The Lake

Clarke floated lazily in the clear lake. She watched Khalen swim with the elegance of a mermaid, the girl's skin sparkled as the water welcomed her with every stroke. The sun was bright and warm. Laying her head and arms against the bank, she let her body and feet float as they pleased. Her eye's closed as she drifted slightly. The water hugged and released her body soothingly, she was only wearing her underwear and bra in case someone walked by, but she was glad she wore so little because she never knew the lake to feel so clean against her body.

Hands held loosely onto Clarke's legs, they slowly made their way up to her thighs. Clarke felt Khalen's body in between her, she circled her legs around the girl but refused to open her eyes. The soft hands moved from her thighs and up to her stomach.

'You looked so peaceful, I just had to intrude.' Khalen's voice was husky. A small kiss touched Clarke's neck. A tender finger stroked down to her pantie line, giving it a gentle brush before lifting the fabric. Khalen lips pressed harder against her neck, making her gasp. Clarke squeezed her closer, allowing herself to feel Khalen's tongue against her skin. A finger found its way inside Clarke, instinctively she moved to give Khalen more room She pushed against Clarke, trailing her kisses down to her breasts. Clarke gasped against her, holding onto the bank for support. A strange deep groan escaped her, as they pushed and rubbed against each other. Eventually they slowed down, and Clarke let go of Khalen, remembering how to stand in water. The new space in between them felt too much for Khalen, she stepped forward and kissed Clarke's lips. Khalen's lips were still hot from their actions, but Clarke's was soft and slow moving. Clarke stepped away and sat on the bank.

'So, have you been thinking about your journey?' Khalen asked, joining her on the bank. They both lied down, dipping there feet into the lake. The 'Journey' was the path that lead you to the Gouthru Klir People, and they believed that you were sent here to understand your path, before you set off again.

Clarke took Khalen's hand, the same hand that touched her moments before, and stroked her palm, 'I think I've forgiven myself. I knew I had to make that terrible decision. It was our only way out. But I still feel sorry that so many innocent people died.' Clarke's voice was quiet, like she was talking to herself.

'That's what makes you such a good person, my little wanderer.' Khalen leaned on her side to look at the sun-kissed girl. 'You saved your people, and you grieve for the innocents. If you didn't make those decisions, your people would be killed or tortured. And if you didn't care for the lives lost, well, then you would have been a monster.'

Clarke, smiled up at her girlfriend. Her bright green eyes made her feel safe, and new. She leaned up and kissed Khalen. Pulled her down, on top of her. Their lips moved against each other, slowly. It wasn't a sexual kiss, but a comforting one. Khalen pulled away with a playful smile. Lying down on Clarke's chest, they cuddled each other under the soft light of the sun.

'There is something you're not telling me.' Khalen whispered.

Clarke stroked Khalen's hair 'What do you mean? I think I've told you everything?'

'The Commander of the Grounder's?' Khalen didn't want to look at Clarke while she asked, she wanted Clarke to have the freedom to feel without her judging 'How do you feel about her?'

Clarke pushed Khalen off of her and sat up. 'What do you mean? She betrayed me! She basically tried to kill me and my people! How could I feel anything for her?!' Her peacefully face was now scrunched in rage.

'It looks like you feel something,' Khalen gave a sad smile before lying down again. Clarke sat there, frozen in place. Clarke hadn't told Khalen about her relationship with Lexa. It was in the past, it was an ancient mistake to trust the savage. Clarke did her best to slow down her breathing, and lied back down on the lake bank. She hadn't thought about Lexa in so long, she didn't know if that was because she forced herself to forget or because she genuinely didn't care about her anymore. She remember the day that Lexa walked away from her, her blue eyes stared right through her as if waiting to be dismissed. Heat raised through her body, a sob escaped her.

'What do you want me to say?' Clarke cuddled up close to Khalen.

'Only what you feel.' Khalen kissed the top of her head. Fear crept down Clarke's skin. She didn't know what she was scared of, but it felt like Lexa was going to take her safety away again. Clarke took a deep breath and was about to tell her girlfriend how her and Lexa shared a kiss and maybe something more, when Khalen spoke again. 'Why can you forgive yourself but not her?'

'Forgive her?! Did you not hear what she did? We almost lost everything because of her!' Clarke leap up, got her stuff and walked back into the forest. Khalen almost fell over to catch up with her 'She walked away from me K! She walked away from me, and YOU expect me to FORGIVE her?' Khalen kept up with Clarke's angry march back to camp, but she stayed a step or two behind her.

The march back through the forest was silent after a while. Clarke slowed down when she saw the tents, she looked back at Khalen, her eyes watery. 'I'm sorry for yelling at you. You're only trying to help.'

Khalen took her hand and kissed it tenderly. 'It's okay, you are still healing. I shouldn't have pushed you.'

For the rest of the day Clarke thought about what Khalen said.

She's wrong. I'm done healing. I killed the Mountain Men, and I grieve for them. But I was never lost because of the Grounders. It's time to go home.