Hello everyone! I know I've left you guys all on cliff hangers, aren't I awesome? I'm going to be gone for the rest of the week, so I won't be replying or updating anytime soon, so enjoy the chapter! And I have to finish this chapter tonight and the rest of my stories. So I'm just going to say THANKS EVERYONE FOR YOUR REVIEWS AND SUPPORT!! And no, this story isn't coming near to an end.
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Chapter 16 – It Isn't Over
I was getting tired. Everyone gets tired after some time. And what do they do when their too tired to go on? They just simply go away, sleep and never wake up. Maybe it was my time. I know I would hurt her, I know she would never forgive me, but she would have to bear with it. Anyways, she can meet me later when she gets tired too.
The pathway was dark for me as my legs dragged across the sandy road... it lead to what I think were mountains. The sand I walked across on was very fine, and they felt soft beneath my feet. They were shaded jet black and even though there were no stars nor sun nor moon, it reflected light. 'How odd….' I thought. It was completely dark, yet somehow I could see myself and the mountains coming closer. But that's when I noticed that the mountains were glowing…no wait, there was light behind them. It seemed like this new world was starting to dawn…yet somehow it also seemed like I was walking to the end of this world.
I could suddenly hear music on my journey to the mountains. The song…the main song was played with a bell and the inserted instrument was a piano. This song…it brought memories of her and me, playing back in Rukongai and growing up together and learning together in the academy. (A/N: The song he's talking about is called Mirrors from Tales of the Abyss, I was listening to it when I was updating…and it seemed right.) It made me feel like something I haven't done in a long time…cry. It hurt to see those memories flash before my eyes and hearing the laughter ring in my ears. I never told her that I loved her, and I don't think she ever got the chance to say what she felt for me. I should've paid more attention to the way she acted…and then maybe I could figure out how much I meant to her. I couldn't help feeling a little guilt however, at the fact that when I heard her say that she didn't believe the truth…that I felt she turned her back on me and that she was blind.
Maybe she doesn't realize that she means so much to me, and how much it hurt when she said she loved him and not me, spent more time with him than with me, talked about him in front of me…made gifts for him and not so many gifts for me…that she believed him and not me. What makes him so much better than me? What does he have that I haven't got? Is it because he showed her affection and I was trying to hide mine? I died as a kid, but now I feel like for the past years; that I've grown to a wise young man…who still doesn't know enough about love.
She may have been blind at one point because she loved him, but I was blind my whole life, not knowing how I should've acted. I knew that life was hard, hell; it was harder than living as some homeless kid. But I knew nothing of how much HARDER love was…and sometimes I wish I had some I could talk to about this. The other drunken girl was no help…she would probably just tease me. And well…that's just about as many people I could ask for…not a lot of people…. Most of the time, I could tell her, but not this time.
The mountains were right in front of me now, reaching high for the clouds that danced across the black sky…wait, there were no clouds…. The light behind the mountains were blinding; and as I was climbing the rocky surface, the light slowed me down a lot. Normally, I could just jump my way through this mountain…but I've lost the skill to do lots of stuff…that skill just so happens to be lost. I'm probably just a wreck, covered in dirt and tattered clothing…so even if I end up seeing her again…I probably be in no shape to tell her that I loved her.
I didn't notice the song was repeating itself this whole time until I heard a different song playing. A girl, she was singing a sad song…I heard her sing something like: "I'll be waiting for you, even if it means sitting here and to never get up until you come. You promised you would come back, so I know you'll come and say again that you love me."
She's waiting. She's waiting for me to come back and tell her that it's okay; that she shouldn't cry anymore. That she should smile like how she use to and that everything will be back to normal. She's waiting to hear me say the simple words…. I love you Hinamori.
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She thought that everything was real when she woke up from another nightmare. Staring outside her window, she realized that it was another day without Hitsugaya by her side. Not that he was really by her side…he was actually in a different division, so he couldn't really be by her side. She already knew Aizen was dead, so how was it possible that he could come back alive? 'What stupid dreams I keep getting.' She was upset at how her dreams leading to Hitsugaya's death and all about the Rukongai days. He said the other day that he'd tell her about the Rukongai days when he feels like it. Little did she know that that would be when he told her his feelings. Sighing, Hinamori got up to start another day. It had been about a year or so since she's woken up, so it makes sense that it would be Hitsugaya's birthday. 'It's December 20th!! I can't wait to see Hitsugaya-kun and his expression when I give him my present!' She thought happily.
Dressing up as usual for a special occasion, she left her hair down but pinned both sides of her hair with peach clips (the same ones for her birthday a long time ago). Since it was Hitsugaya's birthday, and he was a taichou there was going to be a big Taichou Party for him some time later that night. And when something that big happens, there's gotta be something bad happening in something like that.
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Yes, I'm lazy had to end it there, I know I was suppose to update this a while ago, never ended up finishing until after being away, and I'm still too lazy so…..THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR SUPPORT!!!! I have to update my other two stories now….
