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How could I be so stupid? In history of most stupid ideas, mine had to make it to the top three. I damned myself for being so reckless and stupid. I shouldn't have stolen a vehicle that I don't know how to drive.
It didn't take long before a big 'welcome to Alaska' sign was greeting me with big bold letters. I stepped from one wet, murky place into another. Yet the temperature felt good against my skin. The perks of being a vampire… wonderful.
Somewhere halfway between Forks and Alaska I had dumped Jasper's Ducati and used my good old legs to continue my journey. The vegetation became closer and no one would see me. I wasn't such a good driver after all. Yeah, I kind of crashed. It didn't hurt. Beside the big dent in the road there was no proof of a crash. Note to myself: apologize for dumping Jasper's expensive Ducati.
The aching in my chest became more prominent with every inch I came closer to him. It was wonderful yet scary at the same time. As if my heart felt that the journey would be over soon and I would see him again. It made small jumps as it hoped we would fall in each other's arms and lay down in the snow. I was being melodramatic.
A million thoughts pounded against my skull. I didn't realized it quite yet. I was confused. How could hate turn so quickly into wanting, even if we were meant to be together?
What if Jasper hated me with the same passion I used to hate him?
What if he didn't want me? I had been such a cold-hearted bitch. A horrible person. If somebody had treated me like I had treated Jasper I would never look that person in the eyes again.
What if he didn't want to go back to the Cullens?
My head throbbed, which was really weird because I'm an immortal. How can my head throb? I wanted the thoughts to stop. I wanted to stop thinking but I couldn't.
What would I say to him when I saw him? Blond curls shining in the daylight, golden eyes gleaming at me, pale skin so smooth to touch…? I practiced the lines I would say, but in the end decided it would be better to follow the moment. To say what popped up in my head. But I would tell him about Alice's vision. He had the right to know. It had been kept away from us while it was about us. About us being together, as mates.
Suddenly I stopped. I had absolutely no idea where the Denali clan lived. Surely it would be somewhere far away from human society, somewhere near the woods where they could hunt and be themselves. Like we lived. But nearly all Alaska was made out of forest. Where the hell should I start?
When in doubt, call Alice. Just as I was about to reach for my phone the thing went off. I had a text. It was actually my third phone. I broke the screen of the first two. Newborn strength and touch screen aren't such a great combination.
It was from Alice. She texted me the address. Ofcourse she knew I needed the address before I knew it myself. Clever girl.
I texted her back : Thanks!
A second after I texted her I send her another text: Wish me luck!
She responded before I could put my phone into the pocket of my jeans: Good luck! From all of us!
The text made me smile. From all of us. I knew it meant minus Rosalie but still.
According to the GPS on my stupid touch screen phone the Denali's place wasn't very far away. About a half hour of running and I would see Jasper again.
Almost without realizing it I started moving. Jumping over fallen trees and searching my way through the woods.
It shouldn't be long anymore. I stopped running and switched to walking when I could see an open place and no more trees. I walked a little closer and saw a house. More like a villa. Very Cullen-like. Typical that also this family was filthy rich.
I felt like such a stalker. Spying on people. People with superhuman senses who would know I was here if I walked a few 100 meters closer. But nevertheless people. If I had been human my heart would've been pounding in my chest like crazy.
Take the plunge and walk closer!
I don't know why I still take deep breath but I do. So here we go. With my shoulders straight, head up and eyes glued on that house I walked further.
Almost there. Almost there. Almost…
The door went open and 5 gorgeous people stepped out. And by the look on their faces I wasn't very welcome. Not that I expected open arms and welcome presents but still a little hello has never killed anyone.
" That's her." Carmen whispered. The look of fear said enough. They were scared of me. And I couldn't blame them. My gift was a curse. Not a blessing.
The already bad vibe changed into something completely different. One minute we were staring at each other, the other I was being attacked for no apparent reason.
A tall stunning women with long, pale hair straight as corn silk and the same golden eyes as they all shared, charged at me.
Somehow I was distracted. Somehow I missed her first move. I wasn't focused. I guess I was distracted because Jasper was so close. The only thing that was blocking me was a door and 5 vampires.
Miss corn hair had her hand clamped around my neck. Suddenly I was on my knees, a thousand lightning bolts seemed to go through my body, starting in my throat going all the way to my toes.
I screamed, high pitched notes of utter pain. I couldn't help it. It wasn't as painful as my change but hell what was this? My logic told me that this was her special ability, just like I had mine. It was awful. It was awfully painful and I wished it would stop.
I immediately thirsted for payback. The kind of payback were I would give her a little taste of her own medicine. It grew like flames sucking up air, growing bigger and bigger. How dare she hurt me?! I had done nothing wrong! This time. Stupid bitch!
The pain was suddenly gone and I was able to wrench my eyes open. Before me stood Jasper in all his glory, who had pushed the blonde one so hard she smacked against a tree who spilt in half. He looked like a god. More beautiful than I seemed to remember. I had to swallow at the sight of this man. Wanting swelled up inside me. He would feel it without a doubt.
He reached out his hand, a strong muscular hand. I grabbed it. The feeling that I loved when he touched me surged through me like electricity. He easily lifted me up, back on my feet. The pain had ebbed away just like my thirst for payback. Disappeared like snow in the sun when I saw him. I gazed into his topaz eyes, the same topaz as when he left and my wanting for him increased. I suppressed the memory of that moment.
My hand was still in his and I didn't want to let go. I wasn't planning on it. He broke the contact first. His hand not touching mine felt odd. Empty. Hollow.
" Jasper." My voice sounded oddly harsh of the emotions I was so hard trying to suppress, yet still beautiful.
" Lexi." He responded and I detected a faint hint of longing in his voice. It gave me hope. I was aware of the eyes and ears following our every move and I didn't like it. I wanted him for my own.
" Jasper we need to talk." My voice sounded pleading. " There is something I need to tell you. It's important!"
" What's wrong?"
I couldn't tell. Not here. Not with them looking. I grabbed his hand - which he clearly not expected - and started to thug him along.
" I can't tell. Not here!" and I eyed the Denali's.
" Jasper, don't trust her!" someone's voice sounded from not that far behind me. I turned around faster than Jasper and bitchslapped a strawberry blonde women to the ground. I smirked. Bitchslapping was my specialty. I was holding my anger back. Trying to attack me in the back, huh! But you know what they say right? Don't expect too much from a newborn. Jasper jerked my arm.
I sheepishly raised my shoulders: " What can I say I'm such a badass."
Before we took off I turned my attention to the one who electrocuted the shit out of me: " By the way you're a bitch!"
We ran Jasper and I, until we were at least 20 miles away from eyes and ears. We came to a halt and I was suddenly pulled down with nervousness. The kind of nervousness when you failed a very important test that is made up from 70 % of your grade miserably and you have to explain it to your brother.
How I was going to tell this?
" Maybe you should sit down." I sounded unsure. What was I expecting? That he was going to drop down from shock? " Never mind."
I opened my mouth, ready to blur everything out but he interrupted me.
" Lexi. What are you doing here?"
Yeah, what was I doing here? I was trying to explain to my mate that we were mates.
" I came here for you."
" Why?" he sounded surprised. Maybe even a little shocked.
Now was the hardest part coming. Explaining why.
His face changed. He looked so serious right now as if he realized something. No surprise anymore at all.
" Lexi." He said slowly. " Did you kill someone on your way to here?!"
I responded immediately. I was a little hurt, if I must admit. I ran all the way to here to see him, holding my breath, being very scared and careful to not come in contact with humans and all I get was the question if I killed someone.
" No!"
Relief washed over him. Lightning the mood a bit. I was disappointed that was all he seemed to care for.
" Listen Jasper!" I was sick of fooling around. " I came here because I feel horrible. The guilt is eating me alive! Even more now I know why!"
He was taken back I could tell. I continued talking. No more being subtle at all, no more being careful at all, no more bullshit!
" Alice had a vision the first day of school. The day you bit me! You know that right?" I didn't wait for any response. " You think it was about you killing me but it wasn't!"
I stopped and grabbed his hand before I continued: " It's about us being together. We are mates! Even if you managed to ignore my blood and not change me we would've met. We would've fallen in love! We are meant to be! My blood sang to you. How ironic it is I was born to be with you!"
I locked my eyes with him and refused to look away. I could tell he didn't know how to respond. He was speechless. I knew how crazy this sounded for him.
He didn't say anything. Seconds became minutes and fear was starting to creep up on me. I had this ice cold feeling in my gut. Had I hurt him irreversibly? My eyes stung but no tears came. There was only one thing left I could do. To show him I was telling the truth. To show him I…loved him.
I felt the adrenaline rush. Do this! Do this! Don't be a chicken!
It might've not been so romantic and it certainly wasn't like in the movies but I grabbed his face and kissed him. My first kiss.
I shuddered. A pleasant shiver ran down my spine. His lips were so soft. He tasted like honey. No, honey wasn't sweet enough.
Despite his superior intelligence it took him a while to comprehend what was happening. I felt muscular arms locking around my waist tightly and lips moving in rhythm against my own. I felt like my legs were going numb. I was a weak immortal. My body pressed into his, molding to fit his form.
I was left wanting more. Way more. I might've been a little too enthusiastic because my strength caused us to fall in the snow. Me on top of him. We didn't care. I curled my fingers into his hair pulling his face closer to mine. Our lips met again. His tongue brushed over my lip, almost begging me for entrance. I allowed him. It sparked my feelings and it felt like my face was becoming red with heat even though I knew better. Our tongues danced together. This kiss was… I couldn't describe it.
I felt lust! I felt euphoric!
My first French kiss. My first feelings of lust. My first love and he would be my last.
