Chapter 4

My brows pushed together at the sight of him standing outside the house knocking on the door. The sight made me frustrated that he couldn't just leave things as they were. Once my little cousin opened the door and pointed in my general direction, my body froze.

My. Taisho turned around to look, catching sight of me standing by the neighbor's driveway. His brows knitted together before saying think you to Iichi.

'Damn it, damn it, damn it… What am I supposed to do now?' I asked myself, taking a step backward.

I could feel the knots twisting inside me as I watched him come closer.

"So you are well," Mr. Taisho stated, sounded a little relieved.

"Yeah… I'm well."

"Hanaki told me that you wouldn't get out of bed," he explained, his golden orbs locking with mine, "I was concerned."

I let out a small scoff before forcing myself to look away from him. I didn't want to get pulled into his gaze.

"I didn't get up because I can't sleep very well," I lied, my brows furrowing.

It wasn't his place for him to come 'check up' on me.

"You shouldn't lie," he told me.

"What I do shouldn't concern you. I'm not yours to be concerned about," I muttered before trying to go around him, "Now if you excuse me, I need to get home."

A hand took hold of my wrist, stopping me from walking.

"Let me go," I demanded, trying to pull away from him.

With my words, he pulled me against him and wrapped his arms around my waist.

"I will let you go if you convince me that my touch does nothing to you," he said lowly into my ear, sending a chill down my spine.

"I don't feel anything," I told him as my brows pushed together in frustration, "I get nothing when you do this."

His arms merely tightened their hold, "I can tell that you're lying."

I could feel his warm breath against my neck and his head against mine. My muscles tightened as his lips traced against the crook of my neck.

"How am I supposed to believe that you would want a student of all people?" I asked him, trying to ignore the knots in my stomach, "You're a teacher and I man, I'm a student and a teenager. I can't offer anything you would want."

"You wouldn't need to offer anything," he assured me, "I will not take or force anything of you. All I request is a chance."

My heart ached with his words. I was confused… and his closeness wasn't helping the matter.

"Why choose me? Why choose someone like me?" I prodded/

What made me any more desirable than anyone else?

"A teacher can fall in love with a student he doesn't know."

I shook my head; not believe that it could be true. People needed to know each other before that could like or love each other. I started to struggle out of his hold and tried to pull away.

"No he can't," I disagreed, being held in place, "No one would love or want me."

I didn't want to be loved. I didn't want to love anyone either. I could survive on my own without being with someone else.

"Once chance," he said lowly, "One chance is all I ask to prove you wrong."

"You're not planning on letting me go until I agree, are you?" I muttered, pulling my head away from his.

"I like to have what I want."

"And I like to be left alone, but it doesn't seem like we're getting the things we want," I stated with annoyance.

I was glad that my back was to him; that I didn't have to look at his face. Being held against my will… being asked to give him a chance… For some reason it all seemed ironic in a way.

Letting out a sigh, I scowled at the ground, "Once. That's it."

I really just wanted to go home and be left alone.

He held me tighter for a moment, "After school tomorrow in the classroom."

My brows pushed together as I reluctantly nodded my head. I could feel the knots become worse at my agreement. They wouldn't leave me alone.

"…Alright."

He released me and started to walk toward his car.

"I'll be waiting," he mused, turning his head back to look at me.

There was a small smirk on his face and it had caught me off guard. His eyes were intent as they stared back at me before he looked forward again.

'I'm not so comfortable with this…' I thought to myself, the whole situation hitting me like a train.

Suddenly I had become involved in something I had been trying to prevent; something that would destroy my sense of peace.

Once Mr. Taisho was gone, I went for the house.

"Damn it!" I hissed at myself, "How could I be so stupid? I should have just kept saying no! Damn it!"

Iichi watched me with wide eyes, hearing my violent cursing.

"Why is Ku so angry?" he asked me, his tone quiet.

"Ku did something really stupid," I explained before hitting my head against the wall.

"That sounded like an ouch…" he continued to worry.

"I feel nothing," I stated before doing it again.

"Would Double Dash make it better?"

"No Iichi, I don't think it will…" I sighed, shaking my head, "but I'll play with you anyway."

"Yay!"


His golden orbs looked around the hallway of the school. He was searching the faces as they passed him; heading to their classrooms. On the ride home the previous night he had been looking forward to this day. That had all been put aside once he pulled into his own driveway. He had the misfortune of having an unwelcome visitor to his estate. The mood had been ruined and he had yet to gain it back. He waited in the hall with hopes that seeing her would put him in a more pleasant mood.

Something about her seemed to put him at ease. She calmed his frustrations and pushed everything away… She was a reality he had never felt before; something he wanted for himself.

"Good mourning Mr. Taisho," a female student greeted him, "I was wondering if you could help me solve this problem with the homework. I didn't really understand it."

"Could it wait till class begins?" he questioned, raising a brow.

"Isn't the homework due at the beginning of class?" she wondered with some confusion.

He sighed inwardly at the presence of the girl; not in the mood to make conversation.

"Very well."


I sighed heavily as I walked into the school. I had to take my cousin to day care before coming to school. Since I wouldn't be home he needed someone to watch him for a while.

"Ku!" Sana called me with a smile, "I'm glad you came to school today."

"I'm not," I complained, "I was better off at home."

She patted my shoulder as she laughed.

"It's better for you to be here."

"I know, but I don't like it," I said with a tired sigh, "Could you do my a favor tonight?"

"What would you like?"

"Could you baby sit Iichi tonight?" I wondered, putting a scowl on my face, "I have to go to detention tonight."

"Pay me for it and you have a deal."

I handed Sana her pay and nodded my head before she grabbed my shoulder.

"Look at that," she said with a small laugh, "They just go right to him, don't they?"

"Go right to whom?"

"See for your self," she laughed, pointing across the busy hallway.

My eyes followed her direction and caught sight of Mr. Taisho helping three different girls 'do their homework'. Each girls was a member of his fan-club; one being its leader. It was a more discreet fan-club that was only allowed so many members and all of them were female. None of them spoke outside of the terms of the fan-club. It was only natural that the entire female body knew of it.

I shook my head at the sight of the girls fawning all over him.

'Why couldn't he have picked one of them?' I wondered with a school.

"I know. It's really sad isn't it?" I asked her, brows furrowing.

I had to turn my head away when his eyes had met mine. I wouldn't get caught staring at him.

"We should probably get to class," I said lowly, pushing through the crowd of people blocking the doorways in the halls.

"Yeah, I can't keep my breakfast down watching stuff like that," Sana laughed as she followed after me.

"How did the movie go? You drag him to see another zombie movie?" I wondered, raising a brow.

"No, I tried to go for a more action based this time," she mused, a grin forming, "I know he hates watching zombies eat people and blood spraying all over the screen."

That was something about Sana that not a lot of people expected. No one expected her to like Slasher movies where all the characters ended up dying and being ripped to shreds. She really liked the blood… and a lot of people found it a little disturbing.

"Then why do you keep bringing him to see them?" I asked her, letting out a laugh, "You know they freak him out."

"He clings to my arm when someone dies," Sana admitted; blushing, "It makes me feel special."

I grinned with her then. It seemed like the two of them were steadily becoming closer. She was getting what she wanted.

"What about you?" she wondered, leaning closer to me, "Anyone caught your eye yet?"

My jaw tightened at Sana's question. Unfortunately I had caught someone's eye when I hadn't been looking.

"No one's really that interesting around here," I told her with a small shrug, "I'm not that eager to meet anyone anyway."

I couldn't look at her; I had my eye turned to the side.

"Who is it?" she prodded, "You only look away from me when you're trying to hide something."

I shook my head and sighed, "I would rather not say."

"Now I have to hear it," she exclaimed, grabbing my wrist and pulling me into the nearest girl bathroom.

I leaned against a sink with crossed arms as she stood and stared.

"Tell me."

"I haven't had my eye on anyone," I told her, my brows pushing together in frustration, "Someone's… had their eyes on me…"

Sana's eyes grew wide before she let out a huge smile.

"Who?" she asked, shaking my shoulders, "Who?"

'I have to tell someone. Otherwise I think I'll go insane…'

Sana was my best friend. I could count on her for anything and that went for beating some sense into me too. If there was anyone for me to tell, it was Sana.

"Promise me you'll think it's crazy," I pleaded, looking at her with earnest eyes.

"I promise."

Taking a breath, I tried to ready myself.

"Remember how we were in the ice cream parlor the other day?" I asked her, not waiting for an answer, "Well I guess he was concerned… and the other day during detention… he kissed me."

It only took Sana a couple seconds to stop grinning at what I was telling her.

"During detention?" she asked with a raised brow, "Someone else had detention other than you?"

I shook my head, looking down at the floor.

"Then who…" her eyes widened at the realization, "…Mr. Taisho?"

I winced at his name and the memory. Something like that should never have happened.

"You said no right?" she asked, grabbing both of my shoulders, "Please tell me you said no."

My green eyes stared hatefully at the wall. I really hadn't been given much of a chance.

"Apparently no wasn't an option," I said lowly, waiting for Sana to hit me, "He only asked for one chance. I can say no afterward."

"Ku, your aunt would be furious if she heard something like this-"

"I know she would," I cut her off, looking her in the eye, "Why do you think I didn't come to school? I was trying to stay away from him… but the bastard found me anyway."

Sana let out a sigh as she tried to take the whole situation in. I could tell by her expression that she was mulling things over in her head.

"I know what's at risk, and I'm aware that I'm on really thin ice. I need to get a grasp on everything," I explained to her.

Her dark brown eyes locked with mine before she patted my shoulder.

"Please just do the right thing," Sana told me, giving me a hug.

"I'll do my best."

"Now let's get to class before someone gets really upset," she laughed before pulling me behind her.


When he had seen her in the hallway, he had seen the scowl on her face as she turned away from him. The thought of her becoming jealous made him smile inwardly. He knew that it wasn't the case, but he was allowed to consider such things. Through the day he found that time could go no slower than it was. He wished that each class would go by more quickly.

Once history had come around, he found that she had put her head down on her desk immediately. He had to stop himself from glancing at her. He could tell that she was tired and that she had had a bad afternoon. He thought it best to not further her misery in the classroom.


My hands clenched against my desk when the bell rang at the end of the day. I had been dreading the last bell all day long. At the sound of each ring I had winced. I scowled when I felt someone touch my shoulder.

"Good luck Ku," Sana whispered to me, patting my shoulder as she went by.

"Yeah," I laughed, shaking me head.

I definitely needed more than luck right now.

'I need a lot of good things… I don't really know about luck…'

Silence fell over the classroom, and it was just the two of us sitting in the chairs. Daring to lift my head, I caught his golden orbs looking at me. I had to force myself to look away. I didn't want him looking into me and seeing the things I was trying to hide. Things that were there only for me to see.

"So… what were you planning on doing with me?" I asked, raising a brow as I stared at the floor.

"Take you to my estate," he explained, packing up a few papers, "We may do what we please."

My back went rigid at the mention of his house. He was inviting me over like it was no problem at all.

"Don't you think that's a little… soon?" I asked him with confusion, "Bringing me back to your house?"

The thought of it baffled me. It seemed like something a couple would do, and we were not a couple.

"A public event would be a little inappropriate, don't you think?" he questioned, raising his brow.

I thought about it for a few moments before sighing. If people from school saw us together then they would have gotten the wrong idea. It would have been reported to the school and I would have been expelled. Public occasions were definitely not the way to go in such situations.

'Damn it… I'm screwed…'

"Yeah, I suppose that you're right," I agreed, getting to my feet, "I need to go get changed."

Taking my bag, I went to the washroom and for changed in a stall. I still couldn't believe that I was going through with the once chance. It sounded crazy in my own mind, let alone someone else's. I couldn't imagine how it would have sounded to someone else.

"Hey Shena, did you see that this morning?" a girl's voice asked from the bathroom.

I paused in opening the bathroom stall. I didn't know anyone else had been in there.

"Yeah! Can you believe that?" another girl sounded confused.

"Abukara of all people," said the first girl, "His eyes followed her all the way down the hallway. I couldn't believe it."

My eyes widened as I realized who the two girls were. They were members of Mr. Taisho's fan-club… friends with the club leader.

I definitely couldn't go out there now. They would eat me alive.

"Out of the two, I always thought it would have been Hanaki," stated the other, "I never thought that anyone would go for Abukara. She's so… intimidating…"

"I heard she almost killed someone once…"

'Does everyone know about that?' I wondered, my brows pushing together.

The door creaked open before if shut again; they were gone.

My forehead hit the bathroom stall door before I pushed it open. Hearing those girls only made me wonder what the hell I was doing all the more. My aunt wouldn't be the only person not impressed with me. I was sure that there were a lot of girls that wouldn't be either.

"What the hell are you doing Ku?" I asked myself as I stared into the mirror.

Did I really want to cause myself so much trouble? Or was it just constantly chasing after me?

Shaking my head, I went back to the classroom. I threw my bag into the corner behind the door when I saw the head of the fan-club standing in front of Mr. Taisho's desk, looking at her workbook.

'She must have some by to speak with him about her homework…' I thought dully, rolling my eyes as I went to the back of the classroom to start putting chairs up.

I was going to have to pretend that I was still in detention.

By the time she decided to leave, I had made my way onto the sinks. I was busy scrubbing when his hand took hold of my wrist.

"What are you doing?" I asked, my brows furrowing.

His head pressed against mine and I could feel his free hand wrapping around my waist.

"Being glad that she has left," he said lowly, his breath against my neck.

"You have over thirty girls fawning all over you and you're happy that one of them left?" I asked, pulling my hand back.

"The only one I want fawning all over me," he started, turning me around to face him, "is the only one who doesn't seem interested."

My eyes locked with his as he stared down at me; causing my brows to push together in frustration.

"You're angry," he stated, standing up.

I let out a sigh before shaking my head. I didn't even know why I was angry. I mean… I didn't even like him… Watching other girls try to flirt with him shouldn't have bothered me.

"No, I'm not," I lied, looking away from him, "Stop looking for things you're not supposed to know."

"Come," he murmured, pulling my arm, "This is not the place for this."

Mr. Taisho led me to his car before it was out on the road. We were headed in the opposite direction from where I lived.

Sighing, I leaned my head against the car window, "I can't believe this…"

I was falling for it. Inside I could feel the knots twisting together… the jealousy… I honestly couldn't believe it. It was the last thing I needed to happen in my life… and I had to make sure that it didn't.

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