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To be clear, the girl on the cover is Lexi Nicole Brown as a vampire. Isn't she pretty?


It was chaos. I felt horrible. It was what I deserved. Rosalie had yelled at me for changing the girl, saying that it was my fault if a human found out about us and the Volturi came to rip us apart. Edward did some research in the minds of other teenagers, her gothic friend - Ivy - and the archives of Forks and found out that the girl was none other than the famous Lexi Nicole Brown, the girl who lost both her parents in a tragic car crash at the age of nine, but who miraculously survived it. She lived with her older brother Terry and his girlfriend Valeria. She recently - two weeks ago - turned sixteen. She was a sophomore. Before our little problem upstairs had woken up, it was actually her brother who caused troubles. We used Lexi's phone to send a text saying that she had run away because she hated school and her life. Ofcourse we were smart enough to send the text in front of her house, in case they would trace it. Her clothes were gone to, Alice picked them up. It was the third day his little sister had ran away and he brother was desperate to find her. The police didn't listen to him when he said that running away wasn't something Lexi would do. She was just another teen who hated life and ran away. However, they had spread her picture into the whole state. The last beat of her heart made an end to her terrible pain and the house was no longer filled with her screams. She was now one of us. And it was my fault. A part of me wondered how much she would hate me. The last three days the mood in our house had been very bad. Not because they blamed me for changing Lexi - except for Rosalie, who practically was about to slice my throat open with her manicured nails - but because I blamed myself. It was my venom that ended her human life and pushed her brutally into a new one.

Carefully we entered her room she had been dumped in, by the lack of a better word. The last thing we wanted to do was scaring her, because a scared, insane newborn would destroy Forks. She could jump through the glass and destroy everything she would come across. Newborns were unstable and unpredictable and above all dangerous if they used their brute strength against you. Carlisle, Edward, Emmett and I stood in front of the females ready to protect them from the danger I had created. The room was filled with anger, I could feel it before we had even opened the door. Anger towards the person who had changed her. If only she knew it was me who had done this to her. Edward told me that she had already figured out what she had become. He also told me that she wasn't happy about it. Edward had stormed out of the room, cursing and shaking his head as if his brains were drowning, because it was filled with murderous thoughts coming from her. We all had checked upon her, except me. I didn't want to be confronted with my mistake. Esme had talked to her, saying that it would all be over soon. Carlisle checked if the transformation was going well. Rosalie had brushed her long hair and cleaned the dried blood from where I had bitten her. Alice had dresses her into the latest designer fashion, a ruffled lavender colored blouse, a tight black skirt and dark purple heels. She had to kick me out of the room, because the girl would be naked and her body wasn't destined for my eyes. I felt like a pervert. Lexi seemed to be always present in my mind, I blamed it on the fact that I was her killer and it was the guilt who was slowly gnawing at me. When Emmett was with her, he talked bullshit. He was going to have a lot of fun with her, teaching her how to fight and play a vamperized version of the game baseball. My mind could see the scene, Emmett learning Lexi how to fight. It was comical imagination. But I suppose it could work, if Alice - who was three inches shorter than Lexi - could fight, Lexi could possibly do it to. But there was one big difference, Alice saw your moves coming, so she could anticipate and Lexi was small and not gifted with the ability to see the future.

As soon as we had entered the room, she had become aware of the possible threat that surrounded her. She shot up from Carlisle hospital table where she laid on, and crouched down, her new given instincts taking it over from her. We stayed calm but the tension was tangible in the air. She blinked a few times, adapting her sight. I knew how overwhelming it was when you woke up the first time, seeing the light again after what seemed to have been an endless darkness, seeing the dust in the air that a human eye couldn't detect, hearing sounds from miles away. I couldn't help thinking that she had become dazzling. I had seen her in her human form an now in her strong, new one. The difference was clearly visible. She was marvelous. I had to admit that she hadn't been an ugly human but now as a vampire she would earn a lot of ' wows' and admiring glances. Her skin had become pale like ours. Her lips were plump and had a special red-rosy like color, like someone had kissed her roughly for a long time. I brutally shook the thought of me kissing her out of my head, but Edward had already picked it up. He looked at me as if I was crazy, trying to figure out where that thought had come from. Before he could do that, I had to understand it first and I couldn't. I focused back on Lexi. Her button nose wrinkled slightly as she smelled us. The hazelnut color of her eyes was replaced by a blood red one. The red was to vivid for her face. She - like all vampires - had small bags under her eyes in the lightest shade of purple, making her look like as if she had never seen a pillow in her life. In a strange way it suited her more than others, it made her prettier. Her limbs were smooth and supple even when she stood still. She was simply graceful. Her small, young face was framed with wavy, healthy looking hair that reached till her ribs. I had been right, it wasn't naturally straight, it was wavy. It was now a very dark shade of brown, almost looking black. The color was perfect for her pretty face. The striking blue had been honestly an insult for her face, screaming at people to judge her before they got to know her. Lexi snarled. She looked like a trapped animal, her eyes wild, filled with anger and fear for us. Even when newborns were scared, they didn't back down. Her lip curled up, showing her sharp white teeth. A roaring sound built itself up in her chest. It was a newborn thing, she reacted like we all had done when we awoke. I send a wave of calmness at her. Her head shot in in my direction and as if she had sensed it she pointed an accusing finger at me. As if she knew it was me. Her anger grew explosively. Carlisle decided to step in before she would give her newborn attack a try.

" Lexi, I know this is all new to you and -" She interrupted him by screaming ' you' at me. Her eyes were fixed on my face and I knew that she somehow figured it out that I was the one who changed her. I didn't need Edwards gift for that.

" She figured it out." He muttered. No shit Sherlock! I thought.

Lexi was smart, I wondered how she found out the truth. She hadn't seen my face, so what could it possibly be?

" She remembered your smell." Edward said. Lexi watched us with a confused expression on her face, probably wondering why freaky Edward was talking to himself.

" You did this to me! You're going to pay. You asshole, you monster!" The truth blurted out of her mouth, her angry voice sounded like the rippling of a brook mixed with the sound of a knife tapping against a crystal wine glass. It was warm and relaxing. My ears welcomed it. Her voice betrayed that she was on the edge of crying, broken because she was thrown into a life she only knew out of movies. I broke her. I had to live with the thought that I created a vampire who could kill hundreds, thousands of people. It was as if I killed them myself. There was blood on my hands.

Like a bullet she shot forward, her attack aimed for my neck. She was blinded by anger, hatred and thirst. Her hands were formed into claws, trying to grab my throat. I didn't want to hurt her but I didn't want to feel her inhuman strength either. I placed my hands against her chest - shuddering from the contact - and pushed her away. She fell against Carlisle's table, taking it down with her. The metal bended by the impact of her fall. Her face twisted with anger and determination for my head. I grinned, she didn't stand a chance. In one swift movement she was back on her feet, snarling and growling.

A sound that was a growl and a frustrated angry scream at the same time came out of her mouth, the sound of a real vampire. Her small body was shaking with anger, her hands balled into tight fists. Lexi's eyes glided over our faces, searching a spot to escape. She found none, I could read it in her eyes that she realized she didn't stand a chance against any of us. Not even against Edwards little pixie. We all had practiced fight training with each other for in case we had to defend ourselves. The closest she was to a fight and her knowledge of it was probably a fight movie she had seen. One with unrealistic moves where one guy takes out 10 other guys or a women fights off a bunch of men while she is tied to a chair. Lexi's eyes fixed back on me, narrowing as her murderous feelings increased. Edward and I cringed from her thoughts and feelings.

Suddenly the world ended. My world ended. My mind was only filled with one image. Her killing me and thoughts about it. I could only think about my death. I think I was blind. Well, not really blind. I could see the image in my head , which was more a film because she moved, I moved, she pulled my head off. It was as if my eyes were rolled back in my head and I could only see the horrible scene inside my head. The outside was shielded from me. All the emotions I would normally feel from my surrounding were gone too. I only felt fear and pain. Fear for the girl who ripped off every body part I had and pain because she did that. I was deaf too, only heard the screaming in my head. I wanted to scream because of the pain, but I couldn't. It stopped in the middle of my throat, my voice stuck to a point where I wasn't sure I had one. I couldn't move either. So this was how death felt. Death felt awful! I was dying, killed by the girl who had smelled so wonderful that it would become her death. I was dying! As if dying one time wasn't already horrible, experiencing it over and over was indescribably.

She killed me! She killed me! She killed me!

As suddenly as it came, it was gone too.

I gasped in shock: " She killed me!" I was on my knees with Carlisle knelt down beside me. Edward watched me with eyes the size of melons, horrified because I was killed.

" Jasper what happened?" Carlisle asked in a concerned voice.

" She killed me. She ripped of my head!" I wondered how it was so suddenly over and above all where it came from. I found the answer when I looked at Lexi. She was being restrained by Edward and Emmett. Emmett had wrapped his iron-like arms around her waist, holding her back so she couldn't bite Edward, but she was a newborn. Stronger than any of us, stronger than older vampires because blood still flew through the veins. She fought her way free, biting Edwards hand because he hadn't pulled it away fast enough and giving Emmett a head-butt. Before she could jump through the glass Edward tackled her down, grabbing her by her throat, his knees keeping her arms down. Emmett joined him. Together they managed to keep her under control. I stood back up, beyond pissed off.

" Lexi, please we don't want to hurt you. Please let us explain everything." Carlisle tried to reason her, a fruitless attempt.

She hissed: " There is nothing to explain!"

" Please Lexi, calm down. We really don't want to hurt you." Carlisle signed that Edward and Emmett had to let go off her. A sign that we meant no harm to her. She jumped back on her feet, but stayed where she was, no more attacks. Although she stayed alert, watching us with hawk eyes.

" I know this is very confusing for you. But were different. We don't feed on human blood, we survive on animal blood. You don't have to hurt anybody either." I could tell that she was relieved that she didn't had to hurt humans to survive.

Her voice was firm, strong when she spoke: " I have one question: Why did he changed me?" She asked pointing her finger at me. I changed her, so I owned her an explanation. Not that it would be a good reason, but she deserved to know why I had sunk my teeth in her neck.

" It was an accident. I honestly never planned to change you. I am the youngest vegetarian of our family, your blood was too tempting for me. Better than I had ever smelt. I lost control when I smelled you. I'm so sorry." I couldn't apologize more, but I knew she would never forgive me.

She snorted her red eyes almost bulging out of her head: " So actually it's my fault. You changed me because I was the best smelling dessert you had ever smelled?!"

I gave her a tired look: " It isn't your fault. It's mine. I couldn't control myself." She glared at me, a glare that would even bring Jane Volturi to her knees. That little thing was full of hate. I couldn't blame her.

" So now I am doomed because you couldn't control yourself?! Fantastic! Fan - fucking - tastic, stupid asshole!" Everybody ignored her behavior.

" Lexi would you please stay with us? We would like that you would become a part of our family."

She breathed in and out, to keep the anger from taking over her mind and body: " I don't have a choice, have I? If I go, I will kill and I don't want to hurt people only because it's in my nature. So I will stay until I can control myself enough but don't expect that I will talk to any of you don't force me neither because it will only end up bad, and above all keep him away from me or I will find a way to kill him!"

She put up an attitude to keep her us away from her, but I was determinate to help her as much as possible.

Lexi Nicole Brown was now part of the Cullen family.


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