"So this is goodbye," I whispered as I gazed up at Shinji who just informed me about the new opportunity he received. The ex-captain of squad five now has a chance to return to his original position.
"Who says I am taking it?" Shinji said with a smile.
I sighed as I turned to look away from him, "you have to take it. I know you want to at least, and I don't want you to stay here just because of me. You should not have any regrets, so go."
"Kana," Shinji said as he walked over and sat down beside me, "you can just come with me then?" I hesitated as I thought of a response. To be honest, the idea of following Shinji back to the soul society seems amazing but… I also created a whole new life here. Running my fingers through my hair, I turned to look at Shinji who was waiting for my response.
"I can still come back here… when I want right?" I asked anxiously as I thought about Ichigo and the others.
"Whenever you want," Shinji said with a wink, "you will be with a captain." I laughed as I got off the couch and looked around the room.
I will be leaving everything here behind if I said yes. This is the only place I have ever called home. It might have been all a faux reality in the beginning, but I did not care. It was my sanctuary away from the bastard I call father.
Shinji muttered "Kana" as he stood up and cupped my chin before kissing me on the lips. "It is a big choice I know, but I don't want to go without you," Shinji said as our lips separated.
I have stupidly fallen in love with this man and I do not want to leave him. Ever after learning that my father ruined his life and nearly killed him, Shinji was willing to still love me.
"I don't want to leave you too," I said anxiously as I looked down. This is a huge decision to make on the spot.
Shinji groaned, "there is a but in there, right?"
I nodded my head, "it is a big decision to make so quickly. I am not just moving out of a town, I am switching worlds. I know that the soul society is where I am from, but Karakura town is my home."
"Ka-"
"I need time I guess," I muttered.
Shinji smiled, "I did not expect you to answer right away." I nodded my head as I relaxed my body into his. "Can you just give me an answer soon?" he asked and I nodded my head in response.
It has only been a few months since I left the soul society and met up with Shinji once more. We became closer, but never official. We are just lovers: nothing more, nothing less. I do love him, but is it worth ripping up my current life by the roots to be with him?
It is not like I cannot visit the human world after but… I feel like it would be different if I move permanently to the soul society…
Should I do it or no?
Hmm…
For now, it does not matter what I choose. I just want to stay in this moment for as long as I can. I do not care about the future. That is a story for another day.
A/N- I started this fanfic two years ago and I am just now writing chapter 17 aka the finale… damn, it has taken me a long time. Sorry if it's a cliffhanger.
I am glad you like it EaSnowPw! ^_^
Read my two other bleach fanfics if you want more. I think they are going to be better compared to this one. Sorry again.
Maybe one day I will write a sequel during the Quincy Arc; however, for now Seira's story ends here.
