Author's Note: Well, this one wasn't that hard since I write Dick's POV a lot so... Enjoy!
Warning: Language, an underage character, kind of Robincest, and this is a slash! M/M. Don't like it? Don't read it.
Disclaimer: No I don't own any of the batfam, unfortunately. If I did, a LOT of things would be different *smiles evilly*
Dick's POV
Sometimes I'm not sure if I would want to be blind or not.
So ya know, sometimes I'll admit I can get a little distracted. When it comes to helping people I do try my very hardest. However when you're a leader of a team of teenage superheroes and plus you're whole family is also superheroes, sometimes things can escape your notice in your busy life. Plus ya know, if I was blind then I wouldn't be able to do flips and stuff, and that wouldn't do. Getting off topic, anyways despite all of that I am not blind, I'm fully aware of the way Jason looks at me.
That look that just makes me want to slap and kiss him at the same time.
Yep, I in fact do like my younger 'brother', more than any brother ever should. It's not really my fault, honest. It's Jason's for being so adorable all the time. Not gonna lie, the older he's gotten the more I've paid attention to him. I'm not saying I'm proud for loving a barely sixteen year old but, I can't help it. Plus, my old Robin costume leaves very little to the imagination. Again, not my fault. So yeah, when for some reason my brain started taking an interest in Jason's more grown body I've been secretly looking at him. Actually, I'm quite good at it since I've only been caught like once or twice.
Now Jason? Yeah I've been catching him looking at me in the same way a lot. It's funny, he tries so hard not to get caught but he's so bad at it. Once again, adorable. Anyways this one day I caught him looking at me, but this time was different. I don't know why but Jason didn't look away and neither did I. Something inside of me shifted and that's about the time I realized how in love I was with this boy. Something also shifted inside of Jason's eyes, but I could tell he didn't know what it was.
It kind of annoys me that he's so naive, but yet it's kind of endearing.
I mean, when I think about the fact that I'm Jason's first love, it just makes me feel so many different things. Not to mention when I'm looking into his blue-green eyes filled with so many different things... That just makes my insides twist and flutter in so many different ways. Typically Jason looks away first, and that just makes me smile and god it's so cute. Dammit, I'm such a girl.
There's nothing I can do though, it just happens. I feel so happy and just, ugh I'm so in love. Really it's a miracle that I can figure out what exactly I'm feeling. However my parents were really amazing people, and they made sure I knew how to express myself. Yeah maybe I was adopted by Bruce who showed little emotion, but I can still tell what he's feeling most of the time. Same for Jay, and really myself. Although, I will admit sometimes emotions can escape me when it involves other people, but what can you do?
Anyways, yeah I love my younger brother more than I should. I'm ashamed to admit I've had more than my fair share of, erm, 'dirty' thoughts. Does that make me a sleaze? I'm a sleaze aren't I? But hey, I'd never act on anything, or at least I'd try not to. Yep, I have to be the responsible older adult. That means that no matter what is going on between us, it can never be anything more at least until Jason's old enough. I mean, come on he's sixteen and I'm nineteen. Plus we're kinda brothers... it's just a really fucked up situation, ok?
Plus Jason doesn't help at all. He acts all, different around me and I guess I act different around him too. Well, ya know the Titans tell me that the longer I go with out seeing my Little Wing the crankier I get. It's probably true, and it seems I kind of make Jason's day when he sees me. I know he makes mine. Yeah, ok I miss him a lot. Pfft, so what?
Oh, and you can't forget how much time we spend together. Sometimes I catch Jason smoking so I'll have to lecture him about it, and I love how irritated it makes him. Honestly my favorite is when we patrol together though, I really love it. Swinging roof top to roof top with Jay is just so much fun, and on a slow night we'll even play tag. However, it's kind of like sweet torture since we just flirt shamelessly when we're by ourselves. I really just love being around him, and I'd like to think he does too.
Really I'm just, I am just different around him in general. I can't explain it, but I just have this need to be constantly touching him. It seems no matter what I have a hand on his shoulder or I have an arm wrapped around him. There's no way to explain it I just, see him as mine. I want him to be mine and no one else's. Although it seems that Jason kind of feels the same since I'm the one he's the most affectionate with, and I love having his affection focused on me.
Wait, is it bad to want him all for myself?
It was funny, during a rare breakfast together Jason and I were arguing about something that had happened on patrol as Bruce was silent like usual. Yeah, I'm well aware that Jason and I are, have, been flirting. However it seems that I was the only one who knew this as out of the corner of my eye I saw Bruce sit up straighter in his chair. Detective Mode. Then something interesting happened, Jason fell silent as his eyes widened a bit.
Wow, was I really the only one that knew? Huh, well Alfred probably did because he's Alfred. Jason was studying my eyes, and so I studied right back. What I found most of was confusion, and it made me want to roll my eyes. Did he still not get that I love him? I couldn't help the small smirk that grew on my lips as I decided maybe he needed some help with that.
Playfully I nudged Jason's foot with mine, and that caused him to raise an eyebrow. When he kicked me back and we started fighting under the table, I couldn't help but try to contain a chuckle as he realized another peice of information. Yes, yes we were playing footsie and I loved it. I totally just tricked him into doing something kids in elementary school do. However I was surprised when a smirk grew on his face, and I found my lips twitching into a grin in response. God, he is adorable. That's when Jason's playful eyes turned more into confusion as I felt myself practically oozing love.
Oh my god, he is so naive.
However I can't help but find it cute too, and sometimes it's hard to control myself when that happens. That's not the only thing though, it's also how we show affection that can almost make me lose it. When I pull Jason in for a hug and I feel him hesitantly wrap his arms around me, I grin to myself. When Nightwing ruffles Robin's hair and our gazes linger a little too long, I take a deep breath. When I call Jason 'Little Wing' and he responds with equal affection 'Dickiebird', I count to ten. When we have those rare moments that I secretly cherish like when I press a kiss to his cheek or he initiates the hug, I have to recite all of the criminals currently at large to keep from just kissing the blushing boy.
All of that annoys me.
I really don't think it's possible to describe how glad I am that no one mentions Jason and I's thing, not even Babs or Kori. Of course there are those sparse moments when one of us will catch Bruce watching, usually with a careful, blank face. I hope he understands I'm being the responsible one, and how fucking hard it is exactly. Anyways Jason and I will share a look that means not right not right now. Occasionally Alfred or Babs is around but they never do what Bruce does, and I'm grateful for it.
Yeah so, this whole thing has been going on for months now. Honestly it seems as time goes by we just flirt heavier and heavier. Oh, did I mention the dinners yet? That's probably the worst. Our eyes never leave each other, and it's so hard when Jason is basically undressing me with his eyes. I just can't help myself, and I do it back because I really would like to see just how much he's 'grown'. The dining room always becomes heavy with sexual tension and Bruce typically will leave so he can ignore us and work in the cave. Of course things get awkward, and Jason and I leave shortly after. I really am trying to control myself, but I'm not sure how much longer I can keep this up.
Ignorance, ignorance is not always bliss.
Whew, have another chapter! I'm just trying to wrap this up, and honestly I found this chapter really easy since I write him all the time. Well, yeah ok this POV is my fave so far. I love how it came out and gah! It's so adorable X3 We all know Robin Jay is adorable, and Dick totally gets it. The cuties! Anyways, what did you think? I would love to hear what you thought and remember to fave/follow/review or all 3!
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Coming Up: Alfred's POV
