*Continued due to request, Starts with Mary and Spencer having coffee this chapters from Mary's POV

Mary: "So tell me a little about your interests what do you like to do?" Spencer asks me

"Well, I'm very into music, I love writing poetry, traveling and learning about new culture, I'm very fluent in French" I say

She starts talking to me in french, we carry on the conversation for a minute in this language before she switches back to English.

"So what do you like to do?" I ask her

"I'm also heavy into music and culture, I love traveling, Into poetry a bit too, My family is big into Liberal politics so of course I take an interest in it too, I've always been the brainiac of my clique of friends" She says

"Ah so your thinking no toupee in the oval office too?" I ask laughing slightly

"Are you kidding me I hate Trump!, I'm glad your not voting for him, that one I might have not wanted to be seen in public with you over" she says winking at me.

We go on to talk about our interests and places we've visited, it turns out we have a whole lot in common down to a distinct love for Fleetwood Mac!

She opens up to me about the fact that she used to use amphetamine, I used to use it too helped me focus, another thing yet we have in common, we're both recovering addicts

It's crazy how much alike 2 people can be, our personalities mesh and are so similar, there's more than just a spark between us, we're more like twin-flames.

Yeah I feel a little subconscious about having feelings for someone younger than my daughter was but I also let it go, Age doesn't really matter much, especially when there's so much chemistry

Now Spencer was my little bit of tenderness in this world, I want to tell her that Charlotte was mine biologically and was the product of a rape, By who I'm not sure, someone at Radley but I'm just not ready yet, of course no one believed me

She and I are still just getting to know each-other, I never thought I'd be with a girl but there's something about her personality that I find more attractive than I could any guy.

She and I part ways after one more electric kiss, I almost came I was so turned on, We vowed to see each other the next day, meet at her barn and there I was the next afternoon laying cuddled up in her arms, being held and kissed

Receiving physical contact and so much affection that I hadn't received from anyone in the longest time, I felt so safe with her.

But I was keeping dark secrets, "Elliot" as he went by, I was working with him to try and figure out who he was and keep Alison as safe as I could, the truth is that he's got a hold on me and keeps threatening to kill me if I say anything to anyone about what he's doing

I wanted to speak up when he contacted me with his whole crazy scheme saying Charlotte was dead, I had a bad feeling he had done something and threatened to go to the cops if he didn't leave me alone but he held a pistol to my head and made me go along with him

I figured if I worked with him I could at least try to shield Alison from his wrath.

Yeah I wanted part of the money, It was all going to Jason and I wanted the money for Alison and I

That money had come from my grandparents and Jason didn't deserve all of it, that just wasn't fair.

I didn't like what he had me doing dressing up as Jessica but there was a gun to my head literally and I wanted to keep Ali safe

By the time he called me in, the two of them had already gotten married and he had already made her get a concussion, I had to get involved for her sake and to find out who this man my daughter had been in love with truly was, Yeah he's the only man my daughter ever loved but he's also completely insane.

I figured she'd be safe from him in Welby but when I found out what he was doing I spoke up and told him it had gone too far, He said I had gotten my money and needed to stay away from Ali that it wasn't part of the plan, I wasn't done with Alison and this whole unsafe game he was playing

Especially after hearing that her mom had buried her alive, I may not have spent time around her but she's biologically my niece and Elliot's hurting her, I can't just let him get away with it but when I tried to tell him to stop he nearly choked me to death.

Sure I'm a dark villain I have my motives, but not all villains are bad, some of them are secretly trying to protect people, Dark Super Heroes who have to do dark wrong things for the greater good

I've been totally genuine with Spencer, I have no ulterior motives there, It's just she's been so caring and kind to me, more than anyone ever has

I-I think I'm falling in love with her, I can't explain it, I've never felt like this about anyone before, We've only really known each-other a few days but it feels like a lifetime and the way she makes my heart flutter.

Spencer was my safe place but I can't help but think I'm endangering her, If Elliot found out I was involved with her romantically, he'd kill me literally and probably her too

This isn't part of his plan, he's going to flip if he figures out, it's always his way or the highway, he doesn't like unplanned things or surprises and so far I've come no closer to figuring out his actual identity

I have my share of PTSD and dissociation but I'm not nuts like he is.

And no one ever sticks around, She'll probably leave just like everyone else has

I'm going to lose her just like I do everything else I allow myself to think I have

I've already let her in it's too late to stop myself from getting hurt, if I rip myself away from her I'm going to hurt myself.

I feel myself tighten my hold on her shaking slightly

"What's wrong Mar?, Hey talk to me" She says softly looking at me worried

"I don't want to lose you" I say shakily fear and pain plastered on my face a tear trickles down my cheek.

She looks deep into my eyes "Hey, that's not going to happen honey, never, I'm not going to hurt you and I'm not going anywhere" She says trying to soothe me, She kisses me tenderly on the forehead

"I'm so terrified" I cry into her chest clinging to her

"Maybe I can help if you tell me whats going on" She says softly

"Can you just hold me for a while?" I say starting to hyperventilate

"I got you, I'm right here Mary, your safe, just breathe, I'm not letting go" She says gently kissing my hair I see tears welling in her eyes

We stay cuddled up together for half the day, Watching Murder, She Wrote, We had a make-out session somewhere in there, No one ever held me like that especially for that long, I had never felt safer before in my life but I can't help but think what did I do to deserve someone as good as her.