabin as soon as possible and wasn't in the mood to let Sam spend hours looking at books.
"Okay Dean, I'll call them from the room phone while you pack the car. Um, Dean how uh modern is this cabin. Will we have electricity or running water?" Sam sounded like a smile child trying to stall going to bed.
"The cabin is great Sam. The gentleman that had it, he was all about comfort. It has running water, electricity, a television with satellite and it even has a working phone and internet. The only reason that Mr. Johnson isn't staying in it is because he has to have knee surgery. He told me that if we would pay his utilities he would let us have it for $50.00 a month! It's perfect Sam." Dean had wanted to surprise Sam with the cabin but hoped by spoiling the surprise Sam mood would improve.
"How come he's letting us have it for so cheap?" Sam replied with a look of suspension on his face.
"It is in the middle of nowhere and he was having trouble finding someone to rent it. He had been trying for six weeks. In the end, it will run us $300.00 a month but it's a lot cheaper than staying here at the motel." Dean hoped that this news would cheer Sam up.
"Sounds good Dean. Um, should we make a list of supplies?" Sam asked sounding very unsure of himself.
Dean gave him a reassuring smile. "Sure Sam, make a list of things you need or groceries that you think we need, and we'll hit the grocery store on the way to the cabin." Dean finished his donut and hopped up ready to pack.
"Okay Dean, I'll do that. Let me know when you're ready to go." Sam replied as he finished his breakfast.
Dean could tell that Sam was still down, but he hoped that once they got to the cabin, things would get better.
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Sam sat in the car waiting for Dean to come out of the library. Part of Sam really did want to run from his brother, the spell had made Dean so controlling that it was getting hard to take. Sam kept reminding himself that Bobby and Joshua would find them soon and fix things, and he just need to keep things together until they arrived. It wasn't like Sam could truly leave, he knew that it would make his brother ill and there was no way that Sam would be responsible for that.
Sam decided that it wouldn't hurt to get some fresh air. He got out of the car and was going to sit on the bench that was right outside the libraries front door, when Dean came out of the library , arms full of books. When Dean locked eyes with him, Sam knew he had made a mistake. Dean's face was a mix of fear and anger.
"What the hell Sam? Where are you going?" Dean sputtered out as he quickly sat the books on the bench and hurried over grabbing Sam's arm.
Sam wanted to scream, he wanted to run, but in the end he took a deep breath and tried to reason with his brother. "Dean it was hot in the car, so I was going to sit on the bench and wait for you. I promise, that's all I was up to! Please Dean, you've got to believe me." Sam turned on his puppy dog eyes hoping that an innocent look would get him out of trouble.
Dean continued to stare, his grip on Sam's arm increasing.
"Dean, you're hurting me." Dean quickly release Sam's arm.
"I-I'm sorry Sam, I never meant to hurt you. I just… it looked like you were going to leave." Dean face was full of remorse.
"It's okay Dean, I'm okay. Why don't you grab the books and I'll get back in the car." Sam watched as Dean nodded and went to retrieve the books. Sam got in the car, and tried to calm himself. He could tell that Dean was pretty shaken up by the whole ordeal.
Dean opened the passenger side door and got in. "Sam are you sure you're okay? I never meant to hurt you and I didn't think about you over heating in the car." Dean was in panic mode.
"Dean, I'm fine really. It's not that hot, and you might have bruised my arm a bit but it'll be okay, I promise. You're scaring me Dean, take a deep breath and calm down." Sam tried to keep himself together for Dean's sake.
Sam watched as Dean did as he was told and within a few minutes, he seemed much calmer.
"So Sam, how am I going to get supplies now? I can't leave you in the car, but I don't feel comfortable taking you in." Dean was starting to get worked up again.
"Dean, what part about me going in, worries you?" Sam knew he needed to get inside his brother's head if he was going to be able to help.
"I don't want you to try to leave me and I'm afraid of other people taking you from me." Dean replied, looking at Sam with true fear in his eyes.
"Okay, um well, we could hold hand's like we did when we were kids and I promise not to give people eye contact or speak to anyone. People are going to think I'm either your boyfriend or that I have special needs, but I'll do it if you think it'll help." Sam tried to give his brother a reassuring smile.
"It would help, thanks Sam. But if anyone asks, you're my special needs brother 'cause dude I got a reputation to protect!" Dean replied with a smirk.
Looking at Dean at that moment broke Sam's heart, because he caught a glimpse of the real Dean that was buried under the spell.
"Okay, Dean let's get this over with!" Sam tried to smile, and tried to maintain the light banter that he missed.
"Sure thing Samantha!" Dean replied as he started the car and for a moment Sam could almost forget.
AN: I wanted to thank my anonymous reviewers. Shadow- sorry I assumed you were a girl, not sure why I did. Cheryl- you asked who Joshua is- he is a hunter that has been mentioned in the show just like Caleb and Father Jim. We have never seen him on the show. Taylor- it's nice to hear that you are enjoying the story. Thanks again to my beta sendintheclowns- without her - well without her I don't think I would be writing!
