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A/N: - Sorry for mistakes - Characters are still OOC - Thanks for reading!


I'll keep you safe

Chapter 7

I knocked at Sam's door before entering the room.

"You're not with Cas?" He asked as he looked up from his laptop.

"No, he's sleeping and I… I can't sleep." I said, feeling a little bit stupid.

Sammy did that when he was younger. He would come in my room with his teddy bear and ask to stay with me because he couldn't sleep.

"Take a seat." He simply replied as he pointed the chair next to his bed with his chin.

He put his laptop aside and sat on the side of his bed. He looked at me with a small smile.

"Talk to me." He said.

I felt like we were changing roles for a moment. Being the brother who listened and answered questions was my job, I was the big bro. But there we was, Sam listening to me and me asking questions.

"You know the Jeffrey guy… I don't feel like we should trust him." I started.

"Why?" Sam asked.

"I don't know… I have a bad feeling about him. I had a nightmare this night… he…" I tried to say but nothing came out the way I wanted. I was turning into a girl or what? Come on Dean, be a man! "The dude killed Cas and just the way he acted when we were there. And he knew the books perfectly. Just like if it was planned."

"So I am not the only one who noticed then." Sam said.

"What?"

"He was acting strange back there." Sam continued. "What happened in the nightmare?"

"He was trying to turn Cas against me then when Cas said he lo…" I stopped myself. Should I really tell him that? I shook my head. "He killed him." I choose to say.

"What did Cas say?" Sam asked with a frown. Of course he had heard… "Dean, you don't have to afraid."

"Why would I be afraid?"

"Maybe because you maybe think that I would judge you or something. In fact I would be pretty happy if you actually did something about it." Sam explained.

"What do you mean?"

"When Cas said he lo… What other word start with lo, huh? Love maybe? You two are clearly turning around each other for a time now. So please… Don't be ashamed to tell me you have a big gay crush on the nerdy angel."

"Sam!"

"What, it's true!"

"Shut up! I'm not gay!"

"I never said you were, Dean. And angels don't have a specific gender."

"Sam, please… stop."

Sam laughed and closed his laptop to put it on his desk. "Anyway, maybe we should find a way to get back to Jeffrey."

I stared at him for a while before nodding. Then I heard Cas shouting and we were both in my room. He jumped out of the bed and jumped on me. I held him as he cried on my shoulder.

"What happened?" Sam asked since I was too shock to say anything.

"It's Jeffrey…" Castiel said. "He did this to me… He betrayed me."

"How do you know?" Sam asked.

"I saw him in a dream. He tried to kill me. He told me that the book were fake. That it was in a witch spell book that he destroyed after he did the spell. I'm going to stay like this forever…" He shuddered.

Sam and I looked at each other and I pulled Castiel closer. "Shh, it's okay." I whispered in his hair.

That night, he cried himself to sleep. Then the day after he didn't speak for the entire day. He would eat then went back to my room and put the blankets on top of his head. I watched him as the day passed and seeing him like this broke my heart.

Castiel's wings had turned completely black. There wasn't any glow in them anymore. He seemed to be fading. He was acting more and more just like a normal child would and it was worrying. I couldn't stop thinking about what he had said though. Then what he had said to Jeffrey. He loved me, at least that's how I was seeing this. Did I loved him back? Could I love him back?

One day we went at the park again and he sat on the swing. He didn't want me to push him this time, he didn't want to play. He asked us to leave him. He said he didn't want to bother. That day, Sam stayed with him and he slept alone in my room. I took another room and closed my eyes as I lay on the cold bed.

Tears fell from my eyes as I felt pain down my throat. I put my hand together on top of my chest and stopped moving. I whispered slowly.

"Anybody who can hear this. I have a friend… a best friend actually. His name is Castiel, he's an angel of the lord. He's hurt, he's curse. We can't do anything to cure him and I know we are slowly losing him. Please God, if you are still there, your son needs you. He need somebody and I can't be that someone. I'm a dick that couldn't protect him. I couldn't do anything. I just stood there with him in my arms. I didn't do anything… Just take me okay? Cure him and you can do whatever you want to me. I just want him to be okay… I… I love him."

When I woke up the next day, Castiel was next to me. His small body was pressed against me and I didn't dared to move. He turned and put his head on my chest like he always did since he got turned into a child. His wings glowing with a greenish light and the end of his left wing moved and touched my hand. He looked up at me with a small smile. He moved closer and put the top of his head bellow mine.

I kissed his hair gently and he put his tiny hand in mine. He traced small patterns on my hand and smiled softly.

"You are not a dick, Dean. You saved my life." Castiel whispered. "Don't give yourself for me okay? I love you too."

Then I understood… he had heard me.

"I love you Dean." He whispered again slowly.

"I love you too, Cas." I replied as I closed my eyes and imagined his older self in my arms, like this. I kissed his head again. "I love you too."


Have you noticed yet that in all my fanfictions, the chapter 7 is pretty much always a : "I love you." kind of chapter? Strange...