"Hey, Ponyboy you okay?" Johnny asked one day.
"Yeah. Why'd you ask that?"
"It's just… you seem… distant lately."
"What do you mean?"
"You… It's nothing, sorry…"
I was relieved that Johnny just dropped the topic. I had been seeing Shawn more lately and had to avoid Johnny, Two-Bit, and Steve at school more. I never try to catch up to them (I don't with Steve anyways) in the hallways anymore. My mind always drifts— more than what it usually does— to Shawn. What was wrong with me? I don't want to think about him more than I have to, but I think about him all the time. I hate it, but I love it. I love the feeling he gives me. I love the butterflies in my stomach and the tingling when we kiss.
Something is defiantly wrong with me. It sounds like I have a crush on him. I don't have a crush on him—he's a boy. I'm just embarrassed by the kissing… but I want to kiss him again; and be by his side.
I have a crush on Shawn. The thought of the idea made by heart flutter but my stomach dropped when I remembered that he is straight and the thought that being with another boy isn't accepted.
"Are you okay?" Johnny asked again after seeing me daze off and probably blush. My attention snapped back to him.
"Oh, uh, yeah." The bell rung, signaling everyone to go to first period. Thank goodness for that. "See you later?"
Johnny nodded and we parted ways. I was supposed to meet up with Shawn in the closet before the last bell rung. I quickly sped off there and slid in the closet. I waited for him, switching on the light, but he didn't come after a few minutes. The bell was going to ring soon. Maybe he wasn't coming. I tapped my foot impatiently before deciding to leave. He can fail one test. Right when I touched the handle, the door open. I scrambled back to not get hit. Shawn slid in the room.
"Sorry, my friends are getting suspicious and starting to keep an eye on me. I had to walk around until they left. Let's just get on with it," he said, leaning forward. He cupped my cheeks that were growing hot by the second. His lip pressed against mine and I subconsciously clenched at his shirt, not wanting him to pull away, but he did. I didn't see any emotion on his face and it hurt. He left the closet without another word. With a sigh, I left and headed to his first class.
When class ended, I went to head back to the closet. On the way there I was stopped by Shawn's friends. One wrapped his arm around my shoulder. "Shawn, where ya going?"
"My next class," I lied.
"Isn't your class the other way?"
"He's probably going to see a girl," another one joked. They laughed and patted me on the back. See a girl? My stomach dropped. Is that what Shawn's been doing?
"Well, we'll leave her to you." They left me and I slid in the closet. Shawn was already there and he leaned in to kiss me. When we were back to our own bodies he left without another word. I got to my next classroom and sat down. The teacher was talking but I wasn't listening. I felt absolutely horrible and used. It felt like Shawn was using me just to get a good grade and not helping me when I need his help. I wouldn't blame him. We weren't even friends.
I hate the feeling of being used. I don't care about his grade anymore. He has a high enough grade to last him awhile. I'm not even going to do it because of my crush— he's already taken.
After the day ended, I made sure to grab him before he enters the locker room for track. I pulled him to the side and he glared at me, looking pissed. "What do you want?" he asked.
"I'm not helping you with your tests anymore," I replied.
"What?"
"I'm sick and tired of you using me."
"You're the one who suggested the idea!"
"Yeah, but I kind of thought that you'll help me out too. You only caused damage to me."
"How am I supposed to help you?"
"I don't know, maybe keep some of the Socs off my back?"
"You're lucky I stopped joining in."
"You could have told them to move on; that I wasn't worth it."
"Your right, a grease like you isn't worth our time."
Each word hit me like venom. I clenched my teeth. "Whatever, I'm done helping you. We're not going to change bodies anymore. Good luck on your classes!" I spun around, blinking the tears out of my eyes. Why am I about to cry over that asshole? I stomped off and towards the locker room but was stopped by a warm hand wrapping around my wrist, pulling me backwards and spinning me around. "What do you—"
I was cut off by lips smashing into mine harshly, catching me by surprise. My eyes widened before I melted into the kiss. This one lasted a few seconds longer than what he usually gives me. He pulled away, flustered and looking at his feet.
"Why'd you do that?" I asked.
Shawn, in my body, bit his lip before looking back up at me. "I… I'm now in your body and I won't give it back until you agree to help me again."
"What? You're joking! Give it back!"
"Then help me. Remember, I know your secret and can ruin your life in this body. Pick your poison."
Why did he have to do this? Why couldn't he be nice and leave me alone? I don't have much choice now and I didn't know if he'll actually go through with it since I was in his body. But would I have the guts to do the same? "Fine! I'll help you again!" I gave in and he smirked in victory. He leaned in, cupping my face but stopped. I could feel heat rise to my face as his eyes focused on my lips. Red was tinted on his face. His eyes closed shut tightly before he leaned in once more. Our lips lightly brushed against each other and I felt the fireworks.
As much as I didn't want to, I was the one who pulled away, missing his lips on mine immediately. I peeked over my shoulder slightly.
"What's wrong?" Shawn asked.
"It felt like someone was watching us," I replied, turning back around. Shawn had a troubled face, lips curved into a frown.
"I hope you're not right."
We headed into the locker room. I'm back to where I started. What am I going to do? I'm going to be left broken if I stay in this position. At least he gives me some sort of attention. But that last kiss though. He was being so gentile. It felt like he didn't want it to end, but that was wrong. It was just my imagination.
The next day of school, the school was buzzing. I walked down the hallways with Johnny and gave him a questioning look. He shrugged his shoulders. In one flush, everyone quieted down as all attention was turned to another person: Shawn. What was going on?
The next words I heard made me freeze.
A girl whispered to the other next to her. I was in enough range to catch what they were saying. "It's him: he kissed a boy. He's in a relationship with another male."
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