9/5/20—

12:04 AM

I can't sleep. She is making weird restless noises in her sleep and turning. I don't want to wake her up, but I'm conflicted because I would want someone to wake me up from a nightmare. She's stirring. I'll get her some water.

2:47 AM

She fell back asleep after I kissed her and rubbed her back. For some reason, I can't bring myself to sleep. I have to protect her at all costs in case her ex tries to hurt us. They still have not shown up at work, and she is still getting those texts. I drank a couple cups of coffee and now my breath smells like dirt. I just leaned in to smell her hair, always the familiar scent of iris and cinnamon. Smells like all I ever wanted.

3:17 AM

My eyelids are so heavy. I have an arm around her and my brain is screaming at me to sleep, but I just won't listen. I continue to breathe her in, the simple element which gives me life.

4:09 AM

I'm not losing it. I hear some crackling near the front of our door and people are waking up in panic.

8:00

They burned it down. They burned it down. The fire was started when I got up to check and people were calling in the fire department. The first thing that came across my mind was anger, a red hot flash of burning rage, almost as red as the flames near to engulfing almost everyone who lived by and near us. Luckily, no one was hurt… I went to grab her, but she was already up. I had time to grab a couple of my belongings and so did she before escaping out the window (we live on the first floor, diary) and the fire department arrived. The sprinkler system helped our neighbors a little, but I guess it was an older system and the staff didn't think to replace it because they weren't anticipating anything like this. I'm in the bathroom crying because I feel like the only time I'm not losing my sanity is when I'm with her. She's waiting outside and the police are holding us for questioning. As we watched our two little room shelter burn, she wrapped her arms around me and cried. She looked in my eyes and said, 'we are in this together, and nothing can burn down the way I feel about you.' I remember this right now and I'll remember it forever, because even after just waking up, and a nervous wreck, she still came to me.