Disclaimer: And while I continue to be hopeful, my patience is getting a little ragged.
Some days we stand so close that all I would have to do was lift my hand slightly and I could brush my fingers across your check. I know that you can feel me close behind you, because while we stand there my senses are in overdrive, every breath I take is perfumed with a scent that is uniquely yours and I can feel your body heat radiate like waves. And I know that when I stand next to you that, that moment in time is all the heaven I'll ever want and I never want to be parted from you.
'And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now'
When we stand this close all I can think about is you and that moment in time. All other thoughts go right out the window. But these precious moments never last long enough and you step away from me and I'm struck with an overwhelming sense of loss. I just want to reach out grab you and pull you close again.
'And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner to later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight'
I really don't want anyone to figure out my obsession with you, not even you. There's no way that anyone could ever understand my feelings for you. Not even I fully understand my feelings. I realize that I should hate you but somehow I cannot. The worst part is you'll never know of my feelings.
'And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am'
I wish that I could make you cry for me, just to show that you cared even just a little. Or see just for a moment the feelings I feel for you reflected in your eyes. Some days it feels like I'm watching everything happen, that I'm not actually a part of what's going on. But then something jolts me back to reality and I reminded again that I'm without you.
'And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in you lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive'
Everyday I'm haunted with the idea that my secret will be found out. That instead of the hate I show the world, they'll actually see the love I feel for you instead. I wish that I could tell you everything but I know that you'll never accept me.
'And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am'
Maybe someday I'll gather up my courage and tell you how I actually feel. There's a small part of me that hopes that you'll accept and return my feelings. But how could you ever love, a Slytherin?
