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"Bumblebee. Will you do me the honor of being my girlfriend?" I sat there, shocked. Did he really just ask me that. Am I dreaming? Should I pinch myself?

He was staring at me, waiting for my answer. I took a deep breath and finally spoke.

"I need time to think." Edward's face fell as I uttered those words.

"I understand that." I didn't believe he did. I felt like he was only saying that for my benefit. I don't think he TRULY understands how upsetting what he just told me is. It was like a knife to my heart.

"Do you Edward?" I said a little harshly. I know I shouldn't of, but I think after what I was just told, I have a right to be.

"Yes. I do. I know what I did was wrong. I understand you might need some time to digest what I just told you." Okay, maybe he understands a little.

" Okay. Good. If I do decide to say yes there are going to be some conditions." I said strictly.

"Um, okay, like what?" I could tell he was worried again. Something told me Edward Cullen was never worried. I liked the feeling of having the power to make him squirm.

"There will no other girls. NONE. Just me. I mean it Edward" I said, slowly, trying to get my point across.

"I wouldn't even think of having another woman. Only you." He answered quickly.

"And, you can't just run off like you did yesterday. You need to TALK to me."

"Bella. I can't tell you everything. There are some things you can't know."

"I understand that. I know what your job is-" He cut me off.

"I'm a lawyer." He said with a straight face. Everyone knew that was his "job". He didn't actually practice much of it, but that is where his money was supposedly coming from. Everyone, including the cops, knew it wasn't true, but there was no proof. Being a lawyer was 100% legal. It covered up for his illegal business.

"I know what your REAL job is." I stared at him, challenging him to say something back. When he didn't I continued.

"Like I was saying, I know you can't tell me everything, but you can tell me some stuff. If you have to leave, just say you have some business to attend to or something. I was so confused, scared, and upset when you just up and left."

"I'm sorry Bumblebee, I had to go. I promise that I will try my best to talk to you and tell you as much as I can. I don't want you to feel any of those things."

"Okay-"I paused. "-Another thing-" I said, and he took a deep breath.
"- You WILL get a STD test. I do not care if she just took a test."

" It's unnecessary, but if it will make you feel more at ease, I will."

" Good."

" I really am sorry Bumblebee. I feel terrible that you're hurting." I looked straight into his eyes as he said this. I could tell that he was sorry.

"Okay. I'm still upset-" I paused.
"-Can I ask you a question?" There was something weighing on my mind since he told me he "almost" slept with that stripper.

"Sure," He said warily .

"How many strippers in your club have you slept with?" As I asked the question, I wanted to take it back. Did I really want to know? He took a deep breath and spoke.

"Bella, you have to understand before you, it was about fucking around-" I interrupted him.

"How many Edward?" I gritted my teeth together as I asked.

"I slept with all of them." My mouth hung open, and my eyes began to tear.

"All-All of them?"

"I'm so sorry Bumblebee." I shouldn't be this sad. It was before he even met me. But I felt like my heart had just been ripped out of my chest and repeatedly stomped on.

"You keep saying you're sorry. I get it! But, you just slept with anyone you wanted? How could you do that, how could you wake up in the morning and look yourself in the mirror?"

" I- I don't know. It is..was how I was." He probably slept with dozens of women.

"You- you're a manwhore Edward. You use women for your pleasure. Do you really care about me? Are you capable of caring?" I was hysterical now.

"Of course I do Bella! I wouldn't be here right now, defending myself and begging you to give me a chance. I have never, NEVER tried so hard in my life to get a woman's attention. I need you in my life, why can't you get that?"

"How would I be able to trust you? Every time you're at your club, or anywhere, I'll be thinking about you fucking some girl."

"I won't! I'll do what ever I have to, to get you to trust me!"

"You say that but we'll just have to see. But after that confession, did you honestly think I was going to say yes right away?" He couldn't possibly think so.

"When I'm around you, sometimes I speak before I think. It wasn't the right time. But that doesn't mean it isn't what I want."

"It's what I want too, but it was terrible timing-"I paused. "-she could still get pregnant you know-" He cut me off.

"I pulled out, and she's on birth control."

"So that means she can't get pregnant? Have you ever had Sex Ed Edward? Pulling out doesn't work, because whether we like it or not, your dick was still in her, she can still get pregnant by that. Also, birth control isn't 100%, and how can you trust her that she even takes it?"

"I….I… I don't know. I trust that they'll do the right thing. I see them taking it sometimes! They wouldn't be stupid enough to do something like that anyway. Calm down Bumblebee, she's not pregnant."

"Whatever Edward." I was done with this conversation.

"Don't do that! Don't just become quiet." He said.

"What do you want me to do Edward, forgive you, kiss you, forget everything?" I semi-yelled.

"That's not what I'm saying. Just give me a chance. Give me a chance to show you how much I care, how much I want you, how much I need you. Please," he begged.

"I'll try. But… God, you hurt me so bad."

" I know. But it was my past, I can't change that, can you change yours?" What was that suppose to mean?

"What?"

"Well, are you a virgin?" The balls on this man!

"No, but that doesn't matter!"

"Oh, your past relationships don't matter but mine do?"

"You have got to be kidding me. There's a difference! I only ever slept with three guys, only one of them was a drunken mistake. I dated the other two and then sleep with them. I don't sleep with random people, or sleep with them just for the hell of it!" He stood there with a shocked face.

"Only three?" Was he expecting more? Was I not experienced enough for him?

"Yes, only three. Out of that whole thing, that's all you got?" He had serious priority issues.

"So, if you decide to accept my proposal, I'll be the forth?" Really?

" Oh you know how to count. HEY EVERYONE, THE GREAT EDWARD CULLEN KNOWS HOW TO COUNT!-" "- What does it matter Edward? And don't even tell me the number I'll be, hell you probably don't even know. This isn't about me, or my past, it's about YOU. You keep hurting me, do you like to see me hurting?" He's so careless. He doesn't think. He smart, but not when it comes to relationships and feelings.

" No, of course I don't. Please- I'm sorry. I just, I don't know how to deal with this. Please just give me a chance to earn your trust." He looked at me, begging.

" Well trust ME, that's going to take a while." I said a little harshly.

"I don't care. I need you Bella."

"Then why do you keep trying to hurt me? First you scare me half to death in the ally, then you just walk in my house and kiss me then leave, then you tell me that you fucked every girl in your strip club, hell you probably fucked half of New York, then you attack me by asking about my past, like I am ANYTHING like you, now you are begging me to give you a chance, and I want to, but I'm so scared that you'll hurt me, I'm so scared Edward." Once again I was in tears. Everything was blurry. He pulled me onto his lap and embraced me in a hug, while rocking me back and forth.

"I'm so, so sorry." He whispered in my ear as I cried myself to sleep.


So how do you think that went? I think that she could of said yes, but they should get to know each other more, maybe go on a date.

However, no matter how much Edward screws up, Bella's always going to be comforted by him ;)

Anyways, hope you guys enjoyed it.

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