"What have you got against him? He's a good doctor," Thor asked, and I sighed.
"Yep, and he's my ex's father. Its a lot more than not liking him. Things happened that destroyed everything we had, and I had to leave," I half explained.
"What things?" Coop asked, and I bit my lip.
How did I get here?
Coop had begged me to join them for a late night pizza, and I gave in after half an hour of begging, and I was starting to regret it.
I didn't mind the human food, it was tolerable, and I only had to have a slice to appease them, but it was the questions that was the problem. I could also hear Carlisle nearby, obviously needing to know what I am telling them.
"Edward, my ex, he died... He and his family often went hiking and mountain climbing, so it was always quite dangerous, and one night... Edward had gone mountain climbing with his little sisters, Rosalie and Alice, his brothers, Emmett and Jasper, and his mother, Esme, leaving me and Carlisle. It was about three o'clock in the morning that we got that call." I paused, the grief filling me, "Edward had slipped and fallen. They didn't get to him in time."
I wasn't exactly lying, when I cut my hand, Edward slipped, and charged for me. Victoria took advantage and killed Edward, and almost killed me.
"So what is the problem between you and Doctor Cullen?" Thor asked again, confused.
"Um... he was married to Esme, and... well..." I could hear Carlisle laughing at the way I was trying to word it, and I heard him call me his silly vampire, "Well, we kinda hooked up... and he fell in love with me... you get the idea."
I felt Coop wrap an arm around me, and I allowed myself to snuggle in. I could still hear Carlisle's chuckles, and it was driving me mad.
"Did she find out?" Thor asked.
I nodded, "Yeah, and she wasn't angry, really. She was upset, but not angry. I decided to leave when she found out, and I lied to Carlisle, and he brought it. I've always been a shitty liar, and he brought it."
Carlisle's chuckles had stopped, and I could hear him getting closer, determined to find out the truth.
"I fell in love with him, too, and I told him I didn't, because otherwise, he would ever let me go, but of course, Alice had other plans, and sent him here once she figured out where I was. Traitor." I uttered the last word with a laugh.
Coop and Thor laughed, and my eyes flicked up at the clock on the wall, 12:30. I could feel the burn in my throat, and I knew I'd slip if I didn't hunt soon. I was difficult having Coop around, but I liked him. I just didn't trust him with patients.
The first time I met Coop, I destroyed the file I was holding, and venom was practically dribbling out of my mouth, because he smelled so good. I spent the whole week avoiding him, with Thor and MoMo trying to get me to talk to him.
MoMo... God, I miss him. A few months ago, he went on holiday, and never came back.
I heard him hand in his two weeks notice, but he wanted to keep it quiet. So a holiday was his cover up.
"Alright, we start work in less than eight hours, time to head home, and go to bed, me thinks," I told them, and they agreed. I tossed $20 on the table for the pizza, and left, trying not to laugh at their complaints about me paying, again.
Once I was out of sight, I broke into a sprint, and headed home. I quickly changed, and ran for the forest outside my home. I quickly found two deer, and drained them both, making certain to not spill a single drop.
When I was finished, I rested back against a tree, lowering my head. As the events of the day caught up to me, my chest started hurting, and I felt as if the hole in my heart was going to re-open.
Sobs spilled from my mouth, tears streaming down my face, and I didn't hear her approach.
"Bella?"
Her voice reminded me of music, and I looked up to the girl who saved me. Alice.
She knelt down beside me, and wrapped her arms around me, and I let myself grieve for Edward in a way I have denied myself for so long. By crying. Yes, I had yelled, screamed, and even destroyed more than one home, but I hadn't cried for him in years.
"Oh Bella, I should have sent him sooner," She murmured softly, and I had to agree. After all these years, I still loved Carlisle, but every thought of him led me back to Edward, and the way I betrayed him by sleeping with Carlisle.
God, I was so messed up.
An hour later, Alice and I were back at my home.
"What are you doing here, Alice?" I finally asked, breaking the silence.
"Making sure you don't run away," She accused. The thought had crossed my mind once or twice, but I didn't plan on going through with it. Yet.
"Alice, I'm not that stupid. And I have a life here. I have friends, I belong," I told her.
"That's where you are wrong. You are a vampire, they are human. Yes, you are close to them, but no, you do not belong. Our kind are not meant to mix with them the way you do. You are an exception." Alice told me. I sighed, knowing she was right, "And you are particularly close to your singer..."
I ground my teeth together, "Does Carlisle know you are here?" I asked.
"Don't try and change the subject!" She snapped, before adding on, "And no, he doesn't. And don't tell him either, that will ruin everything!"
I knew no to ask, so I went back to the subject of Coop, "Yes, I know I am close with my singer, but no, there is nothing there, if that's what you mean."
Alice smiled, but I knew she wasn't finished questioning me.
"You knew Esme left before today, didn't you," She said simply, and I nodded.
"She came to see me, about three years ago. She told me, no, she begged me to return to Carlisle, that he needed me. I didn't want to go; I didn't believe her," I murmured, the truth spilling from my lips.
I remember that day, the day she came to me. She broke down in tears, and begged for me to go to him. She told me that she had never seen him so miserable, and he didn't even work at a hospital anymore. He would just stay in his office all day, crying. And the rare times they made love, it was my name that left his lips, not hers.
And that hurt the most.
I did that to him, and I didn't go to him, even when he needed me the most.
I really was a heartless monster.
