Day 2: May 25th 2015
I'm standing here looking at a sunset and I wonder where you are? What you're doing? How you've been?
The soft golden glow of the last rays remind me of you. Sometimes the long wash of missing you hits me so suddenly I feel like I might fall to my knees.
I think about the past, how you were then, how you are now. The pain of what you did will never go away but the love I hold for you is thriving. It tells me to forgive you, to recognise the good deeds you've been doing.
I think about the pain you've been through, knowing you killed you're friend and wanting nothing more than to ersase it. You hate yourself and your existence. But still you live on and part of me hope that's you live for me. Maybe one day you'll open up to me.
The sunset that I'm staring at now looks like the one when you almost kissed me. Do you remember that? It's a special memory to me. I didn't know what would happen if you kissed me, but I didn't care, it felt right in that moment. And still I think about what it would be like to kiss you, whether your lips would be soft, would it taste sweet?
Sunsets are the end. The end of a day, the end of the light, but I hope it wasn't the end of us. I still see you but I wonder if you see me like you did then.
My friends draw me away from my thoughts as we carry on walking, not stopping for long to admire this sunset. I'm happy with my friends, even if you are not here with me. Having just completed a mission and receiving our reward, we were heading back to the Guild. After we got there and reported to Mira, we hang about, I talk to Wendy before going home.
The next day I wake up at the crack of dawn. I can't sleep tonight, God only knows why. Instead I take a walk around Magnolia, hoping that it will make me more tired. I cross streets, fields even dirt paths but nothing seems to ease my mind to sleep. I decide to watch the sun as it's rises, letting my thoughts drift.
Sunrise is so different to a sunset. It's the beginning and not the end. It represents the promise of what's to come. I stand there admiring it for a while and that's when I think I see you with Meredy. A flash of blue and pink in the distance, following the direction of the sun. Maybe I was really asleep and dreaming or maybe not, either way I thought you turned round, lifted your hand and waved. I smile and wave back and as you leave me behind I think that I could sleep better.
The problem was, when I woke up the next day, I couldn't tell the difference between dreams and memories. But even so, I was happy to be able to see you again. Even if it was just a dream.
Yeah this was slightly weird for me...I was stuck for ideas and I wanted to test out a new style of writing. What did you think? Your opinions will help me form an idea whether this went well or not. Thanks everyone and enjoy the rat of the week! This is Stephano over and out.
