Chapter 2:
Zinyaks throne was marvelous, oh right my throne is amazing. As I scanned the room, my alien adviser to my right I listened to him as he explained to me about the tasks that I received for the day. Everything about these subcultures and their pleas for me, or to Zinyak as they believe, would release them from their bindings and how their numbers are dwindling. "Do tell them that we will send an a dresser down to report on their planets, population, and on forth. I wish to be informed about everything that is going on and then I will decide on what to do about them" I informed my adviser calmly, a glass of red wine in my right hand.
With the assistance of alcohol, I did not feel so depressed as it worked for an anti-depressant at the time. I took another gradually small sip, feeling my stomach churn to worst. I asked for a bucket and threw my inside out, my heat pounding against my skull.
"Rayne, I need to speak with you" I look up analyzing Matt as he walked in the room, my heart pounded against my chest painfully. I begin to shake uncontrollably, my tears grew worse, everything around me felt different. It feels as if I am seeing and feeling it happen, everything around my spins dangerously. My skin feels freezing cold despite my constant sweating, I think I'm dying now.
I watched with hazy eyes as I toppled over my throne, my medics ran over to me. I couldn't watch the spinning anymore, so I shut my eyes.
I heard Matt's shouting, calling for me to wake up, I didn't understand what's going on as I fall unconscious.
When I woke next I brought my hand to my face, feeling his tears that hit my face. I felt so cold and empty as if I'm a lost soul out of place, I didn't know why he would cry for somebody like me. "Are you alright, you worried me" He held me close against his body, not a word spoke from the both of us for awhile.
The hours passed by, I asked him to leave me to rest. I let out a sigh as the leading Doctor read my vitals when he walked in, "You had us all worried, you nearly died... I would like to ask you this very serious question, " It leaned near my ear and whispered something that made my stomach drop. "How would you react if you had a child?"
I read between the lines, realizing what he meant by that. "How long am I... how far?"
"Two months"
Later on released in the day, I retreated to my room for a few hours recovering from the initial shock. I missed my mother dearly, even though she had it far worse than I do know. I was thankful that she had pushed me to finish school, although it was hard to balance school and being with the Saints, in the end it was quite rewarding. For the records, it really is difficult.
I head off to the tavern in the ship, greeting some of the warriors and the bartender inside, Eon was a nice Zin that had a human for a girlfriend, despite their physical differences, their heart said otherwise. "What will you be having, boss? The original?"
I shook my head, only having the desire for water. "Water" as I spoke that word everybody stopped drinking and stared at me in horror. "What's wrong... right, umm between everybody in this room, the doc said I need water"
After I spoke that they returned to what they were doing prior to this. When midnight stuck I head back to my room, ignoring Matt that was attempting to talk. "Rayne, hey wait up!"
He pushed me against the wall, his lips against mine. My heart fluttered delightfully, my brain had no part of this deal. The next I knew was that I pushed him back, yelling at him angrily, wordless.
I slapped him unable stop the urge, he was the one who made me this way. "No, stop! Please, you're hurting me okay... after all these...whatever we feel, what we have... It's breaking me, I can't stop it from hurting, so please...let me be"
As I ran from him I slammed the door behind me, locking it quickly, I had no wish for him to bug me tonight. I collapsed on my pillow, tears escaping from my closed eyelids. The rabid knocking on the door became quieter as I dreamed of better places.
Running. That was the only thing I knew I was doing. From what I wondered. Only thing I heard was laughter, no voice or taunting words.
"Run human, run from anything you care about" eyes flashing in front of me, I let out a terrified scream crashing on the ground heavily.
"Who are you?!" I demanded, narrowing my eyes darkly.
No response. I crawled up against a tree, the fear rising in me. Footsteps echoed around me, the laughter growing louder and closer, whoever it was it was terrifying.
Alone. Defenseless. I knew I wanted away from this wretched play. Then he showed up that caused me pain, fear and sorrow. "Boo!" Zinyak.
I screamed clutching my pillow waking up in my blanket-less bed. I could never go back to bed, I tossed and turned hoping to fall back to sleep. I threw the sheets off of me and trek to the bathroom, stripped myself of clothing and took a long shower.
"I cannot believe this bullshit" I groaned slapping my hand against the wall, ignoring the numbing sensation on my hands.
The hot water stinging against my skin as I slid to the shower floor, I shut my eyes breathing in and out deeply. I turned the water off, exit the shower and dried myself off. I slipped on a fitting black jumpsuit, thankfully my stomach wasn't hardly bulging. All I desired was food and water, the cafeteria on my mind. The mass of aliens and humans alike ate at the same tables, stuffing their faces with nutritional supplements and edible food.
I sat alone with a full plate and a tall glass of cool water. I dived in deeper thoughts as I ate my food silently, ignoring the curious looks from the others.
Another friend I had was the library, thankfully I had one built on this large mass hunk of steel. I grabbed some books and dived right in them, smiling as I imagined myself in some of the fiction books I picked, until I was done and read some Hamlet.
The library doors opened up revealing Matt, he may seem stalker, but I think Kinzie is making him come here. "What do you want, you keep bugging me damn it!" I shouted standing up from my seat, placing the book gently on the oak table.
I marched over to him and held my finger against his chest. "About yest-" I snarled furiously, cutting him off. "About yesterday, isn't it? Well you know what, why should you care. It was a mistake, okay?!"
He blinked away his shock, "Alright...umm...forget it" he swallowed hardly, turning to leave to library causing a heavy gried in my chest. 'Why the fuck did he act that way...why am I... Why do I do this?' I wondered sadly.
"What the fuck are you still standing there, come on-" I backed up against a wall as he was pressed against me and his lips on my own. I fought the urge to knock him out, I curved my arm around his neck. He leaned more in the kiss, as did I.
My chest squeezed tighter around me, I pushed him off of me and ran out of the room, leaving him alone to his thoughts.
I sat down roughly in the chair in the doctor's office, I stared at him blankly. "Doctor, why am I like this?"
He turned around in his chair watching me, he picked up a data pad and tinkered with it. "Explain to me more what is going one and perhaps I can help you"
I leaned backwards in the chair, my eyes focused on the ceiling. "Everything around me has been feeling ...weird. I never was like this before until my planet blew up, my ex boyfriend died, and then this new recent one left me...for I have no clue why, "I took a deep steady breath. "And then I found out I'm pregnant, I have been freaking out lately. It's like I'm going crazy, I have been crying, having these nightmares about Zinyak killing everybody and it's just...I don't know what really why.. It's like I want to be happy, but I just can't...Help me, I need to do something.I can't live like this anymore"
The doctor stared at me concentrated, he stood up and went over to me, "I'm going to check your hormone levels first, and then ..." he stared at the data pad with irritation, "You humans are just... Alright, I know what's wrong, but I need time to have them make these tablets for you to take, it will work like..an anti..depressant?" he stumbled with the word horribly.
He left the room for a little while, I awoke from my nap as he stood with an bottle with white pills inside. "Take one a day for a week and then see how it goes, okay? This is a little different from the pills on your planet"
