Hi sorry it took so long to update this fic Gomen ne!
Ok explanation time… sorry but I'm crap at explaining my fics and they can get confusing, basically Kai get sick of his past interfering with his relationship with Takao and has suppressed all of his memories but unfortunately that means his memory of Takao as well… well I hope this clears up the confusion! If not email me
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A letter from meKai woke up in the strange house and blinked not really knowing how he got there….
He sat up slowly the events of the night before turning around in his mind and sighed darkly as he looked at the sleeping boy next to him.
What am I to do? Leave? But where to when did life get so complicated………
Takao's povMy eyes slid open to soft muttering as I stared over at Kai who just sat on the bed expression unreadable as he continued to argue with himself.
Sighing I crawled over to him and nuzzled his arm trying to attract his attention hoping last night was just a nightmare….
"Kai?" I breathed gently as the slate haired boy turned to him dark crimson eyes dark as blood scanned Takao's features eyes narrowing in mild confusion as he stood up towering above the other boy making Takao feel nervous as his phoenix ground out.
"Takao right?"
I sighed and nodded apparently last night wasn't a nightmare it's all to real
"Kai what happened?"
The boy seemed lost in thought as he contemplated the question than arched an eyebrow as the question was ridicules.
"I lost my memory obviously" sighed Kai being his usual blunt self
"Obviously" whispered Takao trying to keep his voice from shaking "that wasn't what I wanted to know… I want to know why"
"And you're directing this question at someone who has amnesia?"
Takao glared at Kai with a snarl that could rival his own…
"Don't get sarcastic with me Kai!"
At this the slate haired boy sighed running a hand through his messy spiked hair as if to reassure himself this was not happening.
Kai's povCome on Kai think before he starts- to late…….
I sighed as I strode across the room to the broken blue haired boy who had his face in his hands sobbing hard.
I knelt before him and tried to pry his hands from his face and stared into his sapphire depths searching trying to find the right words.
"Kai might of…" Kai stopped noticing the boy's expression became more pained and tried again "I might left a note or something… to explain I'd leave a note wouldn't I?"
I watched as Takao's expressions fleet across his face trying to come to some conclusion as the boy stood on shaky legs and whispered "lets look…."
I watched saddened as the boy practically tore the room apart in his search for some kind of explanation wondering whether it was a good idea in the first place this might just hurt him even morehe sat on the floor his back pressed against the bed sighing softly but what can I do to help…I thought miserably how would I know if Kai or me would leave anything I don't even know who I am and I just sent an emotionally fragile boy on a wild goose chase…. Was I intelligent before I lost me mem-
"Kai!" screamed Takao snapping Kai out of his thoughts as he jumped up and ran to Takao his features set in a worried frown.
"You were right!" beamed the bluenette ecstatically "you left me a note"
A blush tainted my cheeks as Takao hugged the letter hard, and slowly started to read to himself.
Takao I know you'll be angry and tell me what and idiot I'm being, and would tell me I have to learn to let go… but I've finally found a way.
I know you'll probably be screaming in rage by now, but letting go of the memories of the past I can finally embrace the future.
I don't know what memories I'll retain but you can count on the fact that I love you and that will never change, and if I know myself like I think I do you'll be standing right next to me while your reading this, and I'll be the reason why your reading this.
I've given my self a clean slate Kinomiya; now we can truly be happy together nothing can stop us now. I love you Kinomiya just make sure to give me the note I left to myself and dranzer, you finally got your wish Takao you can finally teach how to really blade. Well I gotta go, I'm probably reading over your shoulder now so heads up don't forget about dranzer love Kai…
Takao yanked his head up only to have it sharply connected to Kai's and yelped in pain.
"Christ your scarily perceptive Kai.."
"Huh?" I blinked wearily at getting caught reading over the boys shoulder as he handed me the letter pointing at the two lines I didn't get to read.
Well I gotta go, I'm probably reading over your shoulder now so heads up don't forget about dranzer love Kai…
"I warned you about me?" I stuttered stunned
"You always were a fore thinker Kai maybe you should have been a mystic"
Kai just blinked but didn't register
"Oh yeah you wanted me to give this to you"
I was about to say that I didn't but snapped my mouth shut and said nothing, and took the letter without question.
"You can decide if its ok for me to read it or not"
Hi Kai it's me Kai…. strange I never thought id be writing a letter to myself of all people I bet your confused right?
Well duh.. I growled irritated
Well I've wiped my memory but I think you already know that and I'm probably irritated about it too but I'm sorry I just wanted to give myself a fair chance at happiness all I could think of I how I was never any good but now my past is gone I know I can have a freer relationship with Takao so please be nice Kai I know this is unlike me to say such a thing but I want us to be happy so its down to you Kai and I know your going to try to get your… my memory back
Damn right…
But please before you try just see and have fun with Takao first just see how are relationship works please give me a chance let me be happy if only for a little while Kai
P.S
Take care of dranzer and tread carefully memories aren't always a good thing Kai as you'll find out if you try to get them back but remember before you go digging stuff up have FUN the words I thought I would never say.
you can show Takao I'd bet he'd have a laugh outta that.
I sighed to myself and shoved the letter into Takao's hands and watched him read the letter as it brought a shaky smile to his lips as he began to laugh and smiled at me
"You always said you couldn't tolerate the word fun Kai" giggled Takao while I just sighed irritated.
"Well I wouldn't know…I'm gonna have a shower" I turned on my heel and strode out of the room the scarf around my neck flew out behind me three steps outside the door I stopped and bit my lip hard drawing blood and decided to swallow my pride and walked back in.
"Where's the shower in this place" I ground out trying my hardest not to look at that smug smiling face…
"Three doors down to your left" Takao said in a sickly sweet voice
"thank you" I growled begrudgingly and strode out again my pride slightly bruised as I found the shower room and striped down and put the towel within reach and adjusted the temperature of the water and flinched as icy water flowed over my back and shoved my hands against the wall my back arched against the water gasping as the water went warm and stood up straight the water dampening my hair making the slate hair mix with dark blue.
I sighed exhausted how could I do this to me? Who am I? Who is Takao?
I slid down the shower wall as the shower became increasingly hot the steam almost suffocating me I gasped feeling no more air to breath I fell to my knees wheezing.
Hmmm pondered Takao why is he taking so long?
TBC
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