here's another chapter. Again sorry for the wait. I have explained my absence on my story 'Dauntless Initiation'. Thanks for reading.

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Tris POV

ERIC. COULTER. Why did it have to be Eric fucking Coulter. Why lord have you done this to me? Why have you let the one guy my true love hate into my life again. WHY!

Walking towards Four's room was difficult. Firstly what was I going to say to him? I like you too? Yeah. Sure I like you. I love you but we can't date because of rules? Agh. Nothing seemed to be right enough o say to him. He deserved something better then 'I like you too'.

No, he deserved so much better than that. I didn't know what, but he did. I finally made it to his door when I heard someone talk to him inside the room.

"Four you need to stop thinking about her. it's against the rules!" some girl told him. Who the hell was this girl! I kept my ear close to the door, so that I could hear everything they were saying.

"I know Nita, I know. I just don't know how to get her out of my head. I mean I think I'm in love with this girl. No, fuck this I am in love with her. and I can't even get a decent answer out of her because everyone seems to ruin the moment just as she tries to talk. What the hell am I supposed to do? She's meeting these guys who she has to marry and I can't even be one of them. Fuck! What am I supposed to do now!" he was yelling at Nita, the girl I didn't know. He was just as upset about this as I was.

"Forgot about her, that's what you have to do Four! Forgot about the feelings you have for her, and move on. Dating her is against the rules for you. And you can't just abandon the job you have, you could die! Make the feelings you have for her and make them into feelings of protection. That's what you have to do. Move on".

Oh hell no! this girl was not about to ruin my chance with Four. I knew what she was doing, I used to do it. She was making him change his mind so she could get him. This girl was smart, but also stupid. She didn't know what I was capable of.

Just as I was about to storm into that room and break this stupid conversation Four spoke up.

"I don't think I can. I need to distract myself. how do I distract myself from this?" he pleaded at her.

"Like this" She said before it went silent. I opened the door slightly, and saw something I did not want to see. Four was kissing this girl. I mean it was her fault that they were kissing, but he was kissing her back.

I quickly closed the door and ran away. I didn't look back, and I didn't want to. I can't believe he was kissing her. Some girl that didn't matter to him. I finally stoped running and sank to the ground, and cried.

I pulled my legs up towards me and cried. I didn't want to cry. I didn't want this to affect me in any way. But it was. What If I did love Four? was this the reason I was crying a lot? Because I loved him?

A heard a door open and looked up. Shauna was looking down at me, smiling at me. She closed her door and sat down next to me.

I sat up, stretching my legs out in front of me and placed my hands on my jeans. I started playing with the hem of my shirt, not daring to look at her.

"You going to tell me why you're crying outside my room?" She asked, looking over at me. I closed my eyes, letting the final tears escape before speaking up.

"I think I'm in love with Four" I told her with a shaky voice. She laughed a little at me. I looked at her smiling sympathetically at me. "What's new Tris? You don't think I notice the little things between you two?".

"How you guys hold each other hand and whisper to each other so no one else can hear but you two? How your eyes always light up when you see him walking towards you? When you told me last time what you thought about him you told me you liked the way he would hold you when you were upset, or how he always made you smile. You may have not have known it back then but you were defiantly in love with him well before you knew it".

I looked at the wall across from me and smiled a little. She was right. All those times from the beginning he always made me feel special, now matter what the situation was. He was always there.

"He was kissing another girl. Nita." I told her, playing around with my fingers, to distract myself. she took a big breathe in and closed her eyes.

"Four and Nita have always been off and on. They were never serious. Four would always use Nita to forgot about you. When he was chosen to be your guardian he was training from day one. Had to know everything about you. Eventually feel in love with you when he was 15. Met Nita when he was 17 and tried to forget about you. He never liked her, never did and never will. She was always a distraction. He hadn't seen her in over a year. Tris he probably will make her stop. Okay trust him. He will never sleep with her again, he promised me, okay? He loves you. No matter what he loves you."

Although her words made me feel a little better, I didn't feel like he would stop. He was mad and pissed an upset. He wanted a distraction. He said it himself.

"Chris and Mar and Lynn are in here, how bout you come in and we can make some hot chocolate and watch some cheesy movie about love?" she asked, pulling me in for hug. I didn't feel like hugging, I felt like crying again. Instead of falling into her arms, I fell into her lap and cried.

And she let me. She stroked my hair until I was ready to go inside. I knew people where walking past us, I could hear footsteps. But I didn't care. I needed to get this out of my system. If Four was getting me out of his, then I was getting him out of mine.


At lunch I felt better. Shauna stayed true to her promise and made us watch a cheesy movie about love, and drank some amazing hot chocolate. Afterwards we went to the dining hall for lunch, which had my favourite. Lasagne.

We were sitting around the table, Lynn on my left, and Shauna on my right with the whole group here. Marlene, Christina, Will, Uriah, and Zeke, sitting, laughing at something Lynn said.

I laughed to and felt someone sitting down at the table, across from Lynn. Christina felt the need to tell everyone what happened, so they were all mad at Four.

And he was here, with Nita. She was pretty. Very pretty.

She had dark brown locks, with shiny green eyes. She was skinny and perfect and everything that I am not. No wonder he liked her as a distraction.

"What's going on?" Nita asked sweetly. I didn't believe the act for a second, and neither did everyone else.

"He smells like sex" Lynn whispered to me. I chocked on my water and felt Shauna glare at Lynn. "Sorry. I forgot who was next to me. Sorry Tris". She meant it. I know she did.

Did he really 'smell like sex'? I didn't even know what that meant, but as time flew past I was catching on to what she meant. They had sex. Fuck me.

"I didn't know you came back Nita" Marlene questioned, glaring at her. she smiled wickedly, wrapping her arms around Four's neck and laughed. "I know! I didn't think I was coming back either, but Four called, and one thing lead to another and now I am here! Isn't great?"

"Yeah, just great" Zeke told her dully. She made a 'hpmh' sound before focusing back on Four. The whole time he was looking at me. I couldn't read his face, but I knew what he was thinking. And frankly I wasn't going to let him know that I was thinking the same thing.

Should I forgive him for what he did? He broke my heart, like hell I was going to let him back like that.

"Tris, hi it's nice to meet you, I'm Robert Black" I heard his voice behind me and turned to look. He wasn't that bad of a look. His hair was black, and his eyes where a nice shade of brown. He smiled widely before extending his hand to me. I stood and shaked his hand.

He seemed nice enough, but he came at such a bad time. "I was supposed to meet you half an hour ago but that's okay. Max said I would find you here". Oh shit. I forgot about meeting him. Oh crap Steve would not be happy with me.

"I'm so sorry. I completely forgot about this. Um, these are my friends. Zeke, Uriah, Marlene, Lynn, Christina, Will, and Shauna" I introduced them all one by one. But not Four.

He smirked, before shaking his head at me. "And Four. her guardian" He said smugly, extending his hand for Robert.

"Yeah, I know" He said, shaking his hand. He looked back at me and smiled. I smiled back and felt the awkward tension between us. everyone did.

"So Robert, where are you taking Tris? To the amity farms to farm some carrot?" Four asked smugly. Nita laughed next to him, stroking his hair. God I was very mad, pissed off at him for all of this. This was his fault. I was mad. Very mad.

"So Four what are you going to do today? Nita?" there was silence in the whole room. You could hear a pin drop. Four stared at me, before standing, and walking over to me. I luckily put on heels, so I wasn't that much shorter than him. He still made me feel tiny as hell.

"You don't have a clue what happened" He growled at me. For once in my life, I wasn't afraid of the bully, in fact, I was laughing in his face.

"Right. Of course I don't have a clue what happened. I mean I didn't see it but I can smell it". I saw the rage in his eyes before he slammed me into the wall behind me. He kept his grip tight on me, and wouldn't let go.

"Stop making this difficult for me" He yelled in my face before Zeke and the others pulled him off of me. His eyes said it all. We were over. What ever happened between us was gone.

I was heartbroken when they dragged him out of the dining hall, Nita trailing behind them. Robert came in front of me, trying to comfort me but I pulled away from his grip, and ran out of that room. I didn't want to think about Four anymore, about anyone.

I didn't stop running until I made it out of the compound and found myself in a run down amusement park. I let myself fall onto one of the old carousals and cried on the platform for a long time.

I didn't stop crying until I felt someone touch my shoulder. I jumped back, ice sword ready until I realised who it was.

"You okay Tris?".

Eric.


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