This a short chapter today but I hope you like it nonetheless. I've had a lot of questions on who the other man is. Just be patient. I know some of you won't like it but stick through and I think you'll be happy with the story. Thanks for reading!
Chapter 2
May 26, 2011 - CPOV
I forced Anastasia to make a decision today and she decided she couldn't be my submissive. Quite frankly, I don't think she can either, but I was hoping we could work something out. Ever since she fell into my office, I knew she was different and I couldn't take my mind off her. In the end, she wanted more - she wanted hearts and flowers and that's not something I know. What would we be doing if I hadn't made her decide?
I was having a good time with her these past couple of weeks. She affected me like no one else, even vanilla sex was good with her. She was the first woman who slept in my bed, the first woman with whom I had sex in my bed, and she was the first woman to meet my mother. Shit. What do I tell my mother? I can't say a lot since Elliot and Kate are dating. This is why mixing these things together is not a good idea. It just makes everything messy.
Maybe a new sub will get my mind off of her. I'm sure I'll find I'm just infatuated with her because of the sex. Someone else can take my mind off of her for good. I give Elena a call.
"Christian, darling. How are you?"
"I'm fine, Elena. I need a new sub. Do you know of anyone?"
"Your little pet project didn't work out, huh? Well, now that you know there is no place for feelings in life, we can set you up with someone new. I'll send you over the information. And, Christian, we should get together soon."
"Yes, Elena. Just send the info over as soon as you can. Bye."
"Bye, darling."
In a few hours Elena sends me the dossier of the next potential sub.
Carmen L. Brazier
3225 Conifer Drive
Seattle, WA 98119
PHONE
425-409-6222
DATE OF BIRTH
December 20, 1985
EMPLOYMENT
Hudson's MensWear
Immunology technologist
PHYSICAL CHARACTERISTICS
Height
5' 7"
Weight
126.4 pounds
Hair Color
Brunette
Eye Color
Brown
Blood type
B+
RELATIONSHIP STATUS
Single, never married
RELIGIOUS AFFILIATION
None
FAMILY
Mother - Hanna Brazier, age 52
Father - Michael Brazier, age 53
Brother - Danny Brazier, age 19
She looks pretty good so I schedule an interview with her for early next week. The sooner I can get this settled, the sooner I can get Anastasia out of my mind.
It's 10 am the day of the interview and Taylor enters my office to let me know she's here. "Sir, Miss Brazier is here for you."
"I'll be right there, escort her into the small conference room at the end of the hall." I don't need any gawkers and I don't have the time to do this interview anywhere else.
I walk into the room and see a young, attractive woman sitting across from me. "Miss Brazier, I'm Christian Grey. I assume my staff has already had you sign the NDA."
She looks up but doesn't look me in the eyes. "Yes, Sir."
"What are your BDSM hard limits?"
"Scat, urine, golden showers, needles, knives or fire, medical play, verbal or physical humiliation, caging, severe pain, children, or animals."
"What BDSM acts do you deeply want to try and why?"
"I'd like to try orgasm denial, anal, rough sex, fisting, and hot wax. I like the feeling of being at someone's complete mercy."
"What submission fantasies do you desire?"
"I like the usual boss and secretary, naughty schoolgirl and teacher but, I'd like to try home invasion and rape, sensory deprivation, and being sexually forced."
"What sexual acts arouses you most intensely?
"I like giving oral sex, forced deepthroat, hair pulling, and being bound and blindfolded."
"What are keywords that trigger your arousal?"
"I like being called a slut or whore and I like being told to suck his cock. I like it when my Dom is mean to me."
I conclude the interview and send her home. She's fine enough but I don't feel a connection to her like I did with Ana. Maybe I need to take a break from having subs. I try to concentrate on some financial reports but I'm unable to. Every time I think about a new sub, I think about Ana.
Why is this young, innocent woman invading my every thought? What does she have that no one else does? And, why do I care? I need to get her out of my mind before she ruins me. I need to forget her. We wouldn't have worked out anyway so it was better it ended sooner rather than later, right?
I call Bastille and schedule double the workouts for this week. Maybe kicking his ass will help me to forget her. I head home surrendering to my lack of focus and go for a run. I run through the Pike Place Market and through the park. I push myself faster and faster trying to empty my mind. Somehow, I end up in front of her apartment. I don't even know how I got here or how I remembered her address. But, I know she's home because her Volkswagen is parked there. What a piece of shit car. If she would have agreed to be mine she'd be safe and driving a new A3. Suddenly, I see a light flicker on in the apartment and I make my way home careful to not get caught.
Elena calls me five times the next week each time offering a new submissive to me. I know Ana wouldn't have been a good submissive, yet I feel like she also can't be replaced. But she's too good - too innocent and sweet. She doesn't belong in this lifestyle. She deserves hearts and flowers like in the novels she reads. I would only hurt her and bring her down. I made a mistake those weeks ago. I should have left it go after the coffee shop. I should have never sent her the books and just stayed away.
