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Tris POV
I was upset. beyond upset that this is what the 'elders' wanted for me. To be married and share my blood with another so that this race would live. I was being selfish for sure, but this was not what I wanted. To be married at 17.
And Four.
I finally understood why he was mad at me. It was because he had feelings for me too. We haven't talked since that day, when he told me that nothing was going on between us, even though there was a lot going on between us.
I liked Four. A lot. I liked his protectiveness of me, his sweet side, he looks, his genuine concern about me all the time. I liked everything about him. But fait would not let us be together.
My uncle had explained that it was against the rules to date a guardian. That doing it was wrong. I still don't understand how it was wrong. Maybe because if they were still your guardian and you were with them, it would be a higher risk of death. Maybe.
3 days past since Four wouldn't open up his door, or ignore me when we were having dinner together with our friends. They all noticed, and I knew Chris knew, she would always look between both of us, probably gathering information from our thoughts. Although it was annoying, at least I didn't have to explain it to someone.
I wanted to talk to him, and tell him my feelings towards him. But I was terrified. Terrified of rejection, of losing him altogether. I knew we would have to talk eventually, but when? Who knew when he would.
Sitting in the office alone was different. There was no one to talk to, to joke around with. There was no Four to help me with things I didn't understand.
The door opened on that third day, and I didn't bother to look up. I knew it would be one of the leaders. Or maybe even one of my friends. I herd them sit down but didn't say anything. I sighed then looked up.
Four was looking straight back at me. I stared shocked for a moment, before recollecting myself and smiled.
"I'm sorry" is all he said. I knew it meant more, so much more then those 2 words. I knew that hidden meaning behind those words, that he liked me. More then I could explain.
I didn't know how to respond to him. I'm sorry too? Don't worry about it? It doesn't matter. My feelings where just hurt for those three days but now that you said that I feel so much better?
"It's okay. I get it" I said back, smiling at him. He shook his head at me before smiling to himself.
"Can I ask you something?" he asked me, after a moment of silence fell between us. I looked back to him and nodded, afraid of what he may ask.
"Do you like me as much as I like you?"
I stared at him with complete shock. This time I didn't have any answers for him. None at all. I just stared. He just admitted to me that he liked me. Four Eaton like me! Those feelings I had for him from the start were jumping around like crazy. Four liked me! Four liked me…
Just as I was about to say something, my uncle walked in. running the moment between us.
"Hello Tris. Four. I need to talk to Tris privately if you don't mind" He asked Four. He turned to me, disappointed written on his face, before standing and walking away. I didn't want him to be hurt by my unspoken words so I ran after him. Stopping him and turned him to face me.
"Can we talk later?" I asked him, almost begging for him to say yes.
He looked back at Steve then to me, before nodding and then walking away down the corridor.
I turned back to my uncle, smiling before closing the metal door and walking to my desk.
"What can I do for you?" I asked, my attention back to my screen. I didn't want to be rude to him, but he just walked in on me and Four. I was a little upset by it.
"We need to talk about your marriage" he told me. I looked back at him, closing my eyes. For some reason, I saw Four, in his tux from my moms funeral. I opened them again and sighed.
I wanted Four to be my husband. Not because I liked him, but I trusted him with my life. I depended on him.
I wanted Four. I wanted him now.
"Of course. When will I meet these guys?" I asked quietly. I didn't want my emotions to show, but they did. And he noticed.
"I understand this must be a hard time for you, and Four. I see the way you look at each other. Like you will always be there for each other. And you still will. He will always be in your life, but not romantically" he explained.
I wanted to tell him I didn't like Four, but that would be a lie. I did. And I couldn't escape it.
I nodded at him, despite my disappointment.
And then I thought came to me.
"What if… Four wasn't my guardian… anymore?" I asked shyly. He looked up from his file, tilting his head slightly.
"I mean, that could be a possibility. But not likely. He swore his life to protect you. Blood sacrifice. If he broke it, he would die".
I took a big breathe in, letting it out before sighing again. I just felt miserable. I obviously had more feelings for Four then I realised, if I dared asked him that. I didn't want to… maybe… be in love with Four. What if I was in love with Four.
"You will meet a mice gentlemen called Robert Black later today. He was from a nice community called abnegation, but thought he would be happier in Amity. We think you may like him" he said the last part dully.
I nodded, biting my lip with nervousness. I just had to keep my head high and hope that maybe I will like this guy. But knowing me I probably won't.
"I hope you understand that his is what is for the best. We can't let you die. We need you. The future of our kind is in your hands. We only have a month to really decide who you want".
"I'm very sorry but that is all the time we have. We need this to be quick. We will give you 1 week with each guy before letting you have a week to decide for yourself". He explained.
I nodded, smiling at him before looking down at my hands. My life was getting decided by other people, and not by me. I know that this is what's best for these people, but what if it isn't what's best for me?
Being married would have big responsibilities. I mean I would be committing myself to someone. To be letting myself be with someone, that one person for the rest of my life. I didn't really know if I was prepared for that. At all. I've never had a boyfriend before. So this would be different from what I know.
He started to get up, walking towards the door. I thought back to the first guy. I would be meeting him today. The first guy who could potentially be the guy I marry.
I quickly stood up, grabbing his attention. He turned to face me and smiled.
"I was just wondering what time today?"
"2 o'clock, the pit" he answered, smiling at me.
I nodded at him before going to sit down, but wanted another question answered.
"Who are the two other guys names? If you know them?"
"Well, one of them is named Mathew. He is from Erudite. Don't worry, he didn't like Jeanine. And the other is Eric Coulter".
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