5.
But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two
And finally I'm forced to face the truth,
No matter what I say I'm not over you
Not over you
Lucas is broken from his thoughts by the sound of tinkly laughter. His ears perk up because it sounds like hers. His head turns to the table nearby. It's not her, and he feels a familiar pang of disappointment.
He hasn't seen her in person for so long, because she avoids him now. He worries that he will forget how beautiful she looks when she's in the sunlight and when she's laughing, how she smells like flowers and strawberries, how wonderful it feels to just hold her.
He worries about letting her slip from his memories, even though he's spent the past year trying to convince himself that he should forget her.
The girl he's watching is with a guy. They seem to be on a date. Lucas has seen many couples on dates before, but this one feels different. The two are laughing and talking, with this air of deep affection and true, deep love that forces hundreds of memories of him and Riley out from the depths of his mind.
They come surging out, an unstoppable force of sweet memories that are now torture to him. He feels himself succumbing to the unbearable feeling of longing and pain.
They were like that once. Riley and Lucas. Living in a world that they made their own, blessed with a love between them that was simple, true and deep.
Lucas glances at the plate and cutlery set on the other side of his table. He's at a table for two out of habit, even though she never shows up. He can't come to this place and not sit here.
He can't spend the rest of his life this way. He needs to move on. He needs to stop wallowing in what he can't have anymore.
But he can't, because he knows what he felt for her. He loved her. Loves her. It is that simple. And nothing else would replace what he felt for her.
Should he spend his life stuck in this constant cycle of pain and dull aches then? Or should he move on to another, a girl he will never love quite the same, another girl who deserves to be with someone who will truly love her?
His heart turns numb from all the pain as he stares at the empty seat in front of him. And more tinkly laughter coming from the nearby table reminds him of what he lost.
