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The ride back to Forks took longer than originally planned. My fault. I kissed him too much. Guilty. Not sorry. By the time we got there it was already dark, the Cullen villa bathing in a soft glow of manmade light which contrasted nicely against the dark sky.

Before we got out of the car I grabbed Jaspers hand pulling him back as he made a move to open the door. This sudden rush of fear clouded my mind.

" What are they going to say? I acted in a way that is unforgivable!"

He flashed me one of his gorgeous smiles: " You will be surprised how much my family can forgive. Come on, love."

He stroked my hair and kissed my forehead before getting out of the car. I was not looking forward to this particular moment. He opened the door for me like a gentlemen straight from the movies, the gesture making me smile and I flushed from the inside. Ofcourse I can't literally flush because I'm dead. My immortality was minding me less and less by the second. Sure I had worries like how was Terry going to cope and it killed me to know I couldn't visit him nor speak to him. But I had to make the best of my life. I just had to. Eternity is a long time to hate and self-pity.

I followed him swiftly and equally fast to the door. I really liked that I was faster and stronger than him. For the moment.

I heard movement inside. The door flew open, launching a small black haired girl at my neck. I stiffened for a second. I suppressed my newborn instinct to push her away and severely hurt her. I should shame myself. She was Alice. Sweet, bubbly Alice. She was family now. She was sort of my sister now I guess.

" I'm so proud of you! You made it to Alaska without… you know…accidents!" she chirped. She was almost skipping, her feet leaving the ground every other second. I smiled at her. Probably the first smile she had seen from me and hugged her back. Edward was watching the scene from a distance, scared for his beloved Alice. I understood. She looked so frail, even though I was only taller by a couple inches. I now understood the need to protect. I would go berserk if someone would hurt Jasper.

I smirked: " Relax Edward. I'm completely in control."

I released Alice walking towards him, holding out my hand for him to take it which he did. With newborn strength I pulled him towards me, wrapping my arms around him. I chuckled as he stiffened slightly.

" Listen carefully because this is the only time you are gonna hear me say it but I kind of missed you sticking your big nose into my business. Plus you play the piano pretty nicely."

A musical laugh escaped him and he slowly put his arms around me: " Yeah, nice to see you again you little brat."

I tightened my grip around him. " Ow! Now you're hurting me!"

I shrugged: " I know."

Jasper wrapped his arms around my waist and I was very aware of the warmth spreading through my chest. Esme and Carlisle welcomed us just like Emmett who tested my reflexes by swinging his fist at me. Good thing I have supreme reflexes.

Rosalie didn't spare us a glance, reading her glossy magazine. I didn't expect a warm welcome from her but at least be happy for your brother, bitch.

They were all curious about what happened, especially Alice who was almost bouncing in her seat: " So you two are together now?"

As if she didn't knew already. But were we? I looked at Jasper, uncertain about the answer myself.

" Yes we are." And I just had to smile. The way he said it. So certain that it made my stomach fill with joy. So I was officially his girlfriend now. The word girlfriend didn't seem important enough anymore, mate was a better fitting choice of word.

Rosalie smashed her magazine against the wall and disappeared to her room after giving me the nastiest glare I've ever seen. Honestly, she made me feel bad. For the first time ever she succeeded in making me feel bad. Should I apologize? I had hurt her after all mentally and physically. Later, I decided, after she cooled down. If she didn't piss me off.

" Excuse Rose." And Emmett followed her to their room to cool her off. I tried not to listen to their conversation but it was hard when you have amazing supernatural hearing and when she was screaming.

" She runs over there in all her stupidity, not even caring about the safety of humans, bats her eyelashes and he's all over her. She's forgiven the minute she walks in here and I'm supposed to be okay with that?!"

That's where I turned out. " Just ignore Rosalie." Jasper murmured in my ear. I swallowed the rising insecurity away.

I could do that, had done it so many times but why was this so different? Maybe because somewhere I knew she was right. I told him I loved him and I'm forgiven. I walk in here and I seem to be forgiven like nothing ever happened. Rosalie was right. If somebody had done me terribly wrong I wouldn't forgive them to the minute they walk in here.

Jasper and I didn't get to know each other under normal circumstances like others do. We were not normal. Months didn't pass. We didn't went on a date. And a second and a third and then kissed. Our relationship was brand new and had started way different than most. Did I mind?

I thought about it for a second an came to the conclusion I didn't. Besides, this felt way too good. The way he kissed me made sparks erupt in my veins. He was meant for me so why wait and take things slowly? I had never been one with impeccable patience.

Esme smiled motherly at Jasper and me and in her eyes I could see the intense longing for Jasper. The way a mother looked at her son. This woman's hart was too big and I wondered how many times it had been broken.

From the corner of my eye I could see Edward shaking his head slightly as my thoughts were a subject that not needed discussion at the moment. From what I under stood neither of us all had the best past or introduction to this life. And suddenly I felt shame arising in my chest. I could barely conceal it for the rest. Real shame, a new emotion for me. I was very aware of what I had done and the way I had acted. I was the worst of this family. The wildest. The most out of control.

Jaspers hand rested on my knee and I knew he was silently asking what was going on. I was going to tell him. Later.

" Not now." Edward said whispered barely audible for my ears and he gave Carlisle a warning look. I was lucky I was unconsciously concentrating on Edward's voice because if I didn't I wouldn't have heard it.

" What not now?" I asked curious about what he was referring to because I had a bad feeling.

Edward clearly didn't expected I would hear that as he stared at me unsure about what he was going to say. He exchanged a look with Carlisle. He was asking for confirmation.

" We have some news about your friend Ivy."

And then it hit me. After this certain period of time I had stopped thinking about her. I was too busy hating Jasper and keeping my bloodlust somewhat under control that I had forgotten about her. How could I?!

I automatically assumed she was okay. Happy to be relieved from a parent that was physically abusive towards her. I didn't realize that it could actually hurt her. I knew what it meant to lose a parent. And losing me too…

My hand flew to my mouth and my eyes stung but again no tears would come.

" W-What about her?" my voice sounded raspy. The flood of guilt and pain that took over me was real. Jasper tried to make it better.

I gritted my teeth in annoyance: " Don't!" Couldn't I just feel my emotions for once? Damn it!

" Someone imprinted on Ivy."

I looked at Carlisle like an idiot, gaping like a fish. Was is supposed to know what imprinting was? What did ' Someone imprinted on Ivy' mean?

Carlisle seemed to understand my ignorance about imprinting: " When a shape-shifter imprints on a specific person, he becomes unconditionally bound to her for the rest of his life. Imprintees are to wolves what mates are to us. It's a bond that can't be broken. A member of the Quileute pack has imprinted on your friend."

I was silent for the first couple of seconds as I let this information sink into my brain. Ivy had met somebody that was equally important as Jasper was for me? And he was a wolf! He was one of those disgusting wolves! He was possibly one of the wolves who had participated in a game of ' killing Lexi'!

As the seconds ticked away I slowly started to feel again. First confusion because my supernatural enemy had imprinted on my human friend from a past life. Than shock because my supernatural enemy had imprinted on my human friend from a past life. Than anger because my supernatural enemy… you get it.

To top of my emotions I felt hatred. Hatred that this dirty flea bag had introduced my best friend into the supernatural world.

The supernatural world with my kind. My kind that drank human blood. My kind who was ruled by the Volturi, the self-proclaimed kings of our race. If she knew about us she was in danger, because the first rule of keeping us secret was not telling humans about our true nature.

I had to ask the question.

" Does she know… you know about us?" my voice was shaking.

Carlisle relieved me with the answer: " No, not yet. Her imprint hasn't told her the legend yet. But I presume it won't take long before she knows about us."

" The Volturi!" I said trough gritted teeth. The word itself was enough for Carlisle to understand. The leather of the couch I was sitting on protested, almost on the edge of ripping as I was gripping it too hard. Jasper pried my fingers loose from Esme's 10,000 dollar couch.

" I don't think that will be a problem. Imprintees are forbidden to tell humans about shapeshifting and legends. Ivy would not betray her imprint with the chance of being exposed. As far as I know, the Volturi have no idea these wolves exist. They only know about the Children Of The Moon."

My eyebrows knitted together: " What are Children Of The Moon?"

" Children Of The Moon are the real werewolves. They only turn on full moon and they keep their population in stand by infecting people with a bite. They are a dying species, as the Volturi has whipped them out almost entirely."

I was not in shock this time. It didn't have the same impact as when he told me about the wolves.

I let all this information fall into place. Ivy was irrevocably in love with a wolf, who was designed to kill me and my family. The Volturi were not going to be a problem. So that meant I could… have contact with Ivy?

I didn't foresee a problem as she had - against my will - become a part of the supernatural world.

" I don't think that's a good idea, Lexi." Edward said. I turned to look at him. Sincere sorry was written on his face.

I wanted to get angry. To scream and smash things apart. But I held myself back. There was no point in doing that.

I closed my eyes. Jasper wrapped his arm around my shoulders, his lips briefly touching my temple. I savored the moment.

" Can't I just write a note and have Jasper drop it off? Or maybe next year when I'm more in control I can see her? She's part of the supernatural anyway so why lie to her about my disappearing?"

My voice had become a plea and I truly hoped Carlisle could see the desperation in my eyes that clung to every piece of my heart.

" I'm so sorry Lexi. I don't think it would be a good idea to have contact. If the wolves find out one of us bit you, the treaty has been broken and a war will come. Maybe in a few decades you can go check up on her sometime."

He briefly touched my shoulder, his fingers squeezing softly in my skin before he got up and left.

In that moment I did what was necessary.

I swallowed the big lump in my throat away, buried my face in my mate's neck and cried silently as his arms caged me against his chest.