We as Doctor's are always looking for a reason why something has failed.

April woke up with puffy red eyes; she was an emotional wreck. Ryan had asked if she wanted company but she kindly declined, they would meet up later at the hospital. She did not want to burden him with her issues; she did call him to Seattle out of the blue. April has been contemplating for the last fifteen minutes whether or not to enter the building of her workplace. She's never called in sick and has no making sick days she accomplished over the years; she could use one today. Maybe that will annoy every and then they'd talk about her even more how she's failed to move on from Jackson while he has from her.

Was our technique the cause, was the patient not physically robust enough to handle the surgery.

As April walked into Seattle Grace she barely was acknowledged, she immediately walked up to the nurses station and took her tablet. She was looking down so no one would even attempt to ask her to do something. She was in no mood to emotionally deal with anyone; she just wanted to take a long swig of her favorite drink. It's only seven in the morning, and everyone has driven a pregnant woman to that degree of stress.

We tend to believe that we are invincible, but what we as surgeons learn. We are not. We are only human.

April was heading down the busy halls of Seattle Grace when she spotted Jackson with the blonde doctor. Everyone seemed to enjoy her presence; nobody honestly liked April only Jackson. April subconsciously put her hand on my stomach; she vowed to be the mother and father for her baby. She decided last night; she would not involve Jackson in any way. He left her; he called quits while she attempted to repair their marriage. He used others to distract her from the big picture at hand; she only had Jackson. Arizona can't keep a secret, and she was too obnoxious to become friends with the other doctors before Nathan came along. Jackson deserved to be happy even if that meant April lost her happiness along the way; she owed him that.

April's knuckles were turning white from the deadly grip she processed on her tablet. Mark Sloan, was talking to the duo and having a wonderful time, and April knew she was about to ruin their fun.

"Dr. Sloan, here are the scans you requested for your patient from yesterday."

April handed the tablet off to the Sr. Attending, everyone in the group stopped talking and stared at the young trauma surgeon. They gave her a look to disappear and that she desperately wanted too.

Mark's expression changed from joyous to grim. His patient was dying fast; she had a tumor that was pressing on her brain. Before he could go into a repair her face from a severe car accident she was in yesterday, he needed Derek to remove the tumor.

"Damn it…" Mark whispered. He glanced up at the redhead; he glared at her. "Take her up and get her a CT and page Dr. Bailey. Page me when you're done." He forced the tablet back to April; she winced due to the tablet hitting her chest.

Jackson sighed dramatically and followed suit, leaving the blonde doctor and April alone in the hallway. He was a drama queen at times in April's opinion, but then again he and everyone else at her workplace liked him more than her.

"So, I haven't introduced myself to you yet. I'm Dr. Michele Mayer I've transferred from John Hopkins; I'm the new head of trauma." She said.

As Michele was going to shake her hand, someone had called her name in the distance. She then abruptly walked away from April, leaving her in stunned silence. April was supposed to be head of trauma. Owens said he would name her this Friday. It's only Thursday, what the heck happened. Who found this girl in this short amount of time, why did everyone have to ruin her day?

April could feel the tears; she wanted to cry. But I'm A Solider she just needed to find Owens and clear up any confusion. She twisted the skin on her hand to stop the tears. She did not want to look weak in front of anyone.

April was sitting in CT waiting for the patient to be ready. She was silent the entire time; the nurses had tried to interact with her. But she wanted none of that. April just wanted to be alone for the moment; she needed time to process what was to come about from her life. She needed a vacation from everyone.

The Patient had organ failure due to a tumor. Nothing was being probably taken care of in this woman's body. But she was only coming in because of a car accident that broke her nose. She was dying, and no one could truly help her, only slow down the process.

April heard the beep of the computer. She slowly walked into the CT chamber and rolled The patient out of the machine. It's very emotional knowing your patient is dying. The woman was a mother of three; she didn't deserve anything she was forced to endure.

"Let's get you ready for surgery; We'll take this one step at a time I promise." April squeezed her hand.

The nurse had come in with the gurney, they transported the patient and exited the room. April was oddly quite, that did not go unnoticed at Seattle Grace, but nobody was friendly enough with the red head to ask her what was wrong. Or honestly, bring them to care. When April was having an emotional day, she truly was happy nobody wanted to talk to her about what she was feeling. She'd rather

As the turned the corner April spotted Mark and Michele walking into the OR. She did not want to talk to the doctors. They were good friends of Jackson, who always would complain about her to Mark. He'd always be rude to her for a week and treat her with nothing but disrespect because he's following "bro" code. She disliked everyone when they'd take Jackson's side in an argument.

She followed suit, leaving Karen with the nurse at hand. Mark and Michele were both laughing but stopped once they realized April was in the room.

"Dr. Sloan, here is the CT Sc-AH-an." April yelped.

She placed her hand on her stomach and hunched over. The pain was sharp and felt like a stab to the stomach. April's breathing became labored. She forced herself upright; both attending's were looking at her questioningly. She handed the tablet off to him and walked out the surgical room. She had no idea what caused her pain, but she didn't want to know why.

April found a bench and sat down. She closed her eyes and began to take deep breaths. Her breathing was labored.

"Well if it isn't April Kepner my ex-daughter in law."

April had taken another deep breath before she forced her eyes open. Catherine Avery, the devil reincarnated herself. April never hated anyone, but Catherine comes to a close I want to push you in traffic.

"Hello, Catherine."

April forced a smile, but she was so tired she could care less.

"Do you know where my son and his new "friend" are?" Catherine said smugly.

April closed her eyes; she needed coffee or a drink before she could deal with another Avery hurting her.

"Dr. Mayer is in surgery and as for your son I do not know, and I could be careless right now. If you need me, Dr. Avery, I have patients to tend to right now."

April slowly got up and brushed past the stunned doctor. She turned the corner and bumped into Derek. Meredith was right next to him and gave her a dirty look. Usually, April would attempt to apologize, but she couldn't bring herself to care.

"Oh, sorry Dr. Shepherd."

April brushed past them as well and continued to the trauma unit of the hospital. As she entered the trauma center, she immediately spotted Jackson and Owens talking. She walked up to the duo, and they stopped their conversation, Jackson looked ready to walk away from her.

"Your mom is looking for you Dr. Avery." She said. Jackson was surprised she didn't call him by his first name, or attempt to make conversation with him. She turned to Owens "Also, I'm leaving for the rest of the day I have an emergency to take care of. And I hope you got the email I sent you this morning Chief."

April left before anyone could say a word to her. She entered the attending lounge; nobody was in the room. April collected her belonging; she knew it was time for her to leave Seattle.

April had her last doctor's appointment in Seattle this afternoon. Her baby is safe and healthy, and she already has a doctor waiting for her in New York, she'll meet with him on Monday.

Arizona had dinner with Sofia, Mark, and Callie, so April was alone tonight. She chose, this time, to pack up her belongings. She didn't want to explain to Arizona why she was leaving; she just needed time to leave and be by herself again.

April walked out of the apartment and walked across the hall to Mark's; she knew there was a fifty-fifty chance Jackson was there. She just didn't want to deal with the trouble of going all the way to his apartment and speaking with him.

We as Doctors are afraid of change, we are quick to stay with the same routine

She knocked three times and waited. She heard shuffling going on from inside the apartment; the door slowly opened up. Jackson's clothing was all over the place on his body. April was not a fool she knew he had a guest over with him. April felt like crying, but she knew it wasn't the time.

It only takes one time for a mistake to be made, for us to change our opinion

"Jackson, may I talk to you quickly?"

Jackson sighed "Can you make it quick?" Jackson took a step outside the apartment.

He gave her a look of making it quick. She took a deep breath and fiddled with the hem of her shirt.

"So I wanted to ask you...um. If I happened to be pregnant how would you take it?"

we can't be afraid of change; we have to go head first in a new environment to know it's okay to want something new.

Jackson looked livid. "April, if you happened to be pregnant is this some sick way of making me stay with you by coming up with this idea? April was over okay, just let me live my life in peace already right?" Jackson said.

Sometimes were given second chances.

April should have started crying; she instead grew a small smile. She turned on her heels and left him in the hallway alone. Ryan was sitting on the couch with April's bags pack. He was on his tablet looking over patient information that hospital had sent him.

April knew this move was a step in the right direction, but she was also scared as well.

But that makes surgeons so great, we adapt to change easily

Yep, here is chapter 2. I've been working non-stop this week. But I will upload Scream and Shout tomorrow afternoon the revamped version. But in this story, Arizona does not know about April. Only two people know about her pregnancy. I changed Max's name to Ryan because of a reason you'll know later. Yes, Jackson will find out but much much later. Hope you all like it.