I sat in the room staring at the wall for who knows how long. My father told the blue haired man to bring me back to the room right after our long awaited reunion, and I have not seen anyone since. The door and windows are locked leaving me with no exit. Why did my father do this to me? I feel like a caged animal about to go insane. All I could do is sleep, eat and wait. I am surprised that they are feeding me. They push food, horrible tasting, under the door.

The depressing part is that I cannot help but to feel like I was in this position before...

I felt like crying out of frustration from this stupid position. I wonder if anyone is actually looking for. I wonder what Shinji... wait Shinji is part hollow. Why did he never tell me? I felt a shiver go down my spine. I wonder if the others in the warehouse are like him.

Shinji said he will save me, but I really do not want him to. I do not want to see him, and I do not want to be some damsel in distress. I need to find a way to save myself. I need to fight my way o it of this place... I do not even know what this place is!

I sighed as someone knocked on the door. A visitor? Finally. I stood up hoping for someone nice. Those dreams were smashed quickly. The door opened and my father walked inside alone. I sat down on the bed as some girl ran on the room with a tray of tea and snacks. She placed it on the table then ram out.

"Seira, I think it's time for us to finally talk," he said with a smile as he sequestered for me to sit with him. Part of me was tempted to smash the pot of tea over his head, but I could not bring my self to. My father poured two cups of tea as he began, "I think we should start with your memory, how much do you remember?"

"Nothing really" I admitted, no use in lying. I took a sip of the tea and he smiled.

"Well then I should enlighten you to your own life," he stated and I have him a confused look. Everything began to look fuzzy and dark. What is going on? The last thing I heard was my father say, "sweet dreams."


My name is Seira Aizen and I was born over 150 years ago. I was raised in the Rukongai by my mother. My mother was the nicest woman I ever met. My father was around sometimes, but he was usually busy with his work as a shinigami.

What happened to mom? Oh yes... she passed away... wait no. Dad killed her and took me. He murdered her in front of me to prove some point. My mother loved him. She used to brag about how amazing he was, and then he turned around and killed her. Was the point even worth it?

He took me into the woods afterward and kept me in a cabin. I never saw anyone besides him afterward. I was weirdly happy, only because he visited more. Every child loves getting attention from their parent, and I was finally receiving it from my father. Nevertheless, I was also terrified. He would force me to train and study. My father forced my zanpakuto's ability to appear, and then forced my bankai.

The only other people I rarely saw afterward were Gin and Tosen. I never got to know much of them since I always hid when they visited. They looked scary to me. I never hid far and would overhear their conversations. I did not fully understand what my father was doing at first; I thought it was a good thing. Then as I grew up, I understood the experiments more. I still thought they were for good. I remember the three of them talking about 'vaizards' who were half-shinigami and half-hollow. My father created them.

My father continued his experiments with me not understanding much about them. Nothing changed until the day he came to the cabin and told me I was going to a new home. What was the new home? Oh yes… it was the room I am staying in now. This was not the first time I have been here in this place… What was it called? Hueco Mundo.

I hated it here. My father did not come here much and I was stuck with the arrancars and hollows most of the time. The only slightly good part about me coming here was me finding out the truth.

One day I was searching around to see if my father had come to visit. He never really tells me when he is around. I found a way to get into his secret study, it is not much a secret, and he was not there. Out of curiosity, I looked through the stuff and found out more about my father's experiments. I could not believe my own father could do that stuff.

However, part of me knew it was all true.

I never confronted my father about it, but I did run away. I guess my father probably found out that I knew his secrets and punished me. He erased my memories…

No wait, he did not do that.

I do not even think he knows I know.

Then wait… what happened to my memories?

Wait…

I remember what happened.

I read the book with the recipe, and I gathered the ingredients. I ran away to my father's secret hideaway (my current home) in the human world, I do not remember how though. I managed to steal a gigai and wrote out a fake story. I drank the potion. I remember my father appearing in the room after I took the sip and yelling at me.

"Seira! What did you do?"

That is how I lost my memories. I erased my own memories using a potion so I could forget him and everything he has done.

Now I remember everything.


A/N- Thank you Monkey D. Writer (she is a dead oc, and I love the curl :o it be fabulous), and KashinaKairi (thanks :) what she can do?) for the review. Thank you DarkTill-Indigo, and Forgetful Insanity for the follow.

I hope the chapter is not confusing, I wrote most of it on my phone while I was on the bus…