Upsets and Rage

Penny Exited the building, housing Dr Gallo's office. She couldn't go home to Leonard yet, her mind was still in an absolute turmoil now. Though Dr Gallo in discovering the reason for Penny's conduct towards Leonard made things a little clearer.

But for Penny this revelation seemed to have left her asking more questions of herself than Penny could really handle right now.

She went to a nearby Starbucks and bought a large Cappuccino and then on to a pastry shop and after buying herself a bear claw, she headed for the park. Penny really needed some quiet time to think about Dr Gallo's suggestions. And to try and get her head around this problem if she can.

She found a bench in a quiet part of the park and began to drink her Cappuccino. Then leaning back against the bench she began to consider.

Leonard, she decided had been the only guy ever to be so deep in her affections. That almost from the time of meeting him she became aware of her strong attraction to him, so strong in fact that at first it scared her, having felt nothing like the feelings that she had for Leonard ever.

And in time as she came to learn more about him, she could not help being further drawn to him because of his sweet caring nature. In fact Leonard had gently taught her by his example alone that she needed to give, as well as to take and with Leonard, she found it was so easy to give to him, the little things that were so important to her that she made a real effort to find out the little things that pleased him, and because she loved him so much, it gave her so much pleasure to do nice things for Leonard.

He loved what he saw inside her, just as much as what he could see on the outside, though Penny could not see it in herself at all. So it was no wonder then that the pain of her heartache was so great when she thought she had lost him.

She remembered her anguish too over the time he was hit on by Sheldon's assistant Alex.

Penny never did admit to Leonard just how devastated that made her feel. And even later she would break up with him before he could leave her for someone else ( Leonard gave up counting how many times she broke up with him after four); imagining that she was protecting herself from the pain, only to find herself feeling so miserable without him that she would rush to be back into his arms after a couple of days. In fact the very last time she had done so Leonard made it perfectly clear to her that though he loved her very much, her indecision was causing him great distress each time and He doubted if he could really cope with another break up. This had brought it home to Penny as his words had brought her to near panic. And she knew from that moment on that she just could never ever be without him now, and the breakups ceased.

Penny snorted her amusement as she recalled that the only time she really felt at peace with the world was when she was being held in Leonard's arms.

Perhaps it would have been better for her if Dr Gallo had prescribed for her to take some Leonard three times a day to help her with her anxiety and stress instead. Penny laughed out loud, as she knew she would rush to take that medicine , willingly, in fact at warp factor 10. 'now I'm even quoting from Leonard's Star trek wars program', Penny thought then laughed out loud again as Leonard would get so testy with her for mixing the 2 movies up like that. "Curse you Leonard. You've turned me into a nerd now", she said out loud, then her expression softened "Thank you my darling, I love it. It's brought me closer to you".

Leonard by now she knew, had totally ruined her as regards any other man and for that Penny had no regrets. As she would say to herself every time a guy hit on her, 'Why the hell would I want a burger when I have Prime sirloin steak at home?'.

And this thought brought Penny up short, If she never ever wanted to lose that steak then she was going to have to change her attitude towards Leonard.

Penny hurriedly ate her bear claw and finished her drink, for she badly needed to be with the love of her life and from now on; really show him how much he meant to her.

"Great, it would have to be now", Penny told herself as the Police patrol car following behind her forced her to keep to the speed limit, when all Penny wanted to do was to rush back to Leonard as fast as possible.

Finally though, she at last found herself opening the door to 4A, and stepping inside, she immediately saw her beloved husband, giving her that big beaming smile of welcome home my love.

Rushing into his arms, she held him there so tightly, raining kisses on his face, that Leonard asked her if she was OK. It's just that I Lo...", she began when Sheldon interrupted, "Ah Penny, you're back, tell me will you be getting the take out tonight or is Leonard getting it?, as you are aware it's Thai night tonight and I'm hungry so hurry up and decide if you please, Oh and we need more toilet paper as I notice Penny has been using more than three squares again. Really Penny perhaps when you pay the fine this week and you see how much it is, then perhaps it will be a firm reminder for you to only tak...",

at this point Penny interrupted him, "Shut up Sheldon, get your own Thai food for a change or eat your toilet paper. I don't care, I'm so sick of this. I want to spend some time with my husband and you're always here, or if we go to my apartment only to have you keep knocking every five minutes, asking for Leonard or me to do something for you or take you somewhere".

"Yes but Penny the roommate agreement which Leonard signed and the extension for frequent staying guests which you also signed, stipulates that...".

Penny shrieked in her tears of rage at Sheldon, "Screw your roommate agreement I've just had about enough of your stupidity" and Penny in her distress, rushed for her apartment not hearing Sheldon's indignant reply to her, "but I'm not stupid, I have an IQ of 187, to which Leonard silenced him by also telling him to shut up, then added, "Can't you see she's upset. For crying out loud!, you really are the limit aren't you".

Then Leonard left to give comfort to his wife.

Leonard after entering her apartment heard her sobbing in her bedroom, then moving over to the bedroom, Leonard tentatively entered and softly asked if Penny was OK?.

In Her failure to answer him, Leonard began telling her, in what Leonard thought was the solution to Penny's upset, his suggestion of him moving in with Penny.

Penny turned her tear stained face towards him and said, "sweetie, I don't want you to move in here", and at once seeing the crestfallen look on his face she quickly informed him of her desire, "Sweetie I want us both to move to a new apartment away from Sheldon. You and me , together, sweetie I really need for us to do this. And I'm sorry but I don't give a damn whether Sheldon likes it or not, I want for us to be together in OUR apartment", she stressed, then feeling relieved, as she noticed the smile returning to Leonard's face.

Five minutes later they were both seated close together on Penny's couch, as Penny snuggled against her Husband; And related to him her visit to Dr Gallo earlier.

Penny though not normally a person who likes to reveal her feelings to others, held nothing back from Leonard.

At first after telling him that she had noticed her frequency to belittle him, which Leonard tried to deny to spare her feelings. But Penny, taking his hand in hers informed him firmly, "Sweetie, I have to deal with this, and you are doing me no favours by being kind. My behaviour is not at all the behaviour that a wife should have towards her husband, most especially when that husband is the sweetest, kindest, most wonderful man she has ever met. Leonard, I don't want to lose you, but I know I will lose you if I carry on treating you badly like I have been doing, and it has got to stop", she then went on to tell him all about her true feelings over his relationship with Priya, and also about the acute feelings of insecurity she felt during the time that Alex hit on him.

Leonard thought for a while in silence when Penny had finished speaking. He knew he could never leave Penny now, he loved her too much. But if Penny changed her attitude towards him then it would certainly make their married life together a whole lot smoother.

He turned towards her and taking her hands in his, he said, "I love you so much Penny, and I will certainly help you in any way I can for you to overcome your problem", he paused then smiled at her, then said, "So Dr Gallo next week then", then added, "Also we had better start looking for apartments then too I guess".

Penny gave him a big beaming smile and standing up and taking his hand, she then told him, "yes Sweetie, but first the bedroom I think for us next", and giggling she led him to her bedroom.

As Penny lay in Leonard's arms she smiled as she considered how stunned it always made her when it felt so, so right to be here with him, it was meant to be, it really was. And so Penny became even more determined to follow her intention through and love Leonard even more.

However this would be a lot easier than it will be telling Sheldon Cooper of their intention to find a place of their own. And after sighing, She snuggled even closer to Leonard and soon drifted off to sleep.

Penny decided that maybe it would be best to have Amy there ready for when Leonard and Penny inform Sheldon of their plans to move out. To Penny's relief Amy agreed with her; as Amy put it, "can you imagine still living between two apartments when you are both in your old age?".

Penny Shuddered at the image Amy's words conjured up in her mind.

"Penny, Sheldon will have to learn to accept change and we can't mollycoddle him forever and as you have told me, your marriage together could certainly take a turn for the worse, if you did not take this action at once".

"Thanks for your support Ame's ; We'll see you tomorrow evening then", Penny told her, slumping in relief as she ended the call.

Sheldon went up in flames, and this was due to the fact that Amy was there on a night which wasn't their date night.

Penny grimaced and thought to herself 'If he's like this now, then what's he going to be like when we make our announcement?".

Leonard cleared his throat and began to explain, once Sheldon had calmed down a little.

"We asked Amy to be here, because Penny and I have something important to tell you", "Is my Mother alright I only spoke to her an hour ago; has something happened?", Sheldon interrupted, immediately fearing the worst.

"No Sheldon, It's, It's just that I have some problems towards Leonard and in order for me to solve them we, well the thing is we...", Penny stalled unable to form the words.

"Buddy, what Penny is trying to tell you is, that we are going to find our own place, we are going to be moving out".

Sheldon's homeostasis was coming apart at the seams and for Sheldon it seemed, it was the last straw.

"I told you not to be friends with her didn't I, and now look what she's done. Really Leonard, how could you put her before me, really this is just totally unacceptable". Then turning to Penny he screamed and pointed at her, the flecks of spittle being hurled from his mouth in his rage, "Get out!, now!, this instant you vile home wrecker".

Penny took one look and then turned and sobbing she fled back to her apartment. While Sheldon ran, still hurling accusations in his anger, for his room.

Leonard looked at Amy, "It's OK Leonard, we knew it wasn't going to be easy, and Sheldon had to be told sooner or later . Go to Penny, she needs you now, I've got this", and Leonard left 4A and went to find Penny.