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Tris POV
it had been a day since we had arrived at dauntless, and I was already missing amity. I guess I missed the lay back, chilled life style they had. here, it was different.
they partied, a lot. you could hear the loud, pounding music in the bedrooms, furthest from the pit. I liked it here a lot, but sometimes I wished there was no noise at all.
I still didn't understand what had changed in mom. she was acting differently towards the others here. unlike being at home, where she was nice, and caring towards others, she was starting to act rude and selfish towards them.
I watched her from the stone rock I was sitting on in the pit, trying to put the pieces together as to why things changed. Most of it had to be my father's death. She loved him dearly and he was her first love.
I looked back at my friends and sighed. they were laughing and dancing with each other, having fun. I wanted to join them, but lately this world didn't seem right for me. I thought back to my old friends and wondered if they missed me. wondered if they cared I was missing from there lives.
of course my friend Myra would. she's been my best friend since grade school. we always helped each other out when we need it the most. she helped a lot with my parents divorce, but doesn't seem to matter anymore.
I looked back at my mom and closed my eyes. I didn't want to be here anymore. Everything was changing so much. I never really stop to think about what was going on. My life was changing to fast for me to keep up. I wanted to go home, my real home, and never come back.
I felt a hand on my shoulder and flinched away from it. I looked up to see my mother staring down at me. she came to sit next to me. I brought my knees up to my chest and hugged them tightly. I felt scared around her now, and I didn't like it.
"Everything okay Beatrice?" she asked me calmly, but I wasn't calm. I wanted to flip out and yell and scream at her about everything. I wasn't happy and she didn't seem to care, let alone notice.
"Fine" I face, putting on a fake smile. she smiled back and grabbed my hand. "Everything is going to be alright, I promise darling" she said, squeezing my hand.
I looked at her then saw something that put the pieces together. her eyes where blue like mine, except her eyes are green, normally.
my mother changed because she wasn't my mother! but that can't be right. she was here all along. that what she told me, and everyone else has said she was here. something must be wrong with me.
I smiled and turned back to the others. maybe if I asked her a question, that she should know, maybe I can trust her again.
"I miss Woofy" I said to her, she smiled but shook her head. "We don't have a dog Beatrice! what are you talking about" she questions me. I smile and sigh with relief. this was my mom, I was just jumping to conclusions. she starts to get up and tells me she has to go.
I get up too and ask her a question I have been dying to ask. "When can I go back to the real world?" she turns around and looks confused.
"I want to go home, see my friends. even go back to school for the matter! I just have to get away from this crazy world for a while" she smiles but shakes her head.
"Its too dangerous, someone could easily find you there" I sigh then look down. "I just want to be normal again" I whisper. she doesn't hear me, but I hear her sigh.
"1 day" I look up at smile at her. "That's all I need! thank you mom!" I tell her before running off to find the one guy I trusted.
I found Four sitting with the others, having a drink at the bar. I slow down from my jog and stop. they seem happy, really happy. they are laughing at something, but they seem, happy. I don't know why this was upsetting me. maybe I am finally realising what this world is doing to me.
Four looks my way and smiles. I smile back then walk back to my dorm room. I walk past all the happy people, smiling and dancing and having fun. I don't belong here, and I never will.
I hear footsteps behind me, echoing down the dark hallway. I turn around and see Four. he slows down until he reaches me. "Hey, why didn't you come and join us?" he asks me. just shake my head and turn around. he grabs me then spins me around to face him.
he looks upset, confused maybe about my behaviour. I was happy less than 12 hours ago, and now I am just in a sad mood.
"Nothing. um I wanted to ask you something, but you probably don't want to go" I say. I look up at him smiling down at me. "Where are we going?".
I finally started to smile as we boarded the plane to go back to Chicago. Four had made Lynn drop us off at the closet airport and left us to be, well, normal. I told Four about me worries and thoughts about everything. he agreed this was going to fast and said that we should just be normal.
I hadn't flown on a plane in forever. I was excited and scared at the same time. things were different here. no one was using powers, or showing off. people were just acting normal. I liked normal.
I grabbed his hand with mine, and dragged him to the plane. I wasn't a big one, like the A380's, but I liked smaller planes better. Four however, did not.
"There's nothing to be afraid of Four" I told him once we took our seats in business class. I complained how this was not normal for me, and that the flight was only 5 hours. but he didn't seem to care.
"Princess, you may want to be normal today, but you need to stay safe," he lectured me for the hundredth time. "Even in the real world".
we took our seats next to the window. the view wasn't so nice now, but once we were in the air, everything would be prettier. I looked over at Four looking at me and he smiled. I smiled back and looked back outside the window. I felt him grab my hand and squeeze it.
I squeezed it back and smiled at him again. he smiled and kissed my check. I wasn't expecting that at all, and I don't think he expected to do that either. he pulled back a little and laughed.
"thanks for calming me down. I hate heights" he whispered to me. I turned to him and snuggled closer to him. "I love heights. I love planes. I love normal" I tell him. he laughs again before gripping the arm grips as we where taking off.
I took one of his hands in mine and squeezed it the whole time we were in take off. once the set belt sign had gone off, I stood up and dragged him with me.
"My mom hated flying, so what calmed her down was walking around the airplane" I told him. we walked around the plane, back and to the front of the plane again. he sat down and smiled at me.
"Thanks Tris" he said before turning on his TV set. I stared at him and questioned my feelings again. I didn't want to like him that way. I shouldn't like him that way. he turned to me and smiled sweetly. he then reached for my check and circled his thumb around in circles. I looked at him then sighed and closed my eyes.
I felt someone move, and opened my eyes to see Four waking me. "Where about to land" he tells me. I look at the window to see the Chicago sunset across the sky. the different colours reminded me of home. Home. I'm home!
once we land I immediately run to luggage claim and run to get a taxi. Four is on my tail, trying to stop me but I am too happy.
we finally get home and I smile. my mother told me she sent someone to come clean the house, so it was liveable again. I went to my room and sat down on the bed. it was 9 o'clock at night, but I was tired.
Four walked in afterwards and sat down next to me. "Feel better now?" he asks me. I grin at him and nod my head.
I start to get changed into pj's as Four asks me a question. "What do you want to do tomorrow" he asks. I stop and think about it. I then smile and turn to face him. "School"
he looks confused then laughs. "That's seriously what you want to do? go to school" he asks seriously. I nod at him and get under the covers. I yawn as I snuggle down into the comfy bed.
he laughs again and crawls up to me. he looks at me weirdly but sighs. "Fine, go to school. but what am I supposed to do?". I smile at him, then laugh.
"Go to school with me".
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