WARNING: Rape situation involved.
DISCLAIMER: I do not own: Send My Love [To Your New Lover] by Adele. Nor am I affiliated with Adele and her music.
"I had always thought that people could understand me. Wow. What a lie. People assume that I am this bitch that can't do a damn thing right. I have heard rumours in the hallways that I like to toy people around, and then hurt them. I am the one that gets hurt all the time. Always putting myself out there. But once again, I am treated like a woman that can't do a damn thing right. They always misjudge me. I had thought someone would take my heart, and keep it. Instead what people see, is me being alone. And, of course assume, that I hurt the other person. When its the other way around. Hell, I am still a damn virgin. I love tours. Why? I get away from the stupid rumours. And no one can hurt me. How stupid that I thought this new girl was any different?! I will just give up on love, I will just give up on happiness. I mean seriously what the hell is the point. Maybe one day, that person will come and save me. Like-Yeah, right. Come on, this isn't a fairy-tale. I can always stop trying to hard. Right now, I will stick with my close friends. And forget that anyone else exists. Even if my heart is starting to beat that Gothic bitch."
Melinka didn't really sleep throughout the night. After all, she couldn't stop thinking about the kiss that she had shared with Meiko. Melinka knew that she couldn't tell Raze, for she had remembered last time; when she told him about her hanging out with her long term Oliver. Oliver is gay, and yet, Raze got pissed and began to beat Melinka. Neverthless, wasn't this okay? She kissed a girl, and wasn't shared with a male. Melinka knew of how this could end. One way is that she would get beat. So, she was reminded why she was supposed to be with, after all Raze is to be her one and only. Or Melinka would be taken back where she once was; with the family that she knew that surely didn't give a damn about her. What would Melinka do? Melinka sighed as she now stood and walked towards her window and looked out, to witness the moon caress the surroundings around her.
"Why the hell did Meiko have to kiss?!" Melinka's thoughts were enraged. "Now, if Raze finds the fuck out, he is going to hit me. Bust my goddamn lip. Thank you, Meiko for possibly fucking up my life!" The thoughts were screaming throughout her mind. "Yet, why do I have my heart fluttering every time I think about her? Or why did I enjoy that fucking kiss to much? Sweet Lord. I am a faggot." Melinka's thoughts were all over the place. "No. No. I can't be. Wait. Damn. I was a bitch, I called Meiko a faggot. Suddenly, I called myself that too. Maybe I am bi-sexual, maybe I need to explore that way." Surely, Melinka's thoughts were like a train except going all over the place. If her thoughts were a train, her thoughts would have derailed but now.
The next morning had seemed like everything had gone to shit. Melinka hadn't gotten any sleep; she continued to think about the times that Raze abused her, and the kiss. "Why can't I get Meiko off my mind?" Melinka asked within her mind. The black haired femme had looked around, and saw the maid staring at her, like she knew that Melinka had something on her mind. Melinka had to give off, the creepiest smile towards the maid, as she side stepped away from the maid. "Dammit. Am I that obvious?" Melinka thought. As she descended the stairs she saw Yuuma, Luka, and Rei sitting at the table. Melinka sat on the side of Luka, and sat there in silence. What could she say? Honestly, she had not a damn clue what to say or do, and therefore, she began to play with her eggs, until she was disrupted from her thoughts,
"So, how did the studying go with Meiko?" Yuuma asked,
"As good as one could hope. I guess. I mean we didn't get very far, other factors popped up. I guess you were right, Yuuma. She doesn't know when to shut the hell up; I had thought we would have gotten further than we had. Who knew?" Melinka lied of course.
"Ah. Okay. Sounds about right, Meiko has always been like that. For some reason she doesn't do her work, but she manages to get A's in like every single class." Yuuma whispered, "Don't worry you will get further in the assignment. Just don't beat yourself up over it." Yuuma stood. She walked to the sink and began to do her dishes.
"Yeah, what Yuuma said; sorry I don't really know Meiko. What I have heard about her, she is a little psycho. Okay, truth be told." Luka sat closer. "I have actually heard good things about her, just has a spontaneous. I think anyone would be lucky to be with Meiko. Why? As I said there has only been good things said about her. I am not saying you and Meiko will get together. I know you two are straight. Just know that Meiko is a good person. What Yuuma doesn't know, Meiko was there for me with everything that Miku did to me." Luka smiled. "Give her a chance, Melinka." Luka stood. "Alright, come on. We have school now." Luka stated, and walked away.
Once at the school, immediately Melinka was yanked by Raze, as she took in a deep breath, she knew of what was to happen next. She was about to be bitched at, for not texting Raze or calling him. Melinka was ready to be hit or punished with a verbal 'warning' and an emotional beat down,
"What the fuck is wrong with you?! You are supposed to call me, and yet, you fucking didn't. Melinka, you belong to me, and only me. How many fucking times do I have to remind you?! You ugly piece of shit, besides I am the only one who would ever want your ugly ass. I stand you because I feel sorry for you." Raze spat in Melinka's face. "You will meet me after fucking class. Got it?" Raze questioned. When not getting the answer fast enough, he grabbed Melinka by the collar of her blazer, "Got it?!"
Melinka was crying within this moment, "Yes, Raze. Yes, I get it." Melinka whispered. She had happened to look around everyone was staring at her and Raze; Melinka was let go. She immediately walked away to go to her first class. Once in the classroom, she remained silent. Everyone looked at her every now and again. There was nothing to say, nor do. Honestly, what the hell was Melinka supposed to say, or do? Raze was her boyfriend, at one point he wasn't like this. He was kind and caring, that was of course, before his parents had gotten a divorce. When his new step-father entered the picture, Raze had watched how he treated his mother. After witnessing this, Raze only believed this is how men treated the ones they; 'love'. Melinka finally looked up once addressed, "The answer three-fourths." Melinka spoke in a hushed whispered.
The teacher nodded, "That is correct, Melinka. Now—." The teacher's voice faded away as she continued to speak to the rest of the class. No longer being addressed; Melinka was able to think, and remember. Once to remember a heartbreaking situation, this wasn't going to end quite that well. Of whom; was to allow such a moment take them. Especially during class, yet, Melinka allowed her thoughts to go to that dark place.
Melinka and Raze were studying, sitting there and gossiping like any other night. Melinka felt Raze kissing at the nape of her neck. She wasn't going to push her boyfriend; they had sex on many occasions. To the point that Melinka was quite shocked that she wasn't knocked up yet. So, as if this was quite normal, Melinka released a soft moan, "Mmm, Raze. We need to get back to work, our assignment is due tomorrow." Melinka chuckled. She inevitably released another moan, as the assault on her neck continued, "Okay, Raze, enough." Melinka tried to push her boyfriend away,
"You see what you do to me, babe. Come on. Just a quickie, that's all I want. We can fuck here." Raze almost pleaded like a child pleading for candy. "I promise I will be quick. I mean shit I am already hard. Just a quickie, I won't ask for anymore, and we can get on with the assignment." Once Raze was pushed away again, he grew quite angry. "I said; a fucking quickie. And you will do that for me. Got it?!" Raze demanded. He pushed Melinka against the floor, and began to pull off her undergarments. After all, the women wore skirts. Raze pulled his pants down slight, just enough to get his appendage out, "Now, enjoy this, baby. Because I know you want it, like you always do whore."
Raze penetrated into Melinka, he could feel her struggling. "Stop; and fucking enjoy." He began to thrust into her, going slow to either make her suffer or to just please himself. Why not, a little bit of both. His thrusts began to build momentum, as he continued to move in and out of the girl that he claimed to love. "God, this feels amazing." He moaned out, as his thrusts continued to build up in quite the speed. The statements like; 'No'. 'Raze, please stop'! 'I said stop'! Were falling away; from Melinka's lips—
"I said stop!" Melinka screamed. The class turned around and looked at the screaming and panicking young woman. She bolted away from the classroom, and headed right to the bathroom. Where she inevitably got sick, once she had a moment to be alone; she pulled her legs up to her chest, and began to cry. Melinka's heart was pounding so hard within her chest. She wasn't sure if this was because her screaming in class, and was utterly embarrassed. Or the fact she was reminded a horrific moment in her life. Melinka swallowed the saliva that had begun to build up in her mouth. With a lean of her head, the tears cascaded down her facial features, "What the hell is wrong with me?" Melinka thought. She could go on with her thoughts, until she had heard a familiar voice.
"Me-Melinka; are you there?" Meiko called out. "The teacher wanted to make sure you are okay. I mean are you okay?" Meiko's voice was soft and calming. "Melinka?" Meiko questioned, well, called out Melinka's name,
"I am sorry." Melinka whispered,
"For what?" Meiko questioned,
"For calling you a faggot, it wasn't right of me. I am sorry, Meiko." Melinka whispered. As she was still locked away in the bathroom stall; she witnessed Meiko crawling beneath the opening. "Wha—" Before words could form, she felt Meiko's arms wrap around her petite frame. This embrace was warm, comforting, and soothing. Melinka could stay in this embrace. This was something new for her, to feel a warming moment that made her want to continue on with her life. Raze's embraces? They were quite cold, and rather forced. On Melinka's side, she had to force herself to even lean into the embrace. Melinka slowly pulled away, with a moment to allow their eyes to connect. Melinka cleared her throat, "Thank you, Meiko." Melinka whispered. She stood and dusted herself off, as she heard the bell. She opened the bathroom stall, and bolted out.
Meiko gripped her chest, "Dammit. I wish Melinka never came to this school. I want to settle down, at least have someone like everyone else does. But—" Meiko sighed as she stopped her thoughts, but three more words fell into her thoughts, "She is straight." Meiko took amount to clear her throat, and to not let the tears that were trying to escape her eyes. Meiko finally dusted herself off, and walked out. She saw Raze kissing on Melinka. Immediately the green monster took over her. As she walked by Raze and Melinka, she looked at Melinka, she had caught Melinka blush only slightly. She had thought that the blush was for Raze,
"Who the fuck was that?" Raze asked,
"Oh, no one; just some lonely loser faggot. Don't worry, baby." Melinka shrugged. "Dammit. What the fuck is wrong with you, Melinka?!" Melinka asked herself in her thoughts. "So, Raze, babe. Do you want to go out after school?" Melinka asked,
"I can't babe, I am sorry. Maybe tomorrow." Raze smiled then kissed 'his girl'. Raze was happy, he Melinka wrapped around his finger.
The day had finally ended, Raze walked out hand in hand with Melinka. Everything was falling into place; rain began to fall slowly and surrounded the students. Some pulled out their umbrellas, and opened them to walk home. Yuuma and Luka headed towards the limo, well, almost dashed to the limo. Raze and Melinka were still walking in the rain. Melinka being the person she was, she loved dark places and the rain. Raze saw Meiko walk out, and immediately kissed Melinka in front her. He watched the brunette female bolt away, he smirked almost evilly. Raze now heard his girlfriend speak to him,
"Are you sure you don't want to go out?" Melinka asked,
"I said I can't today. Are you fucking deaf?" He asked angrily,
"I was just fucking asking. Damn!" Melinka rolled her eyes,
"I am sorry, babe. I didn't mean to get angry." Raze hugged 'his girl', then kissed her. Somehow, someway his phone fell out. Before he could pick up the phone, that he somehow did not witness that had fallen, he headed towards his car, what he didn't know is Melinka picked up the phone, and slide the phone right open, or well, glided the screen over to unlock the phone;
From Lola:
"Raze, baby. I am horny as fuck. Are you coming over tonight?"
To Lola:
"Damn, babygirl. Hell fucking yes, I will be over there once school is out. I will tell Melinka that I can't hang out."
From Lola:
"Such a naughty boy. Just don't tell Melinka. Okay? Her and I are still friends."
From Raze:
"Don't worry. I won't tell her. Besides this is kind of hot, me fucking her best friend. Lol. Stay wet for me, babe."
From Lola:
"Only for you. See you!"
From Lola:
"Enjoy, Babyboy. ;)" [New Image]
Melinka looked at Raze. Anger immediately took over, if the rain was cold, she would be gladly be steaming. She walked over to Raze and literally slapped as hard as she could. Then threw his phone to the ground shattering the screen, "What the fuck?! You fucking piece of shit pig! You told me you loved me, and I find out that you are fucking my best friend. God you have some fucking balls, to fucking do all that shit you did to me. Raped me! Beat me! You know what—" Melinka spat into Raze's face. "You little dickless bastard. I hope you get a goddamn disease. I am not sure what disgusts me more, that you have a little pecker and I actually fucked you or how a selfish pig you are? Hmm! Oh, I know. How about C; all of the fucking above!" Melinka was screaming, and everyone was listening. Except Meiko, who had run; away.
"You have some courage to talk to me like that, slut!" Raze screamed in Melinka's face, "Now, apologise, you disgusting whore!" Raze went to slap Melinka, but yelped as Melinka punched in the nose, to break his nose, "What the fu—" Raze went to finish,
"What the fuck? Really? Raze, is that what you were going to ask? Hmm. First. You get everything from me; my first kiss, my heart, and my fucking virginity. My god, why didn't I see the signs?! I got an idea, take your little pecker and fuck my best friend. Or better yet, go fuck yourself!" Melinka stated with anger in her tone. "Oh, Raze. We are over." Melinka stated, now of course as Raze was walking away. Melinka skipped over to Raze, and began to sing to him;
"This was all, none of it me
You put your hands all over my body and told me
You told me you were ready
For the big one, for the big jump
I be your last love everlasting you and me
That was what you told me
I'm giving you up
I've forgiven it all
You set me free, oh Send my love to your new lover
Treat her better
We gotta let go of all of our ghosts
We both know we ain't kids no more
Send my love to your new lover
Treat her better
We gotta let go of all of our ghosts
We both know we ain't kids no more"
Melinka skipped away, and got in the limo. And immediately sent a text to Lola,
To Lola:
"Hey, slut! Yeah, I found out about you and Raze. Have fun with his little pecker. Oh one more thing, do not call me. Do not ask about me from our friends. And one more thing, you are fucking dead to me. Goodbye, bitch! ^.^"
Once the three got home, Melinka went upstairs. She was smiling, but that smile was stopped as she thought about what she said to Raze about Meiko. Okay, maybe waiting this long, wasn't the best idea. Better late than never, right? Melinka took in a deep breath, she went to text Meiko. One little problem, she didn't have Meiko's number. Melinka descended down the stairs and went towards her cousins, "Say, do you either of you have Meiko's number?" Melinka asked,
"No. Her and I are not friends, so, I do not have her digits." Yuuma stated,
"Nope, I never got a real opportunity to talk to her. Well, I mean I did, but I never got her phone number. Sorry, Melinka." Luka whispered. She walked away with her tuna sandwich.
Melinka sighed, "Well, shit." She thought. Immediately she ran out of the house, at ten o'clock. When one needs to apologise, better get this over, before the moment becomes too late.
Melinka ran towards Meiko's house, luckily for her, Meiko's house was only about two blocks away. "Please forgive me." Melinka thought. Once at Meiko's house, she rang the doorbell, and no answer, "Fuck, fuck, fuck." Melinka looked around, immediately she remembered the side of Meiko's room. Melinka looked around, and found a few pebbles. She threw some at Meiko's window, "Meiko." Melinka whispered. She threw another, "Meiko!" The whisper was a little louder. Finally, after the sixth or seventh pebble, and the whispers getting a little louder,
"What the hell do you want?!" Meiko asked angrily, "Or am I just another faggot on your list to hurt?" Meiko snarled,
"Meiko, I really need to speak to you." Melinka replied,
"Piss off." Meiko went to close the window. "Seriously, get off my property before I call the cops." Meiko for some ungodly reason left the window open. And went became invisible as she walked away from the window.
Melinka looked around, that's when she saw something on the side of the house. Melinka walked over and got positioned just right and began to climb upward, once at the window. She got a peak, and saw Meiko's back to her, but the sniffling was something she was very accustomed too. "Meiko. Meiko, please hear me out." Melinka whispered,
"Why—Wait, how the he—" Meiko shook her head, "What does it matter? You will just call me a faggot again. How could you?" Meiko questioned. "You apologise, for you to only to call me a faggot again." Meiko shook her head, "Get the hell out. Ser—" Meiko couldn't speak as she felt Melinka's lips against her own. She immediately pushed Melinka off of her, "What the fuck is your problem?! Why would you kiss a faggot?! And you have a boyfriend!" Meiko hissed,
"I am sorry, okay!? I didn't mean to. I know; I am fucked up; I have known that for a fucking long ass time. I don't get why I had said it twice. You know the 'F' word. But for some ungodly reason, unlike when I say harsh words towards another, it hurt me when I said it to you. I don't know what's going on with me. But Meiko, when I am around you, I feel my heart beating so hard that I swear I go deaf, because my heart is becoming so loud. Yes, I called you a faggot over and over again. I am so sorry for it. And as for the boyfriend thing; Raze and I are over. I guess you gave me the courage to walk away from him." Melinka sighed. "I am sorry, Meiko. I really am, and I know you can never forgive me. And I get that. I just wanted you to know that I am sorry. I guess, I will, uh leave you alone now. But before I go, I wanted you to know, I like you, Meiko, and not a friendly like either." Melinka rubbed the back of her neck, and went out the same way she came in. Melinka swallowed the knot that had now clung to the back of her throat, and began to walk away from the house. The tears were surely inevitable at this point.
"Melinka!" Meiko yelled as she rushed out the door, as Melinka turned around. Meiko immediately kissed Melinka, and wrapped her arms around Melinka's neck, as she kissed this woman that she was falling for in the rain. Such a cliché moment, but perfect; right? As the kiss continued on, the moon surpassed through the clouds, and shined down on the two young women. Maybe Luka and Yuuma should a bit bolder. Just a little; more bolder at least. After the kiss, Melinka and Meiko held each other within the moonlight.
