A/N: Leo clearly hates Spike/Slash and Raph trusts him this is a talk between Raph and Slash but Leo walks in and gets in the middle...

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Slash sat on top of a building looking down at the red tail lights of cars passing by on the street below, he could not get the flashes of Donatello and Michelangelo out of his mind. The pain he put them in, the hurt, he saw it in Raphael's eyes too but in a different way. Sitting there he held his head for a minute and looked out into the blackness of the night. He wondered what made him act the way he did? Why he attacked his, brothers, of sorts. He was technically younger then the turtles but not by much, he was found by Raphael in a drainage ditch back when Raphael was only 5 or 6 years old. How could he betray his best friend? The person that cared for him for so long? How could he beat his brothers like that?

Slash was so deep in thought he did not hear movement behind him.

"Spike?"

He knew that name... the name he had been given long ago... turning he saw his old friend standing there.

"Raphael, brother, what brings you here?"

Raph stood for a moment taking in his friends form and said. "Well, Leo thought he saw you up here, we were out on patrol. I'm not really supposed to even be here but you know me; the rebel of the family."

Slash chuckled at that, turning back he looked up at the stars that he could see thru the smog of the city and the brightness of the city lights. "Do all of them hate me?"

Raph expected this question, he had nightmares too about what happened that night to his brothers, he nearly lost both of his little brothers that night. "Don forgives ya, Mikey too, to a point. Leo, well... that's another story."

Raph watched his old friend nod his head at his words, he knew this was hard, he had not talked to Spike/Slash in quite some time; not since that night at least. And that had been months ago...

"What about Master Splinter?"

Raph looked away from his friend and let out a sigh and sat down beside him. "Splinter doesn't blame you, we had a talk after that night and he told me that what happened was because of the mutagen."

Slash looked down at his large hands and then at Raph's smaller ones. "How could I have done that to them? You're all so much smaller then me... I could have... I could..."

Raph put a comforting hand on Slash's arm and said. "I know... you could have but didn't..."

A voice interrupted him shouting. "Raph? I said it was time to go home! What do you think your doing up here? And with him no less?"

Raph took in a sharp breath and turned around from where he was sitting. "Can it Fearless! I can talk to him if I want to! Your not my boss!"

Leo's blue eyes narrowed and he said sharply to his younger brother. "Yes I am! I am your leader!"

Raph stood up and faced his brother. "Yea but your not my father! So go stick it in your shell and go home! I will be there in a little while."

Leo could feel his blood boil at the sound of that, he looked over at Slash who was now standing up facing them and said. "I think I told you to stay away from my family."

Slash walked over, he felt anger boiling up inside of him, but he swallowed it down out of pure control and said to the young leader. "Raphael is my friend Leonardo, what I did to you and your brothers was a mistake. I was not right in the head at the time, please believe me when I tell you that I am sorry."

Leo frowned and told him sharply. "You gave Donnie a sprained arm! And Mikey a cracked rib! Along with two black eyes! How can I ever forgive you for that!"

Slash was silent for a moment, he knew Leo was right, he had hurt those two really badly. He felt guilty about it now, he knew what he did was wrong. "I don't expect you to forgive me, I do not expect you to trust me. I just want to apologize for my actions and move on Leonardo. I know I am never welcomed back into the lair. I don't expect it ever. But for sake of argument please don't push Raphael away like your pushing me away. We grew up as brothers much like the two of you have. Keep that in mind. Yes I was a normal turtle at the time, but, so were you at one point as well. I retained most if not all of my memories from when I was a normal turtle, it was a one way conversation, but I had many late night talks with Master Splinter. He told me once that I was like a son to him, even if I could never do the things that you four could. He cared about me as well..."

Raph looked over at his older brother and told him. "See, even Splinter cares, which is more then I can say for you! You have always hated him!"

Leo knew where this fight was going to lead, and he did not want to bring up an old wound. "Not now Raph, there is another time for that and another place."

Raph had been standing with his side facing Leo, but after that comment he turned fully to the blue clad turtle and said to him hotly. "Really? Gonna go secretive about how you really feel? Why not just say it Leo? Huh? Lay it all out on the table right now! You have always hated him! ALWAYS! You never told me why! So say it now Fearless! Say why you have hated him all these years!"

Slash put his overly large hand on Raphael's shoulder and told him gently. "He's jealous Raphael, that is why... he said so him self many years ago."

Leo looked down at the ground, or rather, roof top... he could not look at his younger brother, he knew what he would see if he looked into his eyes.

Raph looked over at Leo then back up at Slash. "Jealous? What? Why?"

"Because he took my best friend from me..." Leo said it so softly that it almost went unheard.

Slash smiled down at Leo and said to him. "Leonardo, I may not be as smart as the rest of you, but, I never took Raphael away from you... its OK to have more then one best friend. You may not, if ever, be able to trust me, but know that I would never hurt Raphael. I didn't that night I lost control and hurt you guys. I knocked him away but didn't leave a mark on him if I am remembering correctly."

Raph noticed the questioning look in his old friend's eyes and told him. "No, I had maybe a bruise but nothing serious like Donnie or Mikey... or even Leo..."

Leo's head shot up at the sound of that and said. "Raph I..."

"Can it Fearless! Splinter didn't allow you to go to sleep for quite a while that night! Not until he knew you were going to be alright."

Slash looked at Raph questioningly and asked. "What happened?"

Raph knew what he meant and said. "Leo hit his head hard... Splinter said it was a concussion, and a pretty bad one... if Leo was to go to sleep he may not of woken up..."

Slash felt guilt tear even more into his heart, it was no wonder Leonardo did not trust him...

"I didn't mean to Leonardo... I am glad your OK."

Leo looked up at Slash finally and said. "I'm fine..."

Leo's T-Phone started going off, looking down at it Leo sighed and answered it. He looked at Raph while he was talking and then hung up. "Raph, that was Sensei, he said if we are not home in 15 minutes we are grounded."

Raph looked up at his old friend and said. "We have to go, but Slash, I... thanks for the talk."

Slash told him. "No, thank you... I had been so eaten up with guilt it was bugging me. I wanted to talk to you but... I was afraid of getting you into trouble. We will see each other again don't worry about that. Now go, before I AM the cause of you getting into trouble."

Raph half smiled and followed Leo down the fire escape, Slash watched them go and felt slightly better. The guilt would never go away but he knew the truth was out there now as to why Leo hated him so much. Seeing it was nearing daylight, he left the roof top and went to his sanctuary he called home.

It was a new start knowing that the turtles now knew he was changing into a better turtle, and maybe one day he could team up with them to help fight the Krang or Shredder.


A/N: What did you guys think of this one? Leo will probably never trust Slash but this was my take on a few things I noticed during season 3. I know this chapter takes place in season 2 but, with the way Leo acted in season 3, towards Slash had me thinking and this baby came along.

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