Chapter 3. The fears of a monster.
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It was her. He hugged her tight when he felt her let out a breathy chuckle; he couldn't stop the tears for flowing at one point soaking the cape of the purpled hair girl. He started sobbing into her body his words muffled and incoherent.
"Raven!" He finally said looking up at her with a blurry look full of tears. She smiled. "It's you!"
"I told you so" She said softly. "You have to trust me"
"But… but…" He started saying but she pressed a finger on his lips quieting him.
"Hush now, how about we continue this over the meal I made, it might be not so good but it's something and I know your starving" He wanted to complain but he felt his stomach growl and the he pampered it.
Food.
The food was delicious; some kind of pasta with the best sauce he had ever tried and the cheese was amazing like nothing he'd tried before. He dare think that this food might be the best he'd ever tried, again he wonder if he was drugged.
"You may think I'm a good cook" She said scratching her head. "But I'm not, it's actually the ingredients that grow here that taste like that and with a little help of magic and this cook book I can make it taste decent" She had a normal cook book on one hand and her magic book in another.
"Aren't you going to eat?" She shook her head watching calmly how Beast Boy devoured his food.
"I don't eat normal food anymore" She said with a smile. "Only essence of universe and stars" She joked sounding like a poet. "Besides it is pretty hard to create life in this universe only a few things live here… mostly plants and crops and stuff like that… animals I can't so I didn't bother with eating later on" She said. The green boy swallowed and then look at her.
"It must be lonely…" He looked around the colorful room they were in. "To create such universe without a single person, why would you want that?" He asked looking down at the end.
"I didn't want that Beast Boy it was the circumstance of the world and all beings that made it the only logical thing for me to want" She smiled. "And I'm quite happy" That broke his heart and he couldn't help getting triggered.
"Then why would you say you love me!? What you say hurts me! You want to be alone then-!" He was cut off by Raven quickly.
"But I notice that even in the perfection of my lonely world that it all meant nothing without you in it" She said with a blank face. "Once you get a try of loving you one can't exactly stop" Beast Boy stared shock as he face turn red but quickly glared down at the ground cursing his traitorous mind, shying away.
"Is that why you let the trail to find you?" He asked. She shook her head.
"Quite frankly I don't remember letting the trail, once my transformation began all of my past feelings were in control and I was in peace with letting go of all of it; the "creature" you saw me as was almost in final state and soon enough I would've been in peace with being what I was… what I am: power in solitude" She gripped tightly at her cloak. "But the trailed existed… and it's clear it was meant only for you so I supposed that the version of me that you knew that began with the transformation wasn't ready to let go and subconsciously let the trail" She shrug. "So I guess yes and quite frankly I'm glad… I'd miss this… feeling"
"It's the only explanation" She continued. "And now that you're here I know there wasn't a day I didn't think of this, all this time my world felt empty and getting to my final state terrified me because there was this feeling that I wanted to keep feeling but couldn't without you. When you got here it hit me, if I continued the transformation it meant I would forget of the feeling I feel when I think of you… but before I was also craving it" She smiled. "Forgetting was a blessing, waiting for it so I couldn't feel the pain of being away from you"
"So… To stop loving me?" Garfield asked trying to sound serious and non-caring. She smiled.
"Not exactly but yes"
"That doesn't make sense" he said as he pouted.
"Does not? Or you just don't want it to?"
"Well! You can't just tell me this pretty things of love and expect me to think it's alright! Do you know what you have caused by leaving!?" He asked angrily.
"Well of course not" She said with that fake playful smile.
"Why are you smiling!?" He spat out.
"Oh… I don't know… Wasn't I…" She smiled again seeing Beast Boy all flustered. "Why don't you tell me how I made you feel?" She said playfully expecting a confession but then she saw Beast Boy's teary eyes and immediately regretted her words. He stood up and spilled his food and drink.
"Like I don't matter" He said with a brittle voice. She looked at him horrified at what she did she let out a nervous laugh. "Don't laugh at me!" He yell as he ran off. Leaving her alone like she wanted it to be. Alone but with him.
"I… I'm sorry" She whispered as she felt a tear forming on her left eye and slide along her cheek. "What am I doing?"
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He was floating in the weird pink water of that strange room as an otter but then he transformed into a shark and sunk into the water, seeing how big it was in its depth he began to swim seeing a huge ecosystem of corals and an aquatic fauna all of pinks and pearly stuff, full of treasures, he saw a boat rusting in the bottom.
"How's this even here?" He remembered that Raven created all of this just so it looked pretty and aesthetic.
He continued to swim towards it and as he entered the majestic boat he saw a bright light coming from downstairs, where a whole was in the ground he visualized something like a storage thing where there were a lot of gems and treasure chests but he was unsure from where the light came from.
"What's that?" He felt something so appealing about that light and it was beautiful, he wanted to follow it but something in his mind kept telling him to turn around and run as far as he could. He swallowed trying to swim towards it but the feeling got stronger telling him it was dangerous yet something was pulling him in.
He then began to swim towards it, slowly and carefully trying not to make any rapid movement; he was stressing out.
"If Raven created all of this… why will she create something so creepy" He thought to himself before he felt a shiver go through all his body. He wailed out stopping in the middle of the room.
He heard something.
The same noise that was calling him when he was at the tower.
"RAVEN!" He yelled suddenly feeling dizzy and confused. Where was that sound coming from, he turn around feeling a call from behind him? Was it trying to keep him away from that light? Or to go to it? The dizziness didn't help, the sound grew higher and stronger almost unbearable.
And just as he felt like he was going to pass out from that sound he began to feel something else. Pain but not his pain, someone else's pain. Beast Boy swam away from the light but the pain and the shrieking sound was blinding him, feeling as he was going to black out and before he did he saw a figure coming to him. Raven.
He blacked out.
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"Beast Boy" Raven whispered. "It's me Raven" He opened his eyes feeling her light touch on his face. He blinked a few times before adjusting to the light of the room and he saw her, Raven, the Raven he knew without those horns and creepy eyes. She wasn't smiling and it was beautiful for him.
"Raven!" He said trying to get up. "What's happening?! Where's the other Raven?!" He asked confused as tears flowed down his cheeks.
"Stop crying!" She demanded trying to hush him with her hands on his mouth.
"I CAAN'T!" He sobbed making an effort but being as noisy as ever, Raven looked frustrated.
"She's not another Raven" She said softly trying to hide her annoyance. "She's me"
"But you are Raven!"
"Yes and also is she" She turn around and up looking for something. "Beast Boy listen to me carefully because time is not in my favor, there's something dangerous in this place and I can't control it, it's going to destroy, you have to get out of here" She said calmly but her eyes looked worried.
"I'm not leaving without you!" He then notice the destruction and danger part, demonstrating how he only cared of her. "What's dangerous?" He asked confused.
"Something, I can't name it" She admitted hatefully. The room was becoming so bright, as if he were waking up from a dream.
"Raven, is this a dream?" She nodded.
"Don't worry I can be everywhere here"
"But how are you like this, in this form and act like I remember you did?" He asked his face inches away from hers as he felt his hands clench tightly of the fabric of her cape. He began to feel like he was going to wake up and fear escaped his eyes.
"I can be whatever I want in a dream… I know that I'm different Beast Boy and that I might seemed scary… but you have to trust me" Her hand gently caressed his shoulder and neck to stop in his chin. "I am the only thing I can trust so please… so trust her, trust me" She made a weak smile. "Go… I'll try to get us out of here and bring some sense into me… and do not…" He felt himself drifting away.
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"Beast Boy!" Raven yell waking him up from his "dream" she was worried, desperately trying to bring him back to life. "Fuck… you alright!" He heard her say hugging him tight.
"Ra… ven"
"What where you trying to do? Do you want to die!?" That reminded him of the first dream he had of Raven "I want to die", was that the same Raven that he talk with in this dream? Or was it just a bad dream? He shook it off as he got up shaking his head.
"Raven" The horns where there in her face, he sighed. "I'm fine… I… heard something" The Raven stared into his eyes, she then sighed in relief.
"At least you're okay now" He helped him get up and she teleported them outside the cave, what appeared to be the top of the waterfall, she sat him in the green long grass next to a three. "Here, rest a little" She said placing him in the fine red blanket on the floor.
"There was a light in the boat in the bottom of that room, what is it?" He asked.
"A light" She said. Beast Boy found it difficult to know if she was asking or answering.
"A light" He repeated.
"Yes, a light" She said again. He frowned.
"It was not just a light… it was… it was…"
"Raven" She said arching her brow. She sat next to him and grabbed his hands. "It's a light that show us our loved ones but it's quite dangerous; I shouldn't have made it because its power is unstable it could destroy it all… that's why it was hidden" She said. Was that the danger Raven was talking about? He dare wonder as he recalled the words of that dream.
"Our loved ones?" He asked.
"Yes, when I first started this I created that so it show me my true desires because I was confused of why I felt so incomplete and scared" She grimace as she pouted. "It showed me you and because I already knew you were my loved one, I needed to know how deep in you I was… and it was… intense" She said awkwardly.
"What did it show you?"
"What did it show YOU?" She asked with a smile. He went silent, he knew that Raven said to trust the Raven but he wasn't sure he could. He had to, he had to convince her to leave with him. "To be honest when it showed me that I got scared and began with my transformation to forget you 'till you came and I remembered what I saw" She smiled. "What were your desires?"
If it was what she was saying, then it was Raven. He wanted to rescue the Raven he knew and talk to her, it had been so surreal.
He turn to her and saw her blushing, playing with her finger and then with her hair. "Yeah… that's what I thought… I can't talk about what I saw of you either" She smiled more coming closer to him as he started to understand what was happening, he tensed up.
"Whaaaaaa…"
"It was weird at first, I've never felt anything so strong and passionate of someone before, I taught it was going to show me my hopes and dreams but it show me your lust and your body…" She covered her face feeling her face go red.
"….aaaaaaaaaat?" He was blank.
"I shouldn't have say that! You don't feel comfortable with me and I'm making it worse…!"
"Wow, chillax dude… I…" He smiled finding cute how she went red. It was reminding him of Raven. "I'm just not use to being check out by a cute girl"
She let out a breathy chuckle as she lay in the grass gazing up the sky, red big stars bright as they'd been before. "I created this universe from scratch and it all came from things I liked about the worlds I'd been but exaggerated" She motion Beast Boy to lay next to her; he with a gulp complied and did as he was told.
"I know you can't trust me anymore" She said with a brittle tone that tried to stay strong.
"It's not…" Beast Boy sighed. "You're not the Raven I fell in love with"
"I know that" She continue nonchalant. "But I am her"
"I'm starting to see it" He wasn't lying, the dream was about her and she said that the Raven was her. "You're acting more like I remember" He said with a pitiful smile. Trust her, he remembered the words of the dream.
"It's because I'm remembering how it was… it'd been ages since I interacted with another human…"
"Amm… because the time goes differently here?"
"Exactly"
"Raven"
"Hmmm?"
"Do you want me to stay?" He asked looking at the stars, it was beautiful just like her. She turn to see him awestruck by the question.
"Of course, that's all I ever wanted"
"And do you think I'll be happy here?" He asked her bluntly.
There was a silence for a moment, he could hear her breathing mixed with his.
"Not at first, neither was I when I started this… my feelings were so strong for earth that it pained me think I was going to be apart from it and… specially you" Her hand trace the length of her horns. "But when I started my transformation, I could let go of what I felt before and star thinking of what I could do know… this Beast Boy" She waved a hand up motioning the sky. "It has so much potential… who knows maybe one day I could start a peaceful world"
"I didn't know you had the power to do that" He said. She huffed.
"The power I'm using now it's not limited like the one I used before, I've learn stronger and better forces" She smiled. "If you'll stay I could protect you and keep you safe. Nobody will ever hurt you and I'll be all you need just as I only need you" She had grabbed the boy his hands.
"Okay…" He said softly, feeling a tingly sensation in his stomach.
"Okay? You'll stay?" Raven asked confused and frustrated by the ambiguity. Garfield couldn't help that laugh that followed.
"We'll see" He said with a breathy chuckle. She blushed and then smiled.
"I love you so much Best Boy" She said softly with a brittle tone, she looked away hiding her teary eyes. Beast Boy saw her and once again felt like he was talking to the Raven he knew.
"Rae…" She found himself calling her suddenly feeling dizzy. He reach out to her pulling her softly by the chin so she will look at him. It was Raven alright, stubbornness fighting her own feelings. "Don't look away" He felt even dizzier.
She got closer to him and he did the same, their lips almost brushing. She smiled and shy away but was quickly pulled by her head and waist towards Beast Boy. She awestruck felt silly as she felt the warm lips of Beast Boy on hers and his hands moving ever so slightly.
Relaxing, she let herself get driven in the moment as she felt her body cling to his as she kissed him back with even more fury.
Beast Boy had been wanting to touch her since forever and now he was kissing her. There was no doubt, she was Raven and he couldn't care less if she had horns now! He will stay and be with her, forever and ever.
As he fantasied he felt strong arms pushing him away from her. Raven was looking down and panting her face covered by her hair.
"I'm so…"
"Don't apologize" She said her voice sounding off, deeper and unreal. Like the first time he'd seen her. She clasp a hand to her mouth as she heard her own voice and felt how the boy tensed up when he heard the voice.
It creep him out.
"Raven…?" Beast Boy moved away as the girl let go off him and she relaxed herself.
"I'm sorry" She said sounding embarrass, not looking up at him. "But I can't control myself in such… state" She said shyly. "If I lose control I will show more of myself like I am now and I know it scares you and that's the last thing I want to do" She slowly looked up, compose like if nothing had happen. She'd put walls up.
"It's not like it scares… me" Beast Boy felt bad now, it was Raven he'd never want to make Raven feel like she needed to change for him. He sighed 'and what a good fucking job you're doing' he said to himself angry. "It's you" He finally said blushing.
"It is me" She said looking away. She sighed. "I just… want to look nice for you" She whispered.
"Raven." He called her. "You're not nice, you're beautiful and no matter how you look you'll always be beautiful for me" Raven smiled at that and Beast Boy hugged her he said it but felt uneasy. It was her voice that made him shiver and her crazy eyes. He hugged her tighter hoping she could stay like this.
"You can't possibly say that you like how I could look if I lose control!" She pushed him away. "My body shivers at the simple touch… of holding you and I can't help what I might say or do if she give the slight idea of us being together" Beast Boy felt a shiver go down his spine, he wanted to hold her too and his virginity was showing how turn on he was by hearing her say this.
"Kiss me Raven" He asked her for some reason he was panting. He felt a sharp tug of his hair and a hand clenching his nape. He let out a breathy moan as he felt Raven getting closer to him.
"Is it working?" What was working? Beast Boy felt his body so hot and his mind a blur. "Is it working?" She asked him her voice sounding deeper. "Is it? I won't be able…" He closed the space between them with a needy moan as he muffled her voice with his kiss.
For some strange reason the idea of doing it with her didn't scare him no more.
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I think this one was quite short. Thanks for reading.
-Ike
