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- You think Lexi is going to make it to the Denali's?

- You think Jasper would want her after her being a huge b*tch?


The next day brought me new, fresh determination to figure out what I wasn't supposed to know. As soon as Alice and Edward would be back of school, I would confront them. Maybe Alice first, since I didn't like Edward's ability to snoop around in my mind. And if she wasn't going to tell me what I wanted to know than I saw myself forced to grab Edward by the collar and shake information out of him, quite literally. I vaguely realized I had become aggressive and I didn't care.

After Carlisle had healed me, I had the entire night to think about what had happened. Or rather what didn't happen. I didn't die which I was insanely grateful for and my gift didn't work, not so grateful for.

The night was long and I was absolutely bored out of my mind, so I came up with a few theories. 1) I lost my gift. 2) This was all a dream. I was lying in bed, refusing to get out of it and make myself ready for school. This was the most stupid theory of them all. Everything was as real as it could be. My life as a vampire, my gift, my ache for Jasper… I'm trailing off.

My third and last theory made sense the most. There were limitations I didn't know off yet. My ability to kill someone in his mind didn't work on the werewolves. The more I thought about it, the more I started to believe it.

I went to Carlisle and told him all of my theories. He laughed the first one off, showed pity with the second and became very interested in the third. He told me that it wasn't possible to lose gifts. They were rare and when a vampire had one, he carried it with him forever. It was like losing talents. Not possible.

When Carlisle told me about certain talents turning into abilities once humans were changed , I started thinking. My gift was to kill someone in his mind. What talent did I had as a human? Carlisle mused with me.

I tried to think back several years in my human life. It wasn't easy and it had given me a slight throbbing around my temples but it had helped. As a human, ever since I was little things seemed to always go another way. It was small and subtle but now I noticed it. Everybody who was nice to me got luck on his side such as finding a coin or even a dollar bill. Everybody who was mean to me or treated me in a way I didn't want to be treated became a victim of bad luck, like tripping over things or even falling down a stairs. That happened in first year of high school. And I swear I didn't push that boy!

At the age of seven I started to think about death for the first time ever in life. It confronted me. A lot of the Brown's died around that time. Grandma, grandpa, an aunt of my father's side, an unborn niece of my mother's side, my dog Buddy... And I was so angry that they were gone to ' a better place' as my mom described it. It was so unfair in my children eyes.

So many people who - harshly said - deserved to die, got a chance to live and the innocent ones got their life taken. Sometimes I wished the dead of those bad people.

When I was nine, I got so close to death I could feel it breathing down my neck. I had looked it in the eye and was not afraid anymore.

Everything in my life seemed to be connected to death. It was my explanation for my gift. Carlisle deemed it possible.

But what really piqued my interest to a higher level was the fact that Alice suffered the same limitations.

Her gift to see one's future worked best on vampires, because she was one herself. It also worked on humans because she had been one. Anything in between was just a blur in her eyes she couldn't decipher.

It would be 100 % logical that it didn't work on the mutts because I - thank god - wasn't one. It was kind of bad news. The only other creatures - besides vampires - on this planet that could kills us, were safe from the harm of my gift.

After that part, my sorrow went on. The Treaty we had with the wolves had been officially broken as soon as my foot crossed that stupid invisible line. For all we knew we could be on the blink of war. They had a reason, their hatred for us only fueled it and that was more than reason enough to worry.

That's how my night ended and my day started.

Momentarily I was waiting eagerly until Alice would be home. It shouldn't be long anymore. School was done a half hour ago. I heard Edward's Volvo pulling up in the garage. Emmett proudly telling how he gave an answer in his math class that nobody was supposed to know. I grinned, smart boy.

Moments later Rosalie strode past me - her beauty blinding like always - head held up high while Emmett followed her. He gave me a small smile, just to be polite. Rosalie gave me of course nothing beside the hateful vibe around her. Ignoring Rosalie came easy these day, which I was happy about. It kept the peace in this house.

Alice came in like she was dancing, Edward followed her with a little smile playing on his lips. Love for her evidently shining in his eyes. It was so clear and obvious that mates adored her.

Longing welled up inside me. I wished I had someone. I kicked that idea away.

" Alice I need to talk to you." I said, voice determined. I got the feeling she already knew I was going to ask her. She came up with a smooth excuse, too fast.

" I need to finish a science project. Actually, I still need to start. I'm sorry."

That lame ass excuse could've worked if she hadn't had a vampire memory. Alice could finish that project in less time than it took for her to talk to me.

Was she trying to get around my questions? O hell no, that won't happen.

I smiled at her and wrapped my arm around her shoulders, towering a couple of inches above her. Edward tensed and I saw him bending his knees a little, ready to pounce. 'Chill Edward, I'm not gonna hurt her!'

" Dear pixie, you have all night to do science. I will personally help you but I need to talk to you!"

I emphasized the 'I need to talk to you', just to make clear that I wasn't going to let it drop. Hell no, I wasn't dropping anything!

" But - " I cut her off quickly, tugging her along up to my room. I practically threw her on my attic and closed the door, standing protectively in front of it.

" Sit." I said politely like I had guest visiting and gestured to my unused bed. She eyed me carefully and sat down onto it. I had her where I wanted her to be. I mentally danced.

" So Alice - " I began casually peeking at my nails " You have already had a vision about this, haven't you?" And I looked at her, straight in the eye.

She nodded softly. I pursed my lips. How was I going to ask this nicely?

I sighed and joined her on the bed: " Look Alice, I know you and Edward are hiding something nobody knows. And I vaguely suspect that it's about Jasper and me. Am I correct?"

She nodded again, keeping her eyes trained on my face. I could hear Edward pacing downstairs in worry for his mate. I told him to chill, hadn't I?

' Edward you're going to pace a hole in the ground! Just fucking chill!' I mentally screamed at him. But I could understand him. A mate's pull was strong Carlisle had told me. Like he had told me about every other thing of the vampire world last night. From gifts to the Volturi. I already disliked them. My dislike came even close to hate. They sounded murderous and without respect for human life, although Carlisle had describe the as ' the rulers of our world who took care of the law breakers'.

I had huffed. Who had given them the power to rule over our world? Just because they were the first ones they claimed power. I thought it was ridiculous, though I had to admit that I found it good that they took care of law breakers. We should stay hidden amongst the humans and should avoid chaos.

Also I had sworn to Carlisle and to myself that I would stay away from them. They craved power - power I had - and would do everything to have that one particular power they wanted. Covens being torn apart was no exception Carlisle told me.

Like I said it had been a long night and my head had been filled with extra information.

" It keeps me busy, Alice! I need to know what you've been hiding!" unconsciously I gripped Alice's shoulders forgetting to hold my newborn strength back. She winced and I could feel her collar bone move under the tight pressure of my fingers.

Downstairs I heard Edward leap onto the first step of the stairs, almost breaking the wood - it protested with a loud crack - of the force in combination with the speed he used.

He stopped. I guess Alice was thinking to him not to come because his feet disappeared of the stairs and I heard him grumbling about how stubborn she could be.

" Please Alice. I don't like secrets being kept from me!" I gripped tighter, again totally unconsciously. Unaware that I was hurting her.

" Okay, Okay! Only if you promise not to break my collar bone!" I let go as if I had touched fire and muttered a true sheepishly sorry. Edward downstairs was restraining himself to not come barging in here, I could tell.

Her face became suddenly serious and I was somewhat scared of what she was going to say.

" Do you remember the first day of school?" she started. With a frown I nodded. Of course I remember. How could I forgot. It felt like an important date, almost like a birthday or something.

" The first day of school, during lunch break just when you left the cafeteria, I had a vision of you. Right before Jasper got mesmerized by your scent and bit you. He thinks it was about him slaughtering you - " I suppressed the lonely chill that ran down my spine " - but that's not true."

By the way she paused a second and her eyes scanned my face I could tell the most important part was about to come. I gripped the sheets of my bed, just to hold something.

" I had a vision of you as a vampire, kissing Jasper. You were in love with him, Lexi. You are his mate. You were destined to live forever next to Jasper, to be a vampire. Even when Jasper had managed to stay in control you would've become one. You would've fallen in love with him as a human, have an epic love but in the end he would've turned you."

I possibly got even paler and my whole body froze. My ears buzzed from the revelation. Or was I imagining that? What Alice was saying was that I was always meant to be a vampire, that it was written in the stars? Inevitable? This was truly not what I expected. I think I was in shock for a couple of seconds.

Suddenly cold remorse hit me mercilessly full force, like a thousand boulders crashing down upon me and I gasped. I could've been happy, complete, filled. I could've had Jasper. I could've had happiness I didn't deserve.

How stupid could I be?

I wanted to cry. Everything fell into place. Why I hadn't been able to kill him, as if a higher force knew that I would need and want him someday. Why every time Jasper touched me I felt good, the fuzzy feeling and the tingling combined was addictive. Why I felt guilt about pushing him away - because I was sure I would have absolutely no sympathy for any other vampire, minus Cullens -. Why he was a constant and prominent part of my mind.

I had been so easy. We were mates. The voice in my head yelled DUH just to hurt me more.

I was an awful girl. When I was at my worst Jasper was there for me, the Cullens - minus Rosalie - were there for me.

I knew what I had to do. What I needed to do. I needed to get Jasper back. I wanted him by my side. I longed for him like I longed for blood, maybe more so.

This was the best, classical example of hatred blossoming into love. And boy, did I hated him, for taking my life away. Now realization struck me. I loved him.

I looked at Alice and saw she was hiding more. I stared into her golden eyes long, unblinking. There was more.

" Tell me!" I demanded, my tone a little harsher than I meant to be but I had no whatever control I ever had over my emotions.

She squeezed her eyes shut and blurted the words out: " I know where Jasper is!"

The loss of Jasper settled on my shoulder and pushed me down. There was numbness and self-hatred in my chest, punishing me for the words I had said and de decisions I had made. However hope welled in me.

My words were slowly spoken, my teeth clenched and I was sure my body had become as hard and stiff as a rock: " Where. Is. He?"

Yes, I was angry at Alice but I was furious at myself.

" Denali." She answered quickly " Nobody knew, not even Edward. It would only hurt them."

I understood why she did it and I realized I had no valid reason to be mad at Alice.

I breathed in and out, imagining Jasper's gift doing its magic on me before I spoke: " Denali, as in Eleazar Denali?"

She nodded and that was all I saw. Her mouth opened to speak but I was already gone. Zipping down the stairs and connecting with Edward, knocking him down hard with a loud THUMP because he didn't move fast enough out of my way.

I think I whispered a sorry, I don't know. My mind was so full and clouded of Jasper it was hard, nearly impossible to think of something else.

He murmured something about 'rudeness' before he saw the determination that surrounded my complete presence and read the idea that wandered around in my mind.

He got up and screamed for me to stop, but I was already in the garage, eyes quickly scanning all of the keys that hung neatly on a hook, - Rosalie's BMW Convertible, Edward's Volvo, Carlisle's Mercedes, Jasper's motorcycle -, and fingers snatching the keys of Jasper's motorcycle, a blue Ducati. The beast of a machine stood proudly in the back of the garage, its dark blue colour shiny and contrasting against the grey of Edward's Volvo and the red of Rosalie's Convertible. I didn't even want to know how much this motorcycle and these cars had cost, let alone the sum of all this vehicles together.

In one fast and smooth movement I was on the motorcycle, keys in the contact. I turned, the beast roaring to life. I could feel its horse power and strength under my body and became a little nervous.

I had never rode something – beside my bicycle ofcourse – that had an engine. I would turn seventeen in less than one year I would be allowed to drive a car but now…

I also had no idea how to ride a motorcycle, but I felt comfortable. I could handle werewolves - technically - so if I would fall or crash, it would be no big deal. I was indestructible.

I got a quick overview and thankfully recognized everything, the clutch, throttle... I think this motor was an electric start, because it started way to easy and I had to do nothing with my feet.

Everybody who had ever drove a vehicle, told me it was all about sensing, beside the actual technique you had to have. How much throttle to give and how fast to let go off the clutch.

I took one more breath, opened the throttle and took - not carefully at all - off. I was actually blown away by the speed but this was cool. A sixteen year old riding on a death machine. I didn't know how to drive and I was driving illegally. I was a total badass!

I glanced over my shoulder for a spilt second and I saw Edward storming outside, throwing me an angry, dark look. I glued my eyes back to the road. Safety first.

I soft sigh escaped my mouth and my mind drifted off.

I was going to get Jasper back.

The one who was destined to stand by my side.