I started my new life as one of the new Historia Crux University student, also as a married woman. As awesome as it sound of having your husband studying at the same place, the reality is that, Me and Noctis study in different faculties so we hardly meet during the day, only sometimes during lunch or at home in the middle of the night. Still with his life like he was before married, still hanging around with his bestfriends, just as same as me.

Our University, it is a big place with its several of big building each for every faculties. I didn't think my husband would spend a time with me if he have to walk to my faculty. Thanks to his father for giving him a car.

Noctis is one of my senior here, even though we're married, but only a few knew about our marriage and he still one of the most hottest senior, still acting like a teenager (well, I'm no exception) so every time he fetched me for a lunch, he will always took a lot of the attention mostly from the girls from my faculty because my faculty got a lot more girls than the other. I just let him be proud with all of the attention from the girls, but me on the other hand also being the center of the attention but in a different way, maybe i am the most hated girl. Most of them must hated me but I care less as long as I have all of the support from my intimidated and beautiful loyal friends around me, it was more than enough to live in these cruel world.

Our relationships is blooming but more or less there will always a challenge, I don't know how long we can stay together, don't know if we can survive in this marriage forever.

This morning, as always Noctis will walked me to my first class and as usual some of the girls will glared or rolled their eyes at me, I just ignored them while Noctis on the other hand always got lovelies smile from these unknown girls and they as usual shamelessly flirt with him which he seems so comfortably use to it and he will always put his smug smile on his face making me irritated. As cool, smug and irritated he is in my eyes, he always made me feel comfortable, calmed and secured.

As we walked Noctis pointed on the board that where the student swarmed. I asked him what is it all about. He explain to me that it is yearly event, a ball that will be held in about three days as to welcoming the new students after three months that they're still here and for them to get to know their senior a little well.

Noctis told me, I just need to come to the ball with him and put some awesome beautiful dress on.

~The day of the Ball~

" you are Amazing, Light! ...you're the most extremely gorgeous like goddess, babe! ...

my Goddess! " Noctis shouted praising me happily with his eyes glimmering and hugged me.

" Thank you Noct, you're the most amazing charming prince yourself ! " I said while hugged him in return.

Then we walked and entered the car and started rolling.

We arrived at the grand door of ball, was greeted by people with expensive fancy beautiful clothes. Some of Noctis friends were already here to greet us. the hall is amazingly awesome and big. We walked to our table with Noctis friends.

As the soft music started, everyone is dancing. I dance with Noctis at first but as the time goes by and the music changed from one to another then we're also keep changing dance partner. I danced with Gladiolus then Ignis then someone I didn't know then Prompto then with my friends then I stop as I felt sore and returned to our table and sit enjoying the view.

I saw Noctis danced with some blonde girl, " she is one of the senior " I said to myself, I usually didn't care but then they keep on dancing together even after a several of music changed.

I felt something itchy in my heart just by looking at them. I don't know why. I started touching my lips that was remind me of my first kissed with Noctis. I could still feel it, still warm and overwhelming. Maybe because he is the first, even though I am not the first for him, he even admitted to me during one evening, that he was already slept with his exes. How many of them? I've ever asked Ignis before I met Noctis a long time ago, Ignis said many, but I didn't asked for the detail because I almost cried and asked for the detail only hurt me, why I felt that way? I don't know. Then I look at them again, I felt alone, like he abandon me, I started to feel maybe I just atand on his way in his life, I must be just interfering his awesome life. He must be happy before this marriage.

Then my eyes is burning, something warm flowing down to my cheek. It's my tears? I'm crying? But I didn't even wanted to cry, it just fell. How did this happened, damn it! … I immediately wiped my tears and stood.

I look everywhere but them, it is hurting. I need some fresh air so I started pacing out alone. I keep walking to I don't know where but at the end I reached the beautiful place with a lot of flowers.

" roses, beautiful different color of roses, one of my essence " I said in my heart as I stood smiling and savor the calmness.

"long time no see Lightning" said the voice behind me that I think I know him.

As I turned to see him as i expected " Firion?! "

"you are beautiful as always Lightning" he said.

" Thank you, what are you doing here " I'm wondering, I didn't hear him coming. Weirdly what is he doing here, obviously he is one of the senior but accidently we met here in this garden.

He closed the gap between us, I'm tense then he stop very close in front of me " I heard that you're married?"

I didn't answer just stood there and look down to my toes, hoping he didn't know that I did horrible in my marriage.

"is he worth for your love?" he asked seems didn't really know that the marriage was arranged.

"I am the menace in my husband life and just waiting to break, he is very nice, he is wonderful husband. He was happy before our marriage then I came into his life just making chaos in his life" I admitted to him, I look down to one of the beautiful roses remembering Firion one of my good friends that was confessed to me that he love me.

He look at me swith his sad eyes and said " I still love you Lightning, if he's not appreciate you, my offer still wide open for you, come to me, I'll make you happy and I'll show you real love " he said.

"LIGHTNING! " I'm surprised at someone calling .

Shocked at someone called me and realized how close Firion to me I pushed him away and turned to see Noctis was the one who called out for me. I stood there awkwardly thinking " you are here too? ".

I felt awkward and tense so I ran away from them, I ran passed beside Noctis, he look at me confused and in disbelieved. I ran as fast as I could and return to the dance hall and back to our table trying to forget everything acting like nothing. that is how i did as always and it always work.

I immediately called her, surprised as I saw Firion lean to her which I guess trying to kiss her. She seems in her deep thought to aware what he was trying to do.

Of course I know what he it was, it is obvious, its easy to read his body language. i leave my social single life activities after married, no one night stand, not even a kiss or a touch from any girls anymore, but something like that never easily forget.

I dance with Stella because everybody stole Lightning from me as we dance but nobody dance with Stella, she then politely asked me for a dance. We got history, but the history remind history as I thought in my head, i couldn't refuse her wish infront of everybody, so i accepted her offer to dance. She keep dragging me to dance with her on and on. I wanted to end it and join Lightning on the table but i just couldn't leave.

I look at Lightning occasionally and I'm glad that she's still there, even though she looks bored but I couldn't left Stella on the dance floor. I think hard to refuse Stella politely for the next song.

After the music stop, I look at Lightning again but to my disappointment she wasn't there anymore. I frantically looking around and searched for her, I didn't remember when did I just left, leaving Stella on the dance floor alone and ran in searched for Lightning, I just follow my guts where it will lead me.

I saw Firion walked in the hall slowly following someone in front of him. The long hall in front of us gave me the access to see the silhouette that he been following, someone in front of him. Someone firm with sexy body and strawberry blond beautiful hair walked slowly far in front of him, he keeps his distance from her. I didn't have to guess who she is, I watched her every day, she got her sexy graceful signature walk that I amused and attached to look at her, Lightning, i whispered her name. Why did Firion keep following her? When she finally turned to the corner, Firion did the same. I followed them carefully.

I reached to the corner not long after and hide just to hear every Firion words that made me stunned and pissed. I've never thought Firion would have that kind of guts and feeling for Lightning. He walked close to her and Lightning seems drifted in her thought to aware how close Firion is.

I am actually eavesdropping to their conversation and shocked that Lightning felt that way about me. where did she got that?.

Firion words seems trying to poison Lightning's mind about me. He's trying to make her think that he is better for her than me? that really made me mad and the worst part is he is trying to kiss her and Lightning seems unaware of her surrounding .

I called her out loud maybe because I'm angry or maybe to awaken her to the reality. She turned to me surprising and ran towards me, I thought she ran to me I almost catch her to my arm but no, i realized she was actually ran away from us as fast as she could. I've called her many times but she didn't budged.

She's running to the hall and back to our table acting like nothing.

I sit in front of her, look at her intently but she still act like nothing. I want to asked her but afraid of what will going to be happening, like what if I ask her and she got mad and running away or maybe she'll left or worst she could ask for divorce. I'm shaking, afraid of that kind of things. so I just watched her but amused, she is adorable.

She didn't dare to look at me. so I stood and walked leaving her calming herself. I strode and met everyone, dance with them and then Stella came and dance with me again until it almost midnight Stella didn't want me to go away from her.

I look at Lightning she seems exhausted talking with her friends, maybe if she got her own car she was already home by now, I'm glad she's not and I smile evilly.

Lightning walked to me during the dance and I'm surprised she finally gave up and came to the dance floor.

" I'm tired Noct, lets go home " she said

" okay " I said immediately

" how rude, we're in the middle of the dance!" Stella shouted and disagree.

" I don't care " Light immediately answered coldly as she grabbed my wrist and pulled me away.

" you can't do that " Stella suddenly whine, chasing and hugged me.

Just with that I don't know when and how, Stella is already lying on the floor. Her eyes bleeding and her lips splits and bleed. I'm shocked at the nasty cut on her lips but still trying to help her on her feet. She's crying. So pathetic I said in my head.

"Light!, what are you doing? " I look at her a little bit angry but also concern. Lightning was obviously already double punched Stella on her face. So fast that I didn't noticed. Lightning look down like sorry but she couldn't say it, however she still look cute that I want to hug her. She suddenly ran off to the grand door which I assumed she's trying to calm down, I have noticed that Squall immediately chased for her, maybe to calm her down. Light ever said that Squall is like brother to her but even so after calming Stella a little I just left Stella on her own again and ran to the door searching for my wife, Lightning.

So I ran out as fast as I could, maybe I just suddenly feel something bad about Squall and Lightning.

…..

I ran out, I've already done a bad things. I saw how Noctis look at me, he look so angry so I look down to my toes. That could added his hatred towards me, unable to face him and I could feel I almost cry but I won't let anybody specially Noctis look at me vulnerable with tears in my eyes so I ran out of the hall before my tears burst out in front of everyone.

I ran outside as far and fast as I could then stop. I look up to the sky it is so dark. There are no moon or stars up on the sky. Looks like it will be rain soon. I heard a foot steps behind me I turned around and wished for Noctis. To my disappointment it was actually Squall and I don't know why I'm feeling uncomfortable.

"what are you doing here Squall " I asked him.

" I've seen what happened Light, I thought you might need some company" Squall said while closing our gap. I can't look at him, embarrass of the drama earlier.

" its not you fault Light, I'll did the same as you're if I was you" he added which I realized his words is calming. At least there is one who understood me.

I didn't remember when did my tears flow down to my cheek. That he wiped my tears and suddenly kissed me on my lips which surprising me. I pushed him away immediately but suddenly someone already broke us apart and punched Squall on his face that made him fell to the ground. I look at the person and found out it was Noctis.

…..

" Noctis … "

the only words that came out from her mouth as I punched Squall, her so called friends like brother. yeah my ass.

I'm really pissed as I wanted to scream but I don't know to who.

" how dare you Squall …" as I look at Squall who is struggling on the ground. I could hear my voice is shaking because I'm holding my anger just not to show it in front of my wife.

But I unable to wait for his answer even though he seems trying to say something. I just turned to Lightning. She's still stood there in shocked but I roughly grabbed her wrist firmly and pulled her with me. she didn't resist a bit. I keep pulling her till we reached to our car, open the door for her and going inside. As I seated myself on the driver sit and started driving away from there as fast as I could. On the sky there are a few Lightning flashed followed by the rain just like the chaotic happened earlier and chaotic inside my head. I drive quietly and as fast as the mad adrenaline rushes through my veins because of my angriness. Another bright light flashed on the sky.

Suddenly….

" I guess this is the end of us " she said it soft just enough for me to hear it.

" wha…what? " I didn't believe my ears, maybe I heard her wrong or am I delusional?!

Silent…

Then….

" you heard me, this is the end, I don't think we should keep this fake marriage, we didn't understand each other, we didn't care for each other, you got your awesome life before , I am just interfering, you don't have to keep on sacrificing. I don't think you're ready to let go your past. While some of people in my past are still hang around me, they just won't let go " she said with her innocent manners and voice.

I hold the starring hard hoping to calm down, I'm shaking, I'm afraid of this day, it is finally came? I felt the surged of sadness, itchiness in my heart, my body felt hot and cold. My heart is thumping hard on my chest like it want to burst and explode, I'm thinking of what to do, I frantically think of the better idea or calming words to cool her down and didn't make any stupid decision yet. I'm worried that any wrong words she will forever gone.

She absolutely thinking wrong about me. she said that this is a fake marriage? but it felt so real when we kissed after the promise and vow is made, as we hugged, as we talked, as everything we did together. We didn't love each other? then why that I care for her so much? I'm happy seeing her by my side every day, she's calming, interesting and full of life to me, her every move appeared in my eyes, so at least I love her even though she's not. she said i got awesome life before marriage, what life that she mean? What past that I couldn't let go just for her? I'm willing to do anything for her. Maybe some people in her past just won't let her go, but we can fight it together, at least I'll fight it for her as long as she stay with me forever, I've already made my promise during our marriage, our vow that no matter what happen we will always be together.

I'm in deep thought that I didn't realized that we've reached our destination.

" I'll pack my things and move out of the house by tomorrow " she said without looking at me. my heart skipped a beat. I wish for her to look at me once, but its not happening. I am pleading her not to do this but the words just heard in my head. I am too afraid of losing her that my voice didn't budged to come out.

I saw her walked into our house. My mouth is shut and cannot do anything because of Worried, scared, hesitated, anxiety and sad all these negative thinking inside me made me walked to the rain slowly, let me soaked in it and cried. Pathetically I'm a man, man shouldn't cry.

….

I walked into the house and immediately to the bed room and started packing my things. I've said what I need to say and he seems agreed with me, no resistance. After hours then he entered our room soaking directly head to the bathroom.

I just turned to him and thinking, he's that happy that made him dancing in rain?!

I felt really tired so I wish him good night slowly even he didn't hear it, I went to bed and sleep. i wish he love me like i love him.

In the morning,

I woke up alone as Noctis wasn't here as usual. Maybe he left, hang around with his friends as usual maybe with Stella… why did I think of that woman? jealous? It can't be. Enough! take a shower!

So I'm ready... to go... and walked ...to my suit case?..

I thought I put it here, I'm thinking in my head, it can't be, I misplace it?.

I searched everywhere then I found it on the wardrobe. I really didn't remember that I put my suit case up there but I pulled it down, It felt strange so I immediately put it down, open it and….

Right!... It is empty!...

I'm not thinking much, the culprit must none other than Noctis, this is so immature! he is one who messed with me. I'm sure.

I walked out of the bedroom, I smell something delicious so I walked to the kitchen, and he was there.

He notice me coming, immediately turned and greeted me with his wide smile on his face.

" good morning my dear lovely wife " he greeted cheerfully.

" what are you doing " I wondering, I didn't answer instead asked him because I felt awkward in his manner. He's that happy that I'm leaving. So he cook for me a breakfast?!...

" come and sit join me for breakfast " he invited me.

I am hungry so I sit beside him, he cooked omelette, it smell so delicious and let him put it on my plate and started eating. We enjoy our food in comfortable silent. After finished my food I started asking him about what happened to my suit case but he answered me with another question about the food and that is annoying.

" Noctis I know you are the one that messing around with my things, why did you do that?" I asked him.

" this is beautiful day! Light, lets go out, I'll take you to the beach or anywhere you wish to go" he said absolutely ignoring my question that made me dumbfounded.

" are you for real?" I said, disbelieved that he's not answering instead talking about totally different subject.

" yes… lets go out " he said while he grabbed my wrist and pulled me with him like a ragged doll. he seems suddenly stupid by answering my question with question or not the answered.

I have no choice and unable to resist so i followed but at the door I immediately remember my real reason so I stopped. He look at me and asked why did I stop but immediately changed the subject and say..

" ummp.. yeah we forgot to bring some mineral water right? " he immediately ran back to the kitchen.

" NOCTIS! .. " I called him but he just ignored me.

In fact he's return as fast as he could and dragged me to his car. I just couldn't ruin his cute enthusiasm with his glimmering eyes and happy aura so I just let him without much question. We're gone to the shopping mall even I'm not interested in what ever he had shown me, then we go to the cinema just watched the whatever movie quietly.

He asked me if I want anything or go anywhere but I'm not interested in anywhere and keep quiet so he was the one who decided for me. we gone to the beach at night. Sky is clear, stars are everywhere there also the moon look so close and bright that we could see its freckles.

I guess I'm losing times, because I didn't realized it was already midnight when we reached home.

I'm still wondering what happened to him, maybe he just want to spend time together for the last time, so I granted his wish even he didn't asked.

I took a shower, change my clothes and ready to bed, Noctis was there shirtless with his towel. I look at his abs showing his six pack and my face flushed. I guess that this what making him sexy and love by all of his admirer and lovers. I know he have been in too many relationship before, he is a charmer after all, I badly thinking in my head. Forgot that I was actually staring then I just realized his pair of eyes is actually looking at me. Embarrassing, I walked to the side of the bed and lying, facing my back to him, I'm really tired because of the day event with him.

I just wanted to sleep but before I close my eyes without looking at him I said my thanks and appreciation to him not only for the whole day he managed to awesomely dragged me everywhere and made me happy but also gave me happiness during our live together as a married couple. I'm lucky and appreciate every second that we're together, I told him. Then i finally said that I'll be gone by tomorrow and you can have your wonderful life like before I came into your life. I'll explain to our family that we have already tried but it won't work.

…..

That night I walked straight to our bathroom because I'm in soaked clothes. Lightning was in the room packing which itched my heart. I want to stop her but I'm afraid that I'll immediately lost her. I took my shower and thinking but I couldn't think of anything. When I'm done I go out of the bath room, I saw Lightning is sleeping peacefully. I paced to her side a look at her beautiful angelic peaceful face. I'm happy she's still here married to me and wake up every day with her by my side.

Suddenly I'm shaking that I know she's about to leave me. her suit case full with her things is ready nearby the door. I stared at the suit case like I wanted to killed it. then I walked to it, open it and put back her things back to where it belong in the wardrobe. Satisfied with my work and smile I went to the bed and planned to wake up early to cook breakfast for her even though she's the one who made it for me every day since our marriage.

I wish her a good night slowly and kiss her forehead.

I woke up early with new spirit, today is only for Lightning, I 'll cook breakfast for her and planned to take her everywhere so she will forget about the last night event about everything that almost break us apart, the most horrible ball I had ever attended in my life.

After breakfast even though with a little bit of drama like she's want to ask something or maybe she just want to resist but I just won't let her, instead I just dragged her everywhere with me. It is successful plan. We went home at midnight. We're having a lot of fun. I guess, at least I'm having a lot of fun to have her the whole day.

We arrived home at midnight, she's the one who took a shower first and when she's done, she's went out of the bath room, she was staring at me but I don't know what she's thinking, I thought she was going to pounced at me but I didn't know if it is in a good or a bad way. I wish in a good way, I used to made every of the girls who I bed go crazy about me but with Lightning I just froze because she's so powerful yet so fragile, so bad yet so innocent. She turned to walked to the side of the bed start lying and said her thanks and appreciation for making her happy the whole day which making me proud and glad and also for the whole happiness through our whole marriage. I'm in the most beautiful world I've ever had that I'm very happy for her appreciation. Then came the next part from her mouth really made me fell and shattered into pieces . She said she is leaving by tomorrow? I can't believe this, after all I did? All the sacrifices that I made? It just turned out nothing.

I am the only one that trying so hard to make this marriage works, there are no we in working this marriage. I am the only one and I won't waste my effort just give Lightning the pleasure to ruin everything I build, I won't let my marriage crumble before my eyes just because she's giving up. This really made me mad, shocked, afraid, worried and all the bad feelings that I could feel. Most of all I felt like she has betrayed me after the vow that we made during the marriage!

" what do you mean you'll be gone by tomorrow Light? " I asked her coldly, shocked and worried.

" you know what I mean, this won't work, stop pretending, just let them know the truth! " she is answering me nonchalantly without even look at me.

" Don't ruin it " I warned her, I could feel my voice is shaking and I was actually mad and wanted to cry and stared at her back for her nonchalant attitude.

" Ruin what Noctis? " she still didn't budged and still looking another way, made my blood reached at the boiling point.

" Look at me when you talk to me Lightning! " I started feeling my hands is shaking because of the blood rushed and my heart thumping fast.

Then ….. silent…..

Maybe she fell asleep?...

but I won't let this go just like that easily. I wait for her to answer … nothing?!

That's it!...

so I came to her, close the gap and immediately climb on top of her lying body and trap her under my body, she's on the other hand look shocked and worried then she is struggling and squirming underneath my body made my body's temperature higher.

I started kissing her roughly, I licked her and bit her, living my mark on her body. She's trying to pushed me away but I just hold her tighter every time she struggle.

" you know I love you so much in fact I've told you that before, but you totally ignored me! " I'm mad and hoping she'll understand.

" what happen to our vow? " I asked her.

" What vow? We just playing our role, you are actually didn't love me, you said it but you didn't mean it. I don't know why you are still pretending, we need to stop this, I've read your profile, your life was awesome before me and I am sorry, I am on your way and ruined your life " she said as she's crying her heart out, I've never seen her like that, so vulnerable, so adorable.

" I am sorry Light, I made you feel that way but you're absolutely wrong, I'm your husband, we're legally bound, we got that vow, I love you so much, in fact madly in love with you, I am willing to forgive you and already let go of everything that I assume irritated you, trust me. I want you to love me, do you love me Claire? Will you give me a chance? will you give it to me? " as I squeeze her down, placing me between her leg and keep on kissing her lips & her neck. I could feel her weakening but I don't know maybe because she is surrendering for the pleasure or she just tired.

" Noctis…. No.. " she whisper.

After a long battle, I manage to tamed her, the virgin vixen. She's giving up and just let me did whatever I want. She is surrendering.I am in paradise, I am satisfied, I am happy and I smile.

" I love you so much Light, don't go anywhere, stay with me forever " I said to her ears and kissed her passionately.

" I love you more, Noctis " for the first time she's answered and declared her love to me verbally which made me overwhelmed, I kissed her again and hold her tight in my arms and I sleep with incredibly satisfied, awesomely wonderful feeling I've ever had.

Weirdly I'm not angry, maybe I know that we got that legal bound, maybe because of the vow that we had, maybe because I trusted him or maybe because I am actually love him. Even though I'm struggling to escaped because I'm not ready and confused of what he trying to do.

His touched, his kissed, his words and all he did making my body stiffed for the pleasure that my body cannot resist. My mouth say no but my body say yes. Finally I just gave up. He is my husband anyway. Thanks to him that now I'm sure I'm actually love him so much. No doubt. I fell asleep securely in his arms With most wonderful feeling and love in my heart.