March 27th, 2016

Seth was in bed and he was feeling sick. His heart was in his throat and he had to fight the urge to throw up. Luckily for him, he was only working in the afternoon so it would give him time to rest a little bit, but his mind kept running and he couldn't find sleep. Dean was leaving today. He was actually leaving in a few hours. He didn't want to say goodbye to him. It was too hard on him. He'd rather stay in bed and pretend that man never really existed. He wanted to cherish his moments with him forever and saying goodbye would tarnish his memories. The day before, after they came back from the beach, Seth had told his lover that he wasn't feeling well and that he wanted to go back to bed. Dean wanted to join him, but the two-toned man refused. He needed to be left alone. He didn't have to voice it out loud. Dean knew what it really was about, but at least, he had not insisted on staying with Seth. After his lover kissed him and told him to get some rest, Seth went back to his room, heavy-hearted, knowing that it was the last time he'd seen him. He thought a good night sleep would make it easier, but it didn't.

"Come here, big boy." Paige said as she lied down next to her best friend.

She wrapped her arms around Seth and pressed her chest into his back to cuddle him. She knew how bad he felt, she didn't need to ask him how he was doing this morning. The sadness in Seth's face was obvious and she hated to see him like this.

"You were right…" he said with a broken voice as he tangled his fingers with hers. "I should've listened to you. I don't know what the fuck I was thinking."

"You liked him Seth." she said to comfort him. "You had every reason to. And I know he liked you a lot too."

"Don't say that, you're making it worse."

"I'm sorry."

Seth closed his eyes and a single tear dropped down on his cheek. He swore he would never cry for a man, but Dean Ambrose wasn't an ordinary man. He was the one. He had no doubt about it. He knew it since the moment he laid eyes on him. There was something different about him and now he knew what that was. That man was his other half, his soulmate and he was about to lose him forever. He wished he could've said something to him the night before, but he just couldn't. He knew Dean cared about him a lot, but it didn't change the fact that he was engaged to someone else. He was simply an experience to him. When Paige noticed that her best friend was crying, she squeezed him a bit harder to remind him that he wasn't alone in this. Seth was grateful to have her in his life. He promised himself from now on that he would listen to what she said more often. She was right about him getting too emotionally involved with Dean and he should've done something about it. The two-toned man stayed in Paige's arms for a while, until knocks were heard on their door.

"Let it go, it's probably just Reina. She probably wants to do the cleaning." Paige said when Seth was about to get out of bed.

When Seth moved in, he made a deal with the hotel that he would clean in his own room. Reina was just so motherly with him that she was doing to cleaning even though she wasn't supposed to.

"Seth!" They heard coming from the other side of the door.

Seth's heart stopped beating when he recognized Dean's voice. His lover was knocking and screaming his name repeatedly, saying that he wasn't going to leave until he'd speak with him.

"Seth I know you're in there." Dean shouted. "Open the fucking door."

"He's going to get you in trouble." Paige said. "If someone sees him at our door, they'll suspect something."

"Do whatever you want, I don't want to see him."

Paige gave him a kiss on the shoulder and got out of bed. She lazily walked to the door, annoyed by the man who was knocking on it.

"What the fuck are you doing? You're going to get him in trouble!" She said as she opened the door.

"I need to see him."

"He doesn't want to. Just leave him alone."

"I'm not leaving until I see him." Dean shouted.

Seth was still in bed and was hearing everything. A part of him just wanted to run in his arm and cry but he knew it wasn't the best thing to do. He heard the door shut and looked behind him. Seth got out of bed and approached the door. He could hear that the two of them were still arguing in the hallway, but he couldn't hear what they were saying. The more he was getting closer to the door, the more he could hear them.

"I told you to stay away from him." Paige said.

"I couldn't."

"Look where it got you. Look where it got him."

"I need to talk to him. I don't want to leave without saying goodbye." Dean said.

"He's not good with goodbyes. Just leave, you've screwed him enough already." Paige let out in a sigh. "I knew this was going to end badly. I warned you. I knew Seth was already too attached to you and you had to go and make it worse."

"I… I think I…"

"What? You think you love him? Is that what you're trying to say? If so then you can save it, 'cause Seth doesn't need to hear this. You're leaving Dean. You're engaged to Cynthia and you're about to go back to your home. In two weeks, Seth will be just a memory to you, a guy you had fun with for a week. If you tell him that you love him, you'll fuck him up even more. Because for him, you'll always be more than just a thing. And that's specifically the reason why I begged you to stay the hell away from him."

Seth heart ached hearing those words coming out of his friends mouth, but again, he knew she was right. Dean stayed silent for a while and the two-toned man thought he might have taken off until he spoke again.

"Can you just tell him that I'm sorry?" Dean asked with a broken voice. "I never wanted to hurt him."

"I know. I'll let him know."

"Thanks." Dean mumbled.

He heard footsteps and tears dropped down on his cheeks again. That was it. He was gone. He would never see him again. Maybe he should've said goodbye. Maybe it would've been easier. Or maybe it would've worse. Seth was about to go back to bed when the door suddenly opened. Paige looked at him in shock.

"Were you listening?" She asked.

"Yes…" Seth admitted, ashamed that he'd spied on his best friend.

"Did you hear everything?"

"Unfortunately yes…"

Paige heaved a sigh of relief and brought her friend closer to her chest. Seth's started crying and he couldn't stop the tears from running down his face. He would never see Dean again.


Seth would've loved to stay home and cry his heart out all day long, but he had work to do. He needed to get over Dean and now that he was gone, he could start focusing on him and his job. The first client he had this afternoon was horrible. He was whining and bitching and Seth wasn't in the mood but a reassuring look from Paige gave him the strength to finish the massage without telling his client to shut the fuck up. After that, things were getting easier, but at the end of the day, Seth was exhausted.

"How are you doing?" Paige asked for the hundredth time.

"I'm fine."

"Are you sure? You don't look so good. Do you need me to clean your station? You could go home and-"

"I said I'm fine Paige." Seth let out in a sigh.

He knew that his friend was just concerned about him but at that very moment, he just needed to be alone. He told Paige that she could leave and that he would be the one finishing the cleaning of the room. He told her that he needed to keep his mind occupied and that he didn't want to witness another fight between the janitor and her.

"Sure?" She asked.

"A hundred percent." Seth said as he hugged her.

After Paige left, Seth locked the door and turn up the volume. After he cleaned the room the best he could, he leaned on the wall and let himself fall to the ground. Every damn song on the radio was reminding them of Dean and it was hard not to burst into tears again. He closed his eyes and tried to think of something else, but it was easier said than done. The memories he had with him just popped into his mind and he could see all the good times they had. It hurt him, but at the same time, he didn't want to forget. The door suddenly swung open, waking him up from his daydream.

"Excuse me Seth, I didn't know you were still here." Said the janitor.

"No problem Miguel, I was about to leave anyway." Seth said. "You need help with anything?"

Sometimes, Seth would stay and help the janitor clean. He'd grown closer to him over the years and he just loved making conversation with him. He loved to hear about his big family and his lovely wife.

"No thank you, I will be good today, I have a new helper." He said.

"Really?" Seth asked, surprised that they would hire someone new with him knowing it.

Miguel passed his head in the hallway and told someone to come in. When the man made his way inside the room, Seth's heart stopped beating.

"Dean, meet Seth." Miguel said to the new employee. "He's a massage therapist here and he's a very good guy."

"I'm sure he is." Dean said. "You know what Miguel, I think I can handle it by myself. I would hate for you to be late tonight because of me."

"Are you sure you're fine alone?" Asked the janitor

"Yeah I'm sure. If I need anything, I'm sure Mr. Seth can help me right?"

Miguel looked at Seth for a moment and the two-toned man nodded, still in shock. The janitor smiled and left the room, leaving both guys alone in the massage room.

"What the fuck are you doing here?" Seth asked.

"What does it look like I'm doing? I'm working. I'm not wearing that ugly outfit for fun believe me."

"What do you mean you're working? Aren't you supposed to be in a plane on your way home?"

"Yeah, hum. I missed the flight. It was stupid, but I couldn't catch it in time." Dean said with a smirk.

"Where's Cynthia?" Seth asked, still confused.

"She caught it. She's probably landing right now."

Seth couldn't believe it. It was a dream for sure. He fell asleep when he closed his eyes while leaning on the wall right? There weren't any other explanations. There was no way in hell that Dean was really in front of him right now, wearing a janitor suit. But when Dean slowly approached him and put his hand behind his neck, he knew it was real.

"Why are you here?" Seth stuttered as Dean lips were getting closer and closer to his.

"I couldn't leave."

"But you can't just-"

"Why not?" Dean asked, interrupting him. "I'm allowed to do whatever the fuck I want and right now what I want is to kiss you, so that's what I'm going to do."

His lips crashed onto Seth's into a passionate blond man wrapped his arm around his lover's waist and brought him closer to his chest. Seth kissed him back like it was the last thing he would do on earth. He still had a lot of questions, but he was just so happy that Dean was here, in front of him.

"I didn't want to leave you." Dean said with a broken voice as he buried his face in Seth's neck.

"You're crazy."

"I know… When Paige told me you didn't want to see me, my world turned upside down. While I was packing my stuff, I couldn't stop thinking about you. I knew that it would hurt you to say goodbye but I couldn't go without seeing you. I don't know what's going on with me, but I've never felt anything like that before. It was like I was leaving a part of me behind and I couldn't live with it."

"What about-"

"Cyn?" Dean asked before he shrugged his shoulder. "Things weren't that great between us. We thought this trip could replace some things, but it didn't. She noticed there was something wrong with me so I told her everything. I thought she was going to go crazy psycho on me but for some reason, she didn't. She said she understood."

"Really?" Seth asked, surprised.

"Yeah… She told me that she was fine with it. That she saw the way I looked at you and that she understood I would never look at her like that ever again. She said there was electricity between us. She literally said that."

"So what, you just decided to stay here? What about your life back home? What about your friends, your family, your job…"

"Right now, I don't care. I just knew that I shouldn't take that plane." Dean explained, as he replaced a stray of hair behind his lover's ear. "So I got back to the hotel, stayed in the lobby for about an hour, not really knowing what I should do next, then I thought I needed a job and I came here. I asked for anything they had available and Miguel said he could use the help. I told him I was his man and here I am."

"I can't believe you did this."

"I did it for you." Dean said as he looked into Seth's chocolate eyes. "I'm falling for you. Big time."

Seth slowly kissed the blond man's lips and told him that he was falling for him too. He was so happy that Dean stayed, but at the same time, he was concerned about him. Was that just a thing? Would he regret his decision in a week? In a month? Seth decided to let it go and make the most of his time with him valuable. He was going to live in the present and let Dean know that he did the right thing by staying.

"I'm gonna need to talk with Paige though. I'm pretty sure she'll be OK with you staying with us, but I still need to talk with her first."

"Actually, I was thinking…" Dean started.

He stopped talking and simply looked at his lover with a big smile on his face. Seth frowned his eyebrows, waiting for Dean to finish his sentence, but the blond man just stared at him. The spark in his eyes made the other man wonder what he was thinking and curiosity got the best of Seth.

"What?" he asked, impatient.

"Cynthia and I were talking about buying a house soon so I've been saving some money. Now that I'm gonna stay here for a while, I thought I could get a place of my own."

"That's a good idea."

"There's this house on the beach that a guy talked to me about the other day. A beautiful little house that needed a lot of love."

"Are you kidding me?" Seth asked, mouth opened in shock.

"I was also thinking about asking that handsome dude if he wanted to move in it with me. I'm pretty sure he could turn this beauty into something even more beautiful."

Seth's heart was racing into his chest. He couldn't believe it. Dean was talking about buying the dream of his house and he was literally asking him to move in with him. He couldn't stop smiling and he immediately hugged his lover so hard that he could barely breathe.

"Actually…" Dean said as he moved away from Seth.

The two-toned man watched him reach for something in his back pocket. Dean threw something at him and Seth caught it in the air. It was a set of keys.

"I already bought it."

"What?" Seth shouted. "Are you fucking-"

Dean shut him up with a kiss. Seth let the keys fall down to the floor as he wrapped his arms around his shoulder. He bit his lover's lip, earning a moan from him. Dean's hands made their way to his ass and the blond man lifted Seth in his arms. He sat him on his massage table without breaking the kiss.

"I've always wanted to try this massage table with you baby." Dean whispered in Seth's ear.

Images of the dream he had the first time he saw Dean came back to the two-toned man's mind and Seth couldn't hold back his moans. He'd been wanting this for so long and he was about to have it, right here, right now.

"I see that's what you want too." the blond man said as he his eyes laid on his lover's growing length.

"Fuck yes…"

That was all that Seth could say before Dean lips were onto his once again.