Esme

I wondered through the house silently. Carlisle and I had lost track of time and he was almost late to work this morning. I couldn't hear any sounds, but I knew at least a few of the kids were home. I had to go clean the house up a bit, but I didn't want to cross paths with Emmett or Jasper. It was too quiet for them to be home, right?

I walked into the living room, and I was wrong. They were home; they were just concentrating really hard on their chess game. Rosalie and Alice were looking through fashion magazines and Bella and Edward were sitting together silently.

"Morning sunshine." Emmett smirked. "I hear you had a good night. Edward didn't warn us of your intentions and he and Bella left beforehand. Alice and Jasper went to hunt. Rose and I were left scarred. We eventually had to leave."

"Did you learn anything that time, Bella?" Jasper laughed.

"Shut up." She threw a book at his head. It hit his shoulder.

"Nice shot." He teased.

Bella picked up a small sculpture off the table. I grabbed it out of her hand before she had the chance to throw it and I put it back in its rightful spot. "Stop."

"It's ugly anyway…" Bella said quietly.

"It' your dads, from a long time ago. I doubt he would be too happy to see it broken."

"I'm surprised he didn't break you." Emmett smirked again.

"Okay, I'm leaving."

"Where are you going?" Alice asked.

"Anywhere else."

"Don't go to the hospital. I'm sure he likes his office…" Emmett called after me before he and Jasper broke out in laughter.

I rolled my eyes as I walked to the door. I grabbed my keys and appeared beside my car. When I opened it, water flushed out. My car was filled with fucking water.

"EMMETT!" I screamed.

They all appeared at the end of the garage except for Emmett. He stood outside of it, and popped his head around the corner. "Yes?" He asked so innocently.

The others were trying to hold back their laughs except for Rosalie. She looked shocked. "What the hell?" She said, turning to him.

"It was Edward." He tried.

"Edward is smarter than to leave this behind…" I held up his shirt. It was by the front wheel, where I assumed he took it off so it wouldn't get drenched.

"How did you even do that?" Bella asked.

"With great difficulty…" Emmett smirked before disappearing behind the wall.

"You just wait until Carlisle gets back!" I yelled after him.

"Shit." I heard him say quietly before the front door closed.

"It's just water, Esme." Alice said.

"It was dyed blue." I pointed to the ground which was now stained blue. "The whole interior in my car is fucking blue."

Rosalie appeared at my side and she looked in the car. "Oh my god…"

"If I could cry, I would be a complete mess right now." I said, staring at the blue.

"Don't worry. Dad will make him buy you a new one, and he will make him scrub this stain out, too."

"No, I'll do it." I looked at the stain.

"No, you really won't." Rosalie disappeared and returned in less than a second. "Take mine." He placed her keys in my hand.

"What time does Carlisle finish?" Edward asked.

"2."

"Everyone make sure you're home at 2. I have a feeling it will get very entertaining." Edward smirked at Alice.

"Oh yes. I can't wait to watch Emmett clean that up…" She laughed lightly and turned around, pulling Jasper with her.

I looked at Emmett's jeep. It would kill him if I crashed it. I contemplated taking it and driving it over a cliff.

"Don't." Edward said. "Carlisle will be just as mad at you."

"I wasn't really doing to do it…"

"You considered it…" A small smile hinted at his face before he and Bella walked back inside too.

"Do you want me to come with you?"

"It's not the end of the world, Rose."

"Esme, it was a wedding gift from Carlisle. If that doesn't scream "important" I don't know what does."

"It's a car. I can think of other things that he gave me when we married."

"Like what?" She asked curious.

"Him. You, Bella and Jasper."

"That is so lame."

"But it's true."

"You know what? I think you and dad should go somewhere. Even if it's just a night or a few days. Back to Isle Esme, or London or something." She said.

"He has work, sweetheart."

"I think they owe him a hundred years' worth of days off…"

"No, it's okay."

"No, it's not. Because if Emmett hears that again, you or dad will probably kill him. If I hear that again, I will never be able to look at either of you again—"

"Okay, we're done with this conversation." I said, giving her keys back and walking past her.

"Now where are you going?"

"Hunting."


I drank more than I needed, considering I wasn't thirsty to start with. I jumped from tree to tree and eventually ended up on the cliff face. I sat on a rock and watched the waves for hours. Looking out into the water, memories of the last days of my human life came rolling back.

After a very long time of remembering it all, I stood up and walked to the very edge of the ledge, looking down into the water.

I took 3 deep breaths before closing my eyes. I let my body fall forwards. I knew it wasn't going to do anything except ruin my clothes, but I tried anyway. Tearless sobs escaped my throat despite it feeling as if it had closed up.

Just as my whole body began to fall towards the water, a hand grabbed my arm and pulled me back. I gasped and turned around to see Carlisle staring at me with his deep topaz eyes.

I was still sobbing.

"Esme? What happened?" He pulled me into his arms.

I heard footsteps run toward us from the trees. When I opened my eyes and looked over Carlisle's shoulder, Sam and Paul appeared in their human forms. Carlisle turned around.

"Sorry, we saw Esme from down there…" Sam pointed to a low point on the land beside the beach. "We didn't know what was going on when we saw you shaking and walking towards the edge so we came up."

"Thank you, Sam. Paul." Carlisle nodded.

Sam nodded once and they disappeared into the trees again.

Carlisle turned his head back to me, "What happened?" He repeated his question.

"I came to hunt, and then I was sitting on the rock and…I don't know. The past came back to haunt me…"

He looked back at where I was standing a few minutes ago.

"I know it wouldn't have done anything, but it was worth a try…"

"Worth a try?" He swallowed hard. "Esme, that isn't healthy."

I looked down at the ground below us.

"That is suicidal. You can never do that. To me or to our children."

"I knew it wouldn't work!" I argued.

"And what is to say that next time you won't find something that does?"

I didn't know how to reply, "I'm sorry."

"I knew that wouldn't work too, but it still scared the shit out of me." He wrapped his arms around me again. I felt a small part of me relax as his arms tightened, but I had a bad feeling in my gut.

He kissed the top of my head. "Do you want to go home?"

I sighed when he reminded me of home. "You are going to be in an even worse mood when we get there..."

"Why?"

"Emmett…"

"And to think this was as bad as it got. If Emmett has done something extreme, he isn't allowed back inside for a week."

"It's not that bad…he just stained the garage floor and the whole interior of my car blue."

"What!?"

"Yeah, he filled my car with water that he had dyed blue and completely ruined the car."

"The one I got you for a wedding present?"

I nodded my head. What other one was there? Alice crashed my old one when she had a vision while driving it.


We walked home at a human pace. He brought up the incident that I had just caused again and made me talk to him about it, and by the time we reached the house, I didn't regret speaking anymore. It was nice to finally not hide anything for the first time. Carlisle had now seen me in every state possible.

He walked straight to the garage before entering the house.

"Hey, how did you know I was out there?"

"Rosalie met me on the porch when I got home and said you went hunting this morning and hadn't come back. She was very worried."

"Oh…sorry."

"Stop apologising, sweetheart." He placed a soft kiss on my lips before walking to the car. He looked at the stain on the ground first, and then he opened the car door.

He slammed it shut. "What did you say to him?"

"I didn't know what to say, so I told him to just wait until you came home…Rosalie said you would make him clean the stain from the ground and buy me a new car. Please don't make him do either of those. I'll do it."

"Esme, it is really hard to discipline a child trapped in an adult's body who is also a vampire. Let him do the damn cleaning."

"Okay." I didn't want to make Carlisle feel any worse or any angrier than he already was. I should never have taken those steps to the ledge.

"Come on." He took my hand gently and we walked inside.

Edward knew instantly what had happened. I couldn't push it out of my mind, and I doubt Carlisle could either.

He stood up and hugged me. "I love you." He whispered. "We all love you. Please don't try that again."

Bella stood up when she heard the words. "What?"

"Where is Emmett?" Carlisle asked.

"He's upstairs in the game room with Jasper." Edward said.

Carlisle walked up the stairs, and I could see the anger in his body language.

"Carlisle, wait. Stop." I tried, but he didn't listen.

I followed him up the stairs. Edward ad Bella trailed behind me.

He stormed through the open door. "You are fucking kidding me."

"Language." I said quietly from behind him.

"Oh dude, you're dead." Jasper whispered.

Rosalie hit him. "Shh."

"Dining room. Now. All of you." He said coldly. He stood to the side so they could exit the room. I did too and waited for them all to pass me before I followed.