Here is chapter 5. I recommend reading this with some dramatic music as a background. Hahaha.
Thank you for the positive feed backs. I plan on finishing this until the end, maybe about 3-4 more chapters. Please enjoy!
"Hey look at him"
"Is he okay?"
After staring blankly at the empty space, I decided to leave the park and walk back at the Polar Star Dorm. I didn't notice the tears gushing out of my eyes until I saw the people looking at me with worried face as I pass through them. I used my left hand to wipe the tears off my face and decided to run quickly away from that place. It was already 8 o'clock when I arrived at the dorm. I opened the dorm's door and my dorm mates looked at me as I arrived.
"Souma-kun?" Megumi walked towards me and looked at my face. I just looked at her as she touched my face using her left hand. "Are you okay Souma-kun? Why are you crying?"
"Did something happened Yukihira?" Isshiki-sempai walked towards me.
I used my right hand to removed Megumi's hand off my cheek. "Nothing." I looked down and walked pass them.
"Souma-kun..." I hear Megumi called me again but I didn't looked back and entered my room. I quickly lie on my bed after closing the door and putting my bag down the floor. I stared at the ceiling and began to cry harder.
I never thought it was this painful. My heart was pounding so fast and I feel that it was going to burst anytime. My breathing was so heavy that I feel that I will run out of air anytime soon. I didn't know what to do. How can I face tomorrow after what has just happened?
I examined my pocket and found the ring I had prepared to give to Hisako after telling her my confession. "Why does it need to end this way? I never thought this thing would happen!" I threw the ring outside the window and hugged my pillow. This feeling is so hard I really don't know what to do.
"Yukihira, please open the door." I hear Isshiki-sempai banging through the door. "Tell us your problems so we can help you." Maybe they hear me scream and was sick worried about me. I don't want to talk to anyone.
"Please leave me alone!" I shouted at him. I really wanted to be alone. After a few minutes of banging and shouting through the door, he soon stopped. I closed my eyes trying to rest to forget this feeling for a while but I can't. It is so hard to sleep. Maybe I should take some sleeping pills? Hurt myself physically so I can forget the pain mentally. Overdose on medicine. Have myself be hit by a car and get amnesia. Jump off the window. Hang myself and suicide. I feel like I wanted to die. Even though I wanted to do those things, I am afraid. So this is the feeling of becoming hurt. I wanted to move on really fast. God, please help me. Soon I found myself sleepy and fell asleep.
I opened my eyes. The sun was so bright and I feel that the light was piercing through my eyes. My pillow was wet from the tears I have shed last night. I looked at the clock. It was already 10 o'clock. I am late for class. But instead of getting up and hurrying, I just sit on my bed and stare blankly at my front. I don't feel like going to class today. I looked at the mirror in front of me and saw how I look like. My eyes are hurt as if I was punched in the face and my hair was so messy. I stood up from my bed and decided to take a breakfast. I haven't eaten anything last night. I went into the kitchen and no one is there. I decided not to make any food and eat the leftovers in the fridge instead. I look at the fridge and was surprised.
'Souma-kun, I prepared this for you. Please eat up and be okay.' It was written in a Message in one of the lunchboxes. 'It must be from Megumi' I thought. I opened up the box and it's full of rice balls that Megumi always creates. I took the box and decided to eat it.
It doesn't feel right. It doesn't feel right at all! It was like I was eating a rubber. Megumi's cooking doesn't taste like this. I took another bite and I feel that my cheeks are getting wet again. I didn't notice that I was crying. I thought that trying to get my mind off her would let me easily forget everything. No, it wasn't. I closed the box and return it to the fridge and decided to go outside for a walk instead. I took a bath, get dressed and went outside.
The air was so refreshing; maybe taking a walk could let me forget about her. The first place I stumbled upon was an abandoned house near the dorm. I remembered we even did that 'thing' in that place. I quickly leave the place without a second thought. I went into the market and stumbled upon the restaurant we ate. Again, this brings back memories so I quickly leave the place. Everywhere I go, I think about her. The last place I went is the school. I walked in the second floor's hallway trying to find a place where I can forget about her but it isn't working. I decided to go back to the dorm again but then, unexpected things seem to show for me.
Sadatsuka Nao was looking at her usual telescope towards the first floor.
"Grr... Hisako Onee-sama."
I looked at where Nao was looking and was surprised and very hurt by what I have seen.
Hisako was walking with someone and she is very happy. In fact, I haven't seen that smile when I was with her. They stopped walking, only for the guy to kiss her in the lips. And both of them smiled and continue walking.
"That spice guy Akira Hayama! I never thought that he was going out with my Hisako Onee-sama" Nao cursed after seeing that seen.
My knee was shaking after what I have seen. My world was crushed once again. I quickly run away from the scene and I once again burst into tears. I stumbled into the ground and slowly get up. I can see my tears pouring into the dry earth soil.
"Why do you have to do this?" I said to myself punching the land. "You've made me like this. Why do I am the only one who have to suffer?"
"Yukihira?"
I looked up at the familiar voice. "Takumi.."
This is kind of related to what I am thinking when I broke up. Please don't judge me. Break ups really are so sad... :(
Chapter 6 will be up soon but if I don't have some extra time, probably next week.
Thank you for reading again. Please R&R if you like the story.
